Love x Skidding x Financial butthurt
Yesterday was interesting. <-'interesting' - new favourite word. I feel loved. *laughs* While I was tutoring, Shu-kun called to ask if I was free for dinner. After I'd finished tutoring, Dai-chan called to have a chat with me, since we hadn't seen each other nor talked in ages. Wow... Two people whom I hadn't talked to in at least a month suddenly calling me on the same day... What a lovely coincidence. XP
So two hours later, after preparing dinner for R-chan and doing laundry, I had dinner with Shu-kun. We caught up on recent events and somehow, our topics went from school, to hentai(...), to corruption(I pwn him in that department), to our non-existant love lives. At some point, he asked me a few questions that I couldn't answer, such as if I'd ever loved anyone before, if I could tell the difference between close friendship and love, etc... Haha, I didn't even know the answer to any of his questions. XD XD;;;; After the questions, Shu said, "I've never met a female as aloof as you, when it comes to love." ..........Nn. Really? Well, it's true that I've never truly been in love and I don't think about it much either, but I love all of my friends, in a platonic way? Hmmm. Romantically, I don't think I know how to love. It's like I'm incapable of it or something. ^^;;;;;; I've had a total of three crushes in my life thus far, and they've never lasted too long, but I don't think crushes are the same. In fact, I don't think that anyone at my age has not had a crush before. Attraction is one thing, but love, I don't think I'm capable of it. I mean, if I treated my lover and a very close friend the same way, what's the difference? Also, I mentioned to Shu that if I had a lover, I'd probably allow more physical contact(i.e. holding hands, kissing), but all the same, I wouldn't message, phone, email or anything... So he said that that would mean that all being a lover to me means that they're closer(...) friends with a bit more benefits... I guess you could put it that way. Maybe? I really don't know. What is this 'love' that you speak of?! There is no such thing in my world! :\ <-loves everyone platonically anyway!
*coughs* Sooo. After dinner, I went to pick up Ayu from work, made a stop at Tim Horton's/Wendy's, had some food and then drove her home. I finally got the Settlers of Catan for my bro~ Yaaaayz! X3 But man, driving in such scary weather conditions was not fun. The car kept skidding too much! Skidding = DO NOT WANT. All the skidding made it sooo friggin' difficult to turn! Even as I turned the wheel to the right, the car just kept on going left! On my way home, I thought I was going to crash at some point, since the car was skidding so damn much. The wheels didn't seem to be listening to me either... *mumbles about stupid tires* I'm gonna have to ask dad if he'd changed tires or something... While I'm not that happy that my parents are coming home this Tuesday, I suppose it's a good thing, so dad can check out what's up with the car(and perhaps change to winter tires if they're not) and so I don't have to be the one to wake up R-chan for school every f-ing morning.
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Today was blah. <-what?
Today pretty much consisted of half an hour of snow shoveling(but I must be in better shape than I thought- My body didn't ache afterwards) and lots of wallet breakage.
This afternoon, I spent ten bucks worth of gas. Then, due to a sudden craving for shit-tons of sugar, I spent 12 bucks worth of sugar cookies, cupcakes and chocolate éclairs(I can't buy any of these when my parents are around or they'll kill me, so I did a last-minute sugar-spending spree before my parents come back)... And then I proceeded to spent moar money on more gifts. x.x
After depositing this month's earnings into my bank account and doing some hardcore calculation, I found that I am now 44 bucks in debt to either my mom or OSAP(...). ._.,,,,<-is nao brooooke.
Note to self
My current balance: 913.
Untouchable OSAP amount: 450.
Earnings for this month, thus far: 762.
Misc crap that can be omitted from earnings and not given to mom: R-chan's ski trip(105), this month's allowance(150) = 255
Therefore, this month, mom gets: (762 - 255) 507.
Given that 507 is mom's and 450 is OSAP's, I have 957 that is supposedly untouchable.
Since my balance is 913 and 957 is supposed to be untouchable, I have a grand total of -44(..........).
I am officially 44 bucks in debt to either sides.................................. Baaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwww. D: D: D:
How the fork do I live off of a hundred bucks per month in the first place?! That, and even though I get an extra hundred for December, it's not enough for Christmas gifts, yooooo. I'm not even done all of my Christmas shopping! x.x @^#$%#@^%#$!!!!!
On a happier note, I weighed myself this morning and saw that I had only five more pounds to go to reach my primary goal and another five pounds to reach mom's goal. Ten pounds doesn't sound too hard, but I'm just too lazy to exercise. And I still eat like a glutton(...Like, every two hours, I'd be hungry and have a piece of cake, a bowl of spaghetti, half a package of instant noodles, or other random foods). *coughs like mad*
+ From November to December alone, I've spent over 50 bucks worth of car gas. *sighs* Fuack.
But yeah. I'm currently not in a good mood at all.
So two hours later, after preparing dinner for R-chan and doing laundry, I had dinner with Shu-kun. We caught up on recent events and somehow, our topics went from school, to hentai(...), to corruption(I pwn him in that department), to our non-existant love lives. At some point, he asked me a few questions that I couldn't answer, such as if I'd ever loved anyone before, if I could tell the difference between close friendship and love, etc... Haha, I didn't even know the answer to any of his questions. XD XD;;;; After the questions, Shu said, "I've never met a female as aloof as you, when it comes to love." ..........Nn. Really? Well, it's true that I've never truly been in love and I don't think about it much either, but I love all of my friends, in a platonic way? Hmmm. Romantically, I don't think I know how to love. It's like I'm incapable of it or something. ^^;;;;;; I've had a total of three crushes in my life thus far, and they've never lasted too long, but I don't think crushes are the same. In fact, I don't think that anyone at my age has not had a crush before. Attraction is one thing, but love, I don't think I'm capable of it. I mean, if I treated my lover and a very close friend the same way, what's the difference? Also, I mentioned to Shu that if I had a lover, I'd probably allow more physical contact(i.e. holding hands, kissing), but all the same, I wouldn't message, phone, email or anything... So he said that that would mean that all being a lover to me means that they're closer(...) friends with a bit more benefits... I guess you could put it that way. Maybe? I really don't know. What is this 'love' that you speak of?! There is no such thing in my world! :\ <-loves everyone platonically anyway!
*coughs* Sooo. After dinner, I went to pick up Ayu from work, made a stop at Tim Horton's/Wendy's, had some food and then drove her home. I finally got the Settlers of Catan for my bro~ Yaaaayz! X3 But man, driving in such scary weather conditions was not fun. The car kept skidding too much! Skidding = DO NOT WANT. All the skidding made it sooo friggin' difficult to turn! Even as I turned the wheel to the right, the car just kept on going left! On my way home, I thought I was going to crash at some point, since the car was skidding so damn much. The wheels didn't seem to be listening to me either... *mumbles about stupid tires* I'm gonna have to ask dad if he'd changed tires or something... While I'm not that happy that my parents are coming home this Tuesday, I suppose it's a good thing, so dad can check out what's up with the car(and perhaps change to winter tires if they're not) and so I don't have to be the one to wake up R-chan for school every f-ing morning.
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Today was blah. <-what?
Today pretty much consisted of half an hour of snow shoveling(but I must be in better shape than I thought- My body didn't ache afterwards) and lots of wallet breakage.
This afternoon, I spent ten bucks worth of gas. Then, due to a sudden craving for shit-tons of sugar, I spent 12 bucks worth of sugar cookies, cupcakes and chocolate éclairs(I can't buy any of these when my parents are around or they'll kill me, so I did a last-minute sugar-spending spree before my parents come back)... And then I proceeded to spent moar money on more gifts. x.x
After depositing this month's earnings into my bank account and doing some hardcore calculation, I found that I am now 44 bucks in debt to either my mom or OSAP(...). ._.,,,,<-is nao brooooke.
Note to self
My current balance: 913.
Untouchable OSAP amount: 450.
Earnings for this month, thus far: 762.
Misc crap that can be omitted from earnings and not given to mom: R-chan's ski trip(105), this month's allowance(150) = 255
Therefore, this month, mom gets: (762 - 255) 507.
Given that 507 is mom's and 450 is OSAP's, I have 957 that is supposedly untouchable.
Since my balance is 913 and 957 is supposed to be untouchable, I have a grand total of -44(..........).
I am officially 44 bucks in debt to either sides.................................. Baaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwww. D: D: D:
How the fork do I live off of a hundred bucks per month in the first place?! That, and even though I get an extra hundred for December, it's not enough for Christmas gifts, yooooo. I'm not even done all of my Christmas shopping! x.x @^#$%#@^%#$!!!!!
On a happier note, I weighed myself this morning and saw that I had only five more pounds to go to reach my primary goal and another five pounds to reach mom's goal. Ten pounds doesn't sound too hard, but I'm just too lazy to exercise. And I still eat like a glutton(...Like, every two hours, I'd be hungry and have a piece of cake, a bowl of spaghetti, half a package of instant noodles, or other random foods). *coughs like mad*
+ From November to December alone, I've spent over 50 bucks worth of car gas. *sighs* Fuack.
But yeah. I'm currently not in a good mood at all.