BORING
I have a bad cold and it's snowing buckets yet again, but, despite that, I'm focused, calm, and pretty happy. I think I've actually beaten the rather serious depression I was in sporadically last fall and continually throughout January and the first week or so of this month.
I guess most of my life has revolved around one fact- I've always been pretty poor, except for the first ten years of my life. And I think that contrast is what makes me different from other "poor people". It'd be pretty hard to be as poor as my family was when I was growing up, true, but since I've been able to work, with the exception of right now, I've never been *super* poor. But it's always been there, and I've always seen a huge distinction between myself and others because of that. The poverty issue is why I tend to be rather ruthlessly independent and in fact actually kind of reclusive/exclusionary. I've always been and still am very ashamed of my economic background.
I could go on for volumes about what I've felt was discrimination against me for said background, but I won't. The important thing is, what do I do with it? Well, the prime directive for right now is to stop being poor. In fact I decided at the New Year's Dinner that that was my resolution for this year. I might not completely accomplish that this year, but I'll make some headway, at least.
What's step two? Enjoy life without the constant inferiority complex I have due to my econonic circumstances, and let the rest of the world go to hell? Well, I suppose I could... except part of the reason I've been poor is because of injustices done to me or immediate family members by The System, or imbalances of power, or what have you. So if I just sit on my rear, there's no guarantee everything I've worked so hard to achieve won't be taken away someday by yet more injustices. It happened to my parents, it could certainly happen to me.
Really, I'm of the mind that all revolutions are economic in nature. I don't want to reinvent the wheel, I don't want to instigate some sort of bloody communist uprising, I just want to level the playing field so that people like myself have more ability to counter the abuses of power and human rights that the giant, monopolistic corporations perpetrate all the time.
Okay! Back to coding. The login section works perfectly now. I need to code a DHTML portion now. That's kind of what I was working on for this site last year, so we'll see how well I fare in Round 2.
I guess most of my life has revolved around one fact- I've always been pretty poor, except for the first ten years of my life. And I think that contrast is what makes me different from other "poor people". It'd be pretty hard to be as poor as my family was when I was growing up, true, but since I've been able to work, with the exception of right now, I've never been *super* poor. But it's always been there, and I've always seen a huge distinction between myself and others because of that. The poverty issue is why I tend to be rather ruthlessly independent and in fact actually kind of reclusive/exclusionary. I've always been and still am very ashamed of my economic background.
I could go on for volumes about what I've felt was discrimination against me for said background, but I won't. The important thing is, what do I do with it? Well, the prime directive for right now is to stop being poor. In fact I decided at the New Year's Dinner that that was my resolution for this year. I might not completely accomplish that this year, but I'll make some headway, at least.
What's step two? Enjoy life without the constant inferiority complex I have due to my econonic circumstances, and let the rest of the world go to hell? Well, I suppose I could... except part of the reason I've been poor is because of injustices done to me or immediate family members by The System, or imbalances of power, or what have you. So if I just sit on my rear, there's no guarantee everything I've worked so hard to achieve won't be taken away someday by yet more injustices. It happened to my parents, it could certainly happen to me.
Really, I'm of the mind that all revolutions are economic in nature. I don't want to reinvent the wheel, I don't want to instigate some sort of bloody communist uprising, I just want to level the playing field so that people like myself have more ability to counter the abuses of power and human rights that the giant, monopolistic corporations perpetrate all the time.
Okay! Back to coding. The login section works perfectly now. I need to code a DHTML portion now. That's kind of what I was working on for this site last year, so we'll see how well I fare in Round 2.