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And it happened...again.
Like it always does.
I don't know why I still let it get to me. I should be used to your brush-offs. Anyway, it has been eight days.
But it still gets to me.
And I'm crying...again.
As it almost always seems to leave me doing.
I'm tired of tears.
I don't have any right to let this affect me anyway. There is no "us" anymore. So it doesn't...shouldn't...matter...
But still...
It's been days since we were last "us"...
Thinking of how long it's been is making me miss you too much.
You don't have to be so cold, just because you're not allowed to be a source of warmth anymore.
You know I didn't mean all the bad things --> even tho we aren't "us" anymore. I still love you.
I'm going to continue studying and pretend it doesn't hurt.
Like it always does.
I don't know why I still let it get to me. I should be used to your brush-offs. Anyway, it has been eight days.
But it still gets to me.
And I'm crying...again.
As it almost always seems to leave me doing.
I'm tired of tears.
I don't have any right to let this affect me anyway. There is no "us" anymore. So it doesn't...shouldn't...matter...
But still...
It's been days since we were last "us"...
Thinking of how long it's been is making me miss you too much.
You don't have to be so cold, just because you're not allowed to be a source of warmth anymore.
You know I didn't mean all the bad things --> even tho we aren't "us" anymore. I still love you.
I'm going to continue studying and pretend it doesn't hurt.