L♥veless Matchmaker (Chapter 9)
Title: L♥veless Matchmaker
Author: secretagentman
Side Pairings: Jinki/Taeyeon, Kibum/?
Genre: Romance, Drama; Comedy
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Kibum was always the one who matched his friends to become lovers… Even though he doesn’t have any experience. He does his last assignment before going to hiatus as the matchmaker.
Previous Chapters: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8
Chapter 9
Jonghoon looked at the wallpaper of his phone. Kibum was always different when he was with him. Every time he would look at Kibum, it just showed sadness and pain but a new side of him was always seen when Jinki was around.
Only when Jinki’s around.
He just kept looking at it until he sighed and tossed his phone away.
~~&~~
“Kibum, you’re torturing your self.” Jonghyun said as he comforted his crying best friend.
“No, I’m not. As long as Jinki-hyung’s happy, I’m happy.” He said as he dried his eyes.
“You expect me to believe that you’re happy but you’re crying because of him right now?”
Kibum bit his lip. He thought that experiencing the throbbing pain on his chest everyday would help him increase his emotional pain tolerance. He thought that maybe one day he may be immune to the strong pain, but he was wrong.
“You’re making this hard not only for you, but also for Jonghoon-hyung. You’re just using him as your distraction from Jinki-hyung.” Jonghyun continued to say.
“Stop doing this to yourself.”
Yes Kibum, you have to stop this; even though it’s hard. Even though it’s hard to stop loving him, you have to forget; because he belongs to someone else. He was made for someone else, and he was destined to be with someone else. Kibum thought as he wiped his eyes.
Keep on moving, stop loving him.
Kibum was studying one night when he opened his drawer, revealing his’ and Jinki’s first picture together. Kibum laughed as he held the picture with his hand. Jinki looked so different before. Kibum’s thoughts were cut when he felt his phone vibrate. He flipped it open and read the message.
From: Jinki-hyung~
“Kibum, can you come meet me right now? I kinda need your help. I’m at our usual meeting place.”
Kibum sighed. What could the older one want at a time like this? He pulled his hoddie over his head and headed out of the house.
He knew that seeing his senior would make him experience pain again; but he couldn’t say ‘no’ to a very close friend.
When Kibum got to the park, he saw that Jinki was sitting alone looking at the moon. He walked towards him and sat beside him.
“What could you possibly want right now?” Kibum asked him softly as he adored the sight of the empty park and the sound of the trees as it swished through the air.
“Uh… Nothing really.” Jinki hesitatingly answered.
“Just say it to me hyung. Let’s get straight to the point.”
“Well, it’s been several years since my love and I met, and I think it’s time for me to marry.” Jinki said.
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She didn’t like it. That particular moment where Kibum’s head was on Jinki’s shoulder felt like a dagger stinging on her heart. He didn’t see the way how hurt she was when they were on their way home because he seemed to be thinking of something or someone.
Does he really love me? She asked to herself.
She saw the way Jinki caressed Kibum’s face, the way Jinki looked at Kibum when they were alone. Everything about that day made her feel like she was unloved, but she wanted to make sure. She wanted to make sure if Jinki really did love her.
She cut her own thoughts and dialed a number on her phone.
~~&~~
Kibum looked at Jinki sadly then older looked back at him as well.
Kibum swore there was a slight hint of faith in him when he heard Jinki said that he was going to propose. A slight hint that maybe it was him that Jinki was going to propose to, but he knew it wasn’t possible.
“I made a script and I thought that I could maybe practice proposing with you.” Jinki continued as he looked at Kibum.
“Sure hyung. Anything for you.” Kibum replied trying to resist his tears from showing up.
Anything for the one I love. He mentally said with his chest stinging once again.
~~&~~
Jonghoon knocked on the door at Kibum’s house. He then put his hands inside his jacket’s pockets while he waited for someone to open it.
He held his face up as the door slowly creaked and revealed Kibum’s mother. He bowed as a sign of respect.
“Good evening. Is Kibum there?” He asked politely.
“Oh… Kibum went out. He said that he was going to meet someone at the park. I forgot his name.” She answered.
“Is that so? Then I’ll just go to the park to see him. Thank you very much.”
~~&~~
They faced each other and Jinki cleared his throat. He held Kibum’s hand and held out a ring.
“Taeyeon, we’ve been together how many years now, and I’ve always wanted to be with you everyday. I promise you that I’ll protect you always, that I’ll be your knight. I promise that I’ll make you shine bright like the sun. And I promise to make you happy. So please, let me spend the rest of my life with you…” Jinki softly said.
Unconsciously, their faces got closer. Jinki felt like there was a need to close the space between them and there was a need to say what he really feels.
“Because… Kibum, I love you.” Jinki whispered as their lips were getting closer.
He was supposed to call out Taeyeon’s name, but why did he say mine? Kibum thought, though he didn’t mind. He just wanted to feel Jinki’s sweet lips on his. He wanted to feel those lips that he had dreamed of kissing before. He wanted to feel Jinki’s hand cupping his face while they shared a sweet kiss. He wanted to feel their emotions dancing with each other.
Just a little closer, just move a little closer.
“Ring, ring, ring…“
Jinki stopped moving when he heard his phone ringing. Only an inch closer and their lips would touch, but it just had to be stopped because of a phone call.
Jinki snapped out and took out his phone to look at it.
“It’s Tae-Taeyeon. I have to go now. Thank you for helping me.” Jinki stuttered as he left, leaving Kibum all alone.
Kibum felt pain again. 100 times greater than what he felt when Jinki told him that Taeyeon became his girlfriend. It felt like all of the pain he felt before got together to make an entire new level for him.
Why, Jinki? Why? Of all of the people, why you? Kibum thought as he poured out his tears.
His heart hurt too much that he can’t breathe anymore. He was crying so hard, clenching his chest with a hand. He wanted to squeeze out the pain that he was feeling but the pain was just so strong. He didn’t care about how long he was there crying and crying. Until he felt a jacket fell on his shoulders; Kibum looked up and saw that Jonghoon was already there beside him, trying to comfort him as always.
Jinki was driving along the empty highway, with one hand on the driving wheel, and his arm resting on the railing of his door. His mind was still thinking about what happened a while ago. Jinki couldn’t shake it off from his mind, the sudden urge to move closer to feel Kibum’s pink lips on his, the sudden flow of his emotions.
Stop Jinki, you’re not allowed to love him. He thought as he shook his head. He took a left turn and finally, he arrived at Taeyeon’s house. Jinki parked his car and looked at the house. He traced the big house with his eyes, from the main door, to the big walls, to the one room that was lit up at this time of the night.
This is where I’m supposed to be. He thought as he stepped out.
Kibum was inside Jonghoon’s bedroom. The latter suggested that Kibum should stay with him until he sobers up. They were on his bed, Jonghoon hugging Kibum while his tears kept on falling.
“Jonghoon-hyung…” Kibum called out his name as he sniffed; his voice hoarse because of all the crying.
Jonghoon looked at him and listened to what Kibum had to say.
“How did you know that I was there?”
“Well, I came to your house and your mom told me that you went to the park.” Jonghoon sweetly said as he caressed Kibum’s hair while the other cuddled closer for warmth.
There was a moment of silence. Jonghoon waited for Kibum to speak first; nervous about saying something because it could hurt the other’s feelings. He knew that Kibum was feeling a lot of pain. Since the day he met Kibum, up to this moment, he saw that he did nothing but cry. He swore to himself that he wanted to make the other happy, but it was just hard for him. Though he still believed, he still believed that one day, Kibum would smile at him genuinely.
He just stared at the latter while he was drying his eyes.
“Can you kiss me?” Jonghoon was surprised at what Kibum had just asked him. They’ve been together for several years now but Jonghoon didn’t attempt kissing Kibum, because he knew that the he wouldn’t like it.
“Are you sure?” Jonghoon worriedly asked as he cupped his face. Kibum nodded.
“If this is what you want, then I’ll give it to you.” He whispered as he moved closer to Kibum’s face.
I need it. I have to stop thinking about Jinki-hyung. Kibum thought as their faces got closer and finally their lips touched.
Honestly, Kibum felt disgusted, because he didn’t like it. It didn’t feel right but he badly needs it right now.
At first the kiss was slow, but suddenly Jonghoon got a bit aggressive. Slipping his tongue into explore the other’s mouth. And Kibum hated it so much. He devoured Kibum’s lips and got lower to his jaw line and neck. Kibum closed his eyes, his mouth slightly parted for air, a crystal tear falling from his eye.
Jinki, Jinki… He wanted to moan out his name, but it wasn’t Jinki that was with him. It was someone whom he didn’t love who was kissing him, feeling every part of his body.
“Because… Kibum, I love you.”
“AH!” Kibum snapped and yelled as he pushed Jonghoon. He looked at Jonghoon terrified. He saw that the older got rid of his shirt and was only covered by his pants. Kibum panted and stood up ready to leave. He rummaged for his things and went straight for the door.
“It’s Jinki isn’t it?” Jonghoon asked furiously. Kibum stopped on his tracks. He knew what that question meant and his mind kept wondering how he knew that Jinki was the person that he truly loves. His eyes fluttered, his lips opening and closing, not knowing what to answer.
“I- I’m sorry.” Kibum whispered as he went out, leaving Jonghoon alone inside the bedroom half naked.
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(A/N: I was supposed to update after 2 weeks, but once again, blame choon_hee for forcing me. LOL I apologize if you guys will hate me because of this chapter :( Let's be friends okay? LOL I updated because I couldn't sleep peacefully, but now finally I can.)
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