so tired. so sad and unworthy.

[kurradragon]

i am so tired. my life did not go as fantasized, let alone planned. there was no plan.

i ma a deadbeat.

i don't know whether to try, or to just make this place my garbage bag for all the darkness and regret and dark thoughts swishing in my head.
i have so many deep regrets.
so much pain.
so much regret.

so much self-injury. mental self-injury.
it is all i have left.