Nov 20, 2008 17:21
I was taught to bribe people in order to ensure being liked. To look presentable, give a good first impression, be quiet, and speak only when spoken to. I used to be scolded for being too shy to greet, for interrupting, for talking back, and for embarrassing ___. There are so many rules of behavior learned from childhood that I don't think I want to spend all day trying to remember them all, nor do I think anyone should have to follow them all in adulthood. Especially since I myself took a peak at my past, and while examining my previous behavior found that my actions have been dictated by habits and fears.
Habit contains fear, but with a speck of denial as fear is replaced with social obligation. i.e. if not out of fear of retribution, why would I even bother? Because I'm a nice person? Hah.
From now on I would like to deal. Screw the traditions that inhibit personal growth.
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