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Even if i never meant to, I've ruined everything. I regret being so affected, and i regret not standing up when i should have. This is wrong, and I know it. She deserves everything, and I'm willing to give her that. I wish i knew why she runs away, but it's pointless now. I finally pushed us into hot water. It'll be interesting to see what comes out since I have no idea. I WISH I could just be the friend and let everything go and come back later, but that's beyond me, something I can't do.