Oh god....I think I'm dying!

Nov 15, 2010 08:29

T_T a other heart problem again but this it's different. I should think smart about my health these days.
I'm not even fat all and yet it seem I got fat in my heart ( my guessing) because I ate 2 fat food this week:
home made french fries and cook cookies dough. What I was I thinking.

Why bad thing are keeping to me? I was happy girl before bladder problem started, chicken killing in school(failed to protect and save them), and killed: Mice, cats, birds ( Failed to protect and save too ). And yet why I feel like i'm going to hell because I failed so hard to save animals I love? Not only but in to Yuri and Yaoi, and Asexual I will 100% will go to hell. I feel like god hate me, even through I love him very much.

I'm good girl who care for the homeless, animals, life on earth, I don't eat meat, I love too donate my money to poor If I had job. I just try to have life like people out there.

If I died than my family will end up on the streets because my mom spend all her money on me. I don't want that to happen. I can less if my mom have job and make alot of money as long she have the money to give me R.I.P grave.The only thing I should worried is going to hell and my family crying over me.

Pls Pray my heart to get better.

I want to thanks every one who had been there in my life. I really grateful :)

sad, life, emo

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