I want change and I don't miss you when you're gone

[kurtlovr7]

I'm working my ass off trying to lose this post breakup weight from like 2 years ago. It's so fucking hard. I finally picked up my guitar yesterday and was elated to feel so much joy from it. I was terrified that it wouldn't feel right anymore and that I had avoided it and forgotten. I can't wait to play after work today. I try so hard to do things now. I've gone out more and tried to be open to new things. I'm going to Vegas next month and I can't wait to blow all my money on blackjack. I wish I had more to say. I know I've thought about writing in here are least a dozen times.

On a weird note this guy I have a crush on has the same birthday as my ex which I find weird.