UPDATE!!!
Live from New York, this is yours truely... Brittany :) I was just rereading some of my old recent posts and wanted to update to let anyone out there know I am still alive and things are changing a little in my life.
First of all, I would like to say happy Pride month to everyone that's celebrating! I will be in NYC as of 10AM this Sunday to get a head start on the festivities and be dragged around by my flamboyant cousin while he oogles guys and says "Omg, that's so cute, I should get it" to skimpy clothing... Ok, he really wouldn't say that or wear skimpy clothing but it's not too far from the truth. So yea, definately looking forward to celebrating Pride NYC for the second year straight (pun not intended). I bought Pri and I matching shirts which I'm not too sure if I want her wearing because she just HAD to buy it in black... Um... Hello?... NYC, sun and outside for over 6 hours? Great idea? I think I'm going to try to get her to wear something not so dark. I don't want her dieing on me. Not too sure if I'm going to be wearing the shirt either. Will make a trip to the mall Saturday and decide then. I will definately be making sure that the fucking camera has a CHARGED battery this year. No hand-me-down pictures from my cousin of all the guys he thought was cute... Yuck... So, yay Pride!!!
Next! No more part time old bitch that I can't stand. She is out of my life for good and I am sooooo happy about it. She was working with me for a little under 4 months... Does it really take 4 months to train someone and still have them doing the right things incorrectly? I don't think it should... But maybe I'm just retarded. ANYWAY, I'm back to doing everything again, and honestly I'm kind of happy about it after the part timer from hell. I found out that I like to be in control of the whole fucking alphabet!!! It's kind of like controlling the world..... A very tiny world... That only exists in files... Kind of sad though. So far I don't think it's going to be as bad as before when I was doing everything because the economy is shitting on everyone, meaning we're cutting back on expenses and 'going green', whatever the fuck that means.. I'm just happy that I still have a job, I do it well and my co-workers like me :)
The gym! Yes, I have started going to the gym regularly. So far all I've gotten from it is pain and sweat. I feel it all in my legs but seem to still be carrying around unwanted weight. I'm guessing this is because when I get home from the gym, I eat like I've never seen food in my life. Kind of defeats the purpose, but hey, I like to eat. Every once in a while I'll decide to cut back but then the monthly monster comes around and royally fucks everything up. This monster likes to make me feel fat, then hate myself, then want to eat everything that isn't nailed down. It's bad. BUT I will not let it ruin everything. I have yet to weigh myself for fear that it will confirm that I have lost zero pounds and possibly gained around five. Which in turn, makes me feel worse, and right now I really can't handle that. I want the false comfort that going to the gym is actually helping me. Last time I weighed myself, I was a flat 145 pounds... Which is a slap in the face because I've been going back and forth from 140 to 145 for the past, I don't know, let's say 5ish years. Pri thinks I don't need to lose any weight, but I can't trust her because she is my girlfriend and if I was wearing the most mismatched neon clothing with 2 very different socks, she would still say I looked perfect... Damn her.
Oh! Getting back into gaming! Recently bought about 6ish games off Amazon.com for very good prices. Note that these are for PlayStation 2 because I'm a broke ass bitch and can't afford a PS3 even though my mother's boyfriend has one (which pisses me off because it doesn't play PS2 or PS1 games!!!). I've been enjoying old games such as all the Final Fantasies and Clock Tower 3 (which still scares the crap out of me). You know what's great? Playing Final Fantasy X on a huge ass TV. I don't know if many have seen my living room TV (since I never have anyone over. I'm a terrible host) but it's not that one. My mother's boyfriend has this huge HD flat screen that is currently residing in her bedroom. It sucks because I can never get in there to play my games without having to kick them both out... Plus I like to play for a very very long time. From the time I get home from work, to the time I go to sleep. I would have to say that's about a good 4ish hours. Pri and mom bought me a Wii for my birthday and I'm so happy with it but the games are really expensive and most of them I have no interest in playing or have already played within an inch of their digital life. I feel bad not using it that much, but there's only so many time I can play Cooking Mama, screaming about how I'm doing something and it's not working, and not break something.
Looking to move the fuck out... STILL!!!... It's nearly impossible by myself. It's not even fair. I can find places for $600.00 a month... But things get tricky money wise. I still have cards I have to pay off. I'm still paying off my car and monthly insurance/phone bills. I did all the calculations and it ends up leaving me with just a little over $200.00 a month. And that's not even calculating in food and gas for my car (because it's not a steady amount). So, that's about a little over $100.00 for each pay check. After gas and food, I'm into the negatives. I just want to be able to do it on my own. Get a room mate you say? I would love to, but I'm very picky and I don't want to end up living with someone I can't stand or I'd never be there, then what's the point of me moving out of my mom's? I like to know I can do things on my own. I don't ask for help with my bills, I can take care of them without struggling. It's just the things along the way that need to be paid for that put me back at square one. Damn you square one!!!! Also, what's up with almost everywhere being 'no pets'? Seriously? I'm not going to leave my dog behind just because you don't want him in your building. He's a friggin seven pound Yorkie that's pretty much mute. And if they're worried about him biting people, well that's just retarded because I would be more worried about him following someone home.
OH! Trying to convince my mom to get a kitten. Found out her boyfriend is a big cat lover and wants a cat, so this is kind of my loop hole. She's more willing to let him get one than she is letting me get one. I will have my way though damnit! I already have a name for it. Maester Jyscal... If you all don't recognize the name, play Final Fantasy X then you will.
Ok! I think I'm done with all I have to say. I'm pretty sure this is all not very interesting to any of you, but it'll give me a good laugh once I decide to reread my entries in about 4 months :) HA!
First of all, I would like to say happy Pride month to everyone that's celebrating! I will be in NYC as of 10AM this Sunday to get a head start on the festivities and be dragged around by my flamboyant cousin while he oogles guys and says "Omg, that's so cute, I should get it" to skimpy clothing... Ok, he really wouldn't say that or wear skimpy clothing but it's not too far from the truth. So yea, definately looking forward to celebrating Pride NYC for the second year straight (pun not intended). I bought Pri and I matching shirts which I'm not too sure if I want her wearing because she just HAD to buy it in black... Um... Hello?... NYC, sun and outside for over 6 hours? Great idea? I think I'm going to try to get her to wear something not so dark. I don't want her dieing on me. Not too sure if I'm going to be wearing the shirt either. Will make a trip to the mall Saturday and decide then. I will definately be making sure that the fucking camera has a CHARGED battery this year. No hand-me-down pictures from my cousin of all the guys he thought was cute... Yuck... So, yay Pride!!!
Next! No more part time old bitch that I can't stand. She is out of my life for good and I am sooooo happy about it. She was working with me for a little under 4 months... Does it really take 4 months to train someone and still have them doing the right things incorrectly? I don't think it should... But maybe I'm just retarded. ANYWAY, I'm back to doing everything again, and honestly I'm kind of happy about it after the part timer from hell. I found out that I like to be in control of the whole fucking alphabet!!! It's kind of like controlling the world..... A very tiny world... That only exists in files... Kind of sad though. So far I don't think it's going to be as bad as before when I was doing everything because the economy is shitting on everyone, meaning we're cutting back on expenses and 'going green', whatever the fuck that means.. I'm just happy that I still have a job, I do it well and my co-workers like me :)
The gym! Yes, I have started going to the gym regularly. So far all I've gotten from it is pain and sweat. I feel it all in my legs but seem to still be carrying around unwanted weight. I'm guessing this is because when I get home from the gym, I eat like I've never seen food in my life. Kind of defeats the purpose, but hey, I like to eat. Every once in a while I'll decide to cut back but then the monthly monster comes around and royally fucks everything up. This monster likes to make me feel fat, then hate myself, then want to eat everything that isn't nailed down. It's bad. BUT I will not let it ruin everything. I have yet to weigh myself for fear that it will confirm that I have lost zero pounds and possibly gained around five. Which in turn, makes me feel worse, and right now I really can't handle that. I want the false comfort that going to the gym is actually helping me. Last time I weighed myself, I was a flat 145 pounds... Which is a slap in the face because I've been going back and forth from 140 to 145 for the past, I don't know, let's say 5ish years. Pri thinks I don't need to lose any weight, but I can't trust her because she is my girlfriend and if I was wearing the most mismatched neon clothing with 2 very different socks, she would still say I looked perfect... Damn her.
Oh! Getting back into gaming! Recently bought about 6ish games off Amazon.com for very good prices. Note that these are for PlayStation 2 because I'm a broke ass bitch and can't afford a PS3 even though my mother's boyfriend has one (which pisses me off because it doesn't play PS2 or PS1 games!!!). I've been enjoying old games such as all the Final Fantasies and Clock Tower 3 (which still scares the crap out of me). You know what's great? Playing Final Fantasy X on a huge ass TV. I don't know if many have seen my living room TV (since I never have anyone over. I'm a terrible host) but it's not that one. My mother's boyfriend has this huge HD flat screen that is currently residing in her bedroom. It sucks because I can never get in there to play my games without having to kick them both out... Plus I like to play for a very very long time. From the time I get home from work, to the time I go to sleep. I would have to say that's about a good 4ish hours. Pri and mom bought me a Wii for my birthday and I'm so happy with it but the games are really expensive and most of them I have no interest in playing or have already played within an inch of their digital life. I feel bad not using it that much, but there's only so many time I can play Cooking Mama, screaming about how I'm doing something and it's not working, and not break something.
Looking to move the fuck out... STILL!!!... It's nearly impossible by myself. It's not even fair. I can find places for $600.00 a month... But things get tricky money wise. I still have cards I have to pay off. I'm still paying off my car and monthly insurance/phone bills. I did all the calculations and it ends up leaving me with just a little over $200.00 a month. And that's not even calculating in food and gas for my car (because it's not a steady amount). So, that's about a little over $100.00 for each pay check. After gas and food, I'm into the negatives. I just want to be able to do it on my own. Get a room mate you say? I would love to, but I'm very picky and I don't want to end up living with someone I can't stand or I'd never be there, then what's the point of me moving out of my mom's? I like to know I can do things on my own. I don't ask for help with my bills, I can take care of them without struggling. It's just the things along the way that need to be paid for that put me back at square one. Damn you square one!!!! Also, what's up with almost everywhere being 'no pets'? Seriously? I'm not going to leave my dog behind just because you don't want him in your building. He's a friggin seven pound Yorkie that's pretty much mute. And if they're worried about him biting people, well that's just retarded because I would be more worried about him following someone home.
OH! Trying to convince my mom to get a kitten. Found out her boyfriend is a big cat lover and wants a cat, so this is kind of my loop hole. She's more willing to let him get one than she is letting me get one. I will have my way though damnit! I already have a name for it. Maester Jyscal... If you all don't recognize the name, play Final Fantasy X then you will.
Ok! I think I'm done with all I have to say. I'm pretty sure this is all not very interesting to any of you, but it'll give me a good laugh once I decide to reread my entries in about 4 months :) HA!