holy toleedo...what a great word. toleedo.
um, i feel like the prodigal son, just minus the whole dad looking for him for months thing.
well, it's like being on an extended holiday but now i'm back. life's been super enjoyable for the past 7 months. and it's still up there on the enjoyment-o-meter, but just different. it feels like i'm really finding my groove. as far as things falling into place.
on the outside, not so much. i mean i work at extra foods (which hey, don't get me wrong, isn't necessarily a b a d job, it's just not a design studio...that was a hard adjustment for me to get used to) as a cashier (someone quiz me!!! avacados: 4222, red delish: 4016, mangoes: 4051, watermelon: 4031...yep. mind like a fox!) and i've jus gone through a construction zone regarding my heart. but it's soo crazy that there is a place of rest in the midst of the seeming chaos. and that when you don't know why life is dishing you these entrees that smell like poo, you can be comforted - cause when you actually swallow them, they become yummy grilled cheese sandwhiches!! and i loooove grilled cheese sandwhiches.
i've been chatting with this counsellor dood who is just confirming soo many things. things that god is saying i'm ready to face. big, scary things. he told me this story the other week -- oh, he's romanian and the whole accent thing is so awsome. it's like he's this wise sage who doesn't speak english very well -- so here goes:
theres this guy. and jesus comes knocking at his house. he opens the door and says to jc 'ooh man!!! it's soooo good to see you! please, come into my house, i would LOOOVE to have you for tea!', he's stoked that the Big Man himslef would grace him with the Ultimate Presence. so jc comes in. and the guy, let's call him rolph (that sounds kinda foreign eh?), rolph says, 'here is my living room. it's very bright and spacious, but i just have one favour to ask of you. please stay away from the dark corners and the closets. their dark and dirty and i haven't cleaned in a while. and seeing as yer the guest...' so of course, jc being the guy he his, stays away...after a while rolph says, 'well i got some errands to run so i gotta split. but it was awsome having you here!! thank you SO MUCH for visiting me!! see you again tomorrow'...
so rolph wants a few hours of nicey niceness with jc in his living room, where it's bright and familiar, every day but doesn't want reality. mm, sounds familiar.
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i don't have the car today so i have to go walk and meet my friend sandy for lunch. sigh. i'm such a child of the 21st century. and next time? i won't wait 6 months to write again!
well, it's like being on an extended holiday but now i'm back. life's been super enjoyable for the past 7 months. and it's still up there on the enjoyment-o-meter, but just different. it feels like i'm really finding my groove. as far as things falling into place.
on the outside, not so much. i mean i work at extra foods (which hey, don't get me wrong, isn't necessarily a b a d job, it's just not a design studio...that was a hard adjustment for me to get used to) as a cashier (someone quiz me!!! avacados: 4222, red delish: 4016, mangoes: 4051, watermelon: 4031...yep. mind like a fox!) and i've jus gone through a construction zone regarding my heart. but it's soo crazy that there is a place of rest in the midst of the seeming chaos. and that when you don't know why life is dishing you these entrees that smell like poo, you can be comforted - cause when you actually swallow them, they become yummy grilled cheese sandwhiches!! and i loooove grilled cheese sandwhiches.
i've been chatting with this counsellor dood who is just confirming soo many things. things that god is saying i'm ready to face. big, scary things. he told me this story the other week -- oh, he's romanian and the whole accent thing is so awsome. it's like he's this wise sage who doesn't speak english very well -- so here goes:
theres this guy. and jesus comes knocking at his house. he opens the door and says to jc 'ooh man!!! it's soooo good to see you! please, come into my house, i would LOOOVE to have you for tea!', he's stoked that the Big Man himslef would grace him with the Ultimate Presence. so jc comes in. and the guy, let's call him rolph (that sounds kinda foreign eh?), rolph says, 'here is my living room. it's very bright and spacious, but i just have one favour to ask of you. please stay away from the dark corners and the closets. their dark and dirty and i haven't cleaned in a while. and seeing as yer the guest...' so of course, jc being the guy he his, stays away...after a while rolph says, 'well i got some errands to run so i gotta split. but it was awsome having you here!! thank you SO MUCH for visiting me!! see you again tomorrow'...
so rolph wants a few hours of nicey niceness with jc in his living room, where it's bright and familiar, every day but doesn't want reality. mm, sounds familiar.
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i don't have the car today so i have to go walk and meet my friend sandy for lunch. sigh. i'm such a child of the 21st century. and next time? i won't wait 6 months to write again!