Buzzed entry
They say that alcohol brings out the truth in you... stumbled my way home and all the while... all I can think about is her... despite everything... despite how good I looked... how I got stares... despite it all... all I can think of is coming back home and wondering how much better this would have been... how much...
And then I check the blog... and, of course, I see an entry about me... of course... I'm not over her... we still have the connection... how the hell do I get over her??
Listening to Paki Mix #1 and Matti mein mil jayenge (pronounced just like it is in Kutchi) and Ranjish hi sahi... how the fuck do you forget all of it??? years of this... years of connections that everyone seeks in relationships that was so easy... so effortless... no... there were troubles... it wasn't paradise... but, despite it all... there was something else... it wasn't love... love sells itself at street corners... no, it was more... it was much more... i don't even know the word for it...
I told her I would always be there and always be a friend... but, its so easy to relapse and start thinking of days gone by...
I wish I believed in some sort of God... maybe there would be a way out of this then...
And then I check the blog... and, of course, I see an entry about me... of course... I'm not over her... we still have the connection... how the hell do I get over her??
Listening to Paki Mix #1 and Matti mein mil jayenge (pronounced just like it is in Kutchi) and Ranjish hi sahi... how the fuck do you forget all of it??? years of this... years of connections that everyone seeks in relationships that was so easy... so effortless... no... there were troubles... it wasn't paradise... but, despite it all... there was something else... it wasn't love... love sells itself at street corners... no, it was more... it was much more... i don't even know the word for it...
I told her I would always be there and always be a friend... but, its so easy to relapse and start thinking of days gone by...
I wish I believed in some sort of God... maybe there would be a way out of this then...