Further... Just Because
I can’t sleep right now…
My hands are bitterly cold, my stomach is growling because it’s so late and I haven’t consumed anything since dinner, and my back hurts from sitting here at the computer… it’s almost 2am on Saturday, and I have to go to bed early tomorrow (or today technically).
Why can’t I sleep?
I did have a bit of a scuffle… rather a small argument with a friend. It really pisses me off when I get things taken out on me. I didn’t even do anything, as usual, and I already have to deal with my family as it is. *sigh* Guess that’s how things work. Why, might one ask, was I taken out on? Simple. My friend got home to late to do anything, so I humbly requested we do something the next day. Well that didn’t go over well because, supposedly, we were supposed to have an overnighter. Funny how I don’t really know about these activities until later. Next, I got snapped at because I asked what was going on for tomorrow, and if she wanted to get together. What would she want to do? More snaps at me. Shesh, and I thought I was happy to have my friend home. What I’ve come to realize is I’m getting pissed off at her. She is so clingy and annoying: it has been this way for a while, but she had gotten better. Now, it’s more or less such things as they were before. If I don’t do something with her, or spend the night, she gets pissed at me, just because she didn’t see me that day. Is that always my fault?
You think one would understand when you want a fricken brake from them, wouldn’t you? *sigh* Or maybe I’m just being selfish.
So… tonight I just let it be on the internet through a chat, talked a bit on the phone when she couldn’t fall asleep, which wasn’t my problem so I did have a snippy attitude, and fooled around on Gaia. Seems some things are down on Gaia now, so I’m committing myself to cosplay.com areas, more or less AX 07 gatherings. I shouldn’t be doing this because I'll have a hard time sticking with them, but I really want to keep up to date and in the swing of things.
Argh… damn it all… damn that feeling… I’m just feeling over whelmed with things, and I have upcoming finals and my last speech… and damn this fricken sore in my mouth that’s as big as a dime… blech…
Anyway, shall be leaving now. I enjoyed slapping together my new sig for gaia contributed for my rp character for the guild Demonic New York.