Here's to hopin'...
Why do things always have to change? Why can't there be several constants in a person's life? Maybe there are and I am just blind. Perhaps it really is better this way. But it seems as if it's always one thing right after another. There is no break. You deal with something, move on, and wait for the next thing to come along. And you don't feel like you're living much at all. At least not like you should be. But after so much shit, it's very hard to unlock the gate around your heart and trust wholly once again. One thing after another makes it hard to let people get close. Unfortunately, there has been constant damage because I have been saying these things, then convincing myself I am being irrational, only to have it proven that I was in fact NOT irrational at all, but completely correct. Knowing me, however, I want to be close to people. I want to believe people are good, so every single time, I let my guard down. And I know I will this time as well. But I don't think it's me. No, it's not me at all. It's the other people. The ones who are doing this damage. So the only question is... Is everyone the same?
Here's to hoping they're not.
Here's to hoping they're not.