The thruth is out.. Why don't I draw as much?
Okay.......... some might be wondering why I haven't been drawing as much as I use to.. It's not drawers block or anything like that, it's deeper..
I'm just not really all that inspired anymore.. and it really has to do with my mom.. No nothing is wrong with her, it's just the stuff she does and says to Me.. She just keeps comparing me to other artists and it's driving me up the wall.
Like for instance, I can be on the net looking at someone else's gallery, and mom will come in and gasp out, acting all stunned and shocked then go "Wow did you make that? It's beautiful!!" and stuff... Like . I tell her no.........it's not mine.... Then shed go on about how I can do the same thing. I'm just like.. "No......I can't.". It just makes me feel so downgraded!
Shed go on saying that if you put my art next to some famous artists works, that you 'can't tell them apart' Like WTF?! Yes you can.. and she KEEPS on saying how I can do this, how I can do that. Like NO THE HELL I CAN'T. God I WISH I could do some of the things I see other artists do but the clear fact is I -CAN'T- and I really wish mom will STOP comparing me to others and all this shit.
I know she's just trying to encourage me and stuff but the truth is it just makes me feel so damn worthless! It all just reminds me how I can't do half the shit I wish I could. How I can imagine something to every detail in my mind yet on paper it hardly comes out at all how I want. It just pisses me off so much, I know I can't do this and that cause I have TRIED for years now!
I just hate it the most when she compares me to someone else. I wanna be judged on MY work, on MY skill, not someone else's!! I've tried so many times telling her how I hate it when she does all this but she just KEEPS doing it! She's not encouraging me what so ever, more like discouraging, like all these other people are sooo much better then me and she tries to say how I can do the same stuff as them...
It's just getting me to the point that when I do draw, half way through it, no matter how it came out (good or bad) I just hate it and give up on it. Now it's to the point where I hardly feel like drawing at all anymore. And with all this mom STILL does this shit no matter how many times I tell her how it makes me feel.
So there you have it... It's not that bad to where I wanna give up on drawing completely.. but I tell you there have been times when it's crossed my mind.. But I don't think I could ever give it up.
I'm just not really all that inspired anymore.. and it really has to do with my mom.. No nothing is wrong with her, it's just the stuff she does and says to Me.. She just keeps comparing me to other artists and it's driving me up the wall.
Like for instance, I can be on the net looking at someone else's gallery, and mom will come in and gasp out, acting all stunned and shocked then go "Wow did you make that? It's beautiful!!" and stuff... Like . I tell her no.........it's not mine.... Then shed go on about how I can do the same thing. I'm just like.. "No......I can't.". It just makes me feel so downgraded!
Shed go on saying that if you put my art next to some famous artists works, that you 'can't tell them apart' Like WTF?! Yes you can.. and she KEEPS on saying how I can do this, how I can do that. Like NO THE HELL I CAN'T. God I WISH I could do some of the things I see other artists do but the clear fact is I -CAN'T- and I really wish mom will STOP comparing me to others and all this shit.
I know she's just trying to encourage me and stuff but the truth is it just makes me feel so damn worthless! It all just reminds me how I can't do half the shit I wish I could. How I can imagine something to every detail in my mind yet on paper it hardly comes out at all how I want. It just pisses me off so much, I know I can't do this and that cause I have TRIED for years now!
I just hate it the most when she compares me to someone else. I wanna be judged on MY work, on MY skill, not someone else's!! I've tried so many times telling her how I hate it when she does all this but she just KEEPS doing it! She's not encouraging me what so ever, more like discouraging, like all these other people are sooo much better then me and she tries to say how I can do the same stuff as them...
It's just getting me to the point that when I do draw, half way through it, no matter how it came out (good or bad) I just hate it and give up on it. Now it's to the point where I hardly feel like drawing at all anymore. And with all this mom STILL does this shit no matter how many times I tell her how it makes me feel.
So there you have it... It's not that bad to where I wanna give up on drawing completely.. but I tell you there have been times when it's crossed my mind.. But I don't think I could ever give it up.