Whats happened?
About 3 or 4 weeks ago i skipped 3 days of school. Of course i got caught and got put on restriction. So thats why i havent posted anything for quite some time. Im not even in the mood to post anything. Im so bummed out. and not to mention tired. Kevin confuses me so bad, and i need to talk to him but i...i just dont know. I mean im not breaking up with him, no, i dont want that. He just has been a jerk lately and i need to talk to him really bad. He makes me so happy but at the same time so sad. :'( And im always working my butt off for money. And i end up always spending it on him. At first it was okay. You know a couple dollars here and there. But it has gotten way over the limit. I spend at least 10 bucks on him every weekend. It is suppose to be the other way around, is it not? I like him a whole bunch, im even ready to say i love him, i like him so much. But it's like he's never had a girlfriend before, he treats me like one of his friends sometimes..even worst. I don't know how i am suppose to make it right. How am i suppose to tell him to treat me better without hurting his feelings or making myself sound like an asshole. I hate to make him angry and sad. I couldnt ever forgive myself if i made him hurt. And i cant ever live with him mad at me. But sometimes its like no matter what i do i make him angry. Or disappointed or sad. And its hard for me. Because when hes like that it hurts me. And it makes him sadder. But im not perfect. And when i say things they come out different then what i am thinking. And...well ill finish up later im eating now