Apr 09, 2011 23:25
I'd say this is the most eventful week of my life. Or rather, the most trying week of my life. There's been demands from me in different aspects. Emotionally, physically, cognitively, and what have you. And all I can do is just watch time race by.
This week I lost someone dear to me, and if only I had taken the time to care for her more often, I wouldn't be shouldering this load of regret right now. It was a sad way to go, but as my instructor says, "shit happens". I wish I could've taken time of to heal, especially since I wasn't in merry spirits to be in good company. Then again, school is merciless and so is the rigorous education system.
Then I keep muddling through my subjects, possibly the only thing I'm good at. I wish I study because I have a passion to uphold, not just because I need it for a pretty slip of paper that may become worthless as the condition of the world deteriorates. Unfortunately, that is not the case. With the announcement of the pw results, I felt even worse to know that I got an A.
How darn sickening is that.
Yet it is not my place to comment for there are those out there who has done worse. You reap what you sow.
I need to get away.
And to those out there celebratin', congratulations.
rambles