As if I needed one more thing to worry about...
Like I didn't have enough problems to deal with right now, I woke up this morning to find that "somehow" I have a flat tire. I don't have a spare, and I know my tire wasn't flat yesterday. I haven't gone anywhere, so how is it my tire's flat?? On top of all that, I started crying because of everything that's weighing down on me right now and my mom decided to get an attitude and be a complete bitch to me. I'm crying so hard I'm having trouble breathing, and she wants me to talk. When I can't answer her, she gets an attitude and says, "Well fine, let me know when you want to talk."
I really don't need this crap on top of all the hospital bills and my bank screwing with me and trying to find work I can do. For the first time in a long time I seriously want to end it all... I know it's not the answer, and I know it's the "coward's way out" but at this point, I'm beyond caring. Life seems to keep piling it on me with no break for me to catch my breath. I can't stop crying for the first time in a while, and I truly hate myself right now. I feel so weak! I don't know what else to do. I want nothing more than to just get away from life itself for a while. Why can't I catch a break? Just some time to breathe when everything is going the way it should? Why are life and the people I have to deal with everyday so against me succeeding?
I really don't need this crap on top of all the hospital bills and my bank screwing with me and trying to find work I can do. For the first time in a long time I seriously want to end it all... I know it's not the answer, and I know it's the "coward's way out" but at this point, I'm beyond caring. Life seems to keep piling it on me with no break for me to catch my breath. I can't stop crying for the first time in a while, and I truly hate myself right now. I feel so weak! I don't know what else to do. I want nothing more than to just get away from life itself for a while. Why can't I catch a break? Just some time to breathe when everything is going the way it should? Why are life and the people I have to deal with everyday so against me succeeding?