one more sacred lover that i shot dead.
i need to start updating more. but really, nothing much has been going on. just chris, school, drivers' ed. i've quit smoking weed, at least for awhile. but when kati gets off PO, we're gonna be retarded. still love my marbs, but cutting down. still loving the music. johnny's called a couple times, which has fucked me up. i dont think i can talk to him ever again. i was doing okay for a while, until he called my cell (oh yeah, and i got a new phone, old number, and i got all my numbers back! i told the cingular guy i loved him) and yeah. he left me a voicemail when i didnt have my phone, and i checked it and the voice didnt really sound like him (i thought it was pat or nick or someone) but he gave me the number and i called it when i got a new phone and the voicemail said "hey it's john, leave a message." and i remember i couldnt believe it and i kept calling back to make sure. while i was doing this, kati was sitting next to me on her front porch, packing my 27's, and she asked me who it was, and i said "kati, you dont even understand. if it's who i think it is, you better pack those faster and give me one cause i'm about to burst into tears." and yeah. but enough about that fuck. i gotta do my world history and study for spanish. drivers' ed is so fucking boring. it's 2hrs+45min of absolutely NOTHING but bookwork and watching videos and him talking. the only day i havent fallen asleep so far is ironically when i got only 1 1/2 hours of sleep that night, and i stayed awake only cause i chewed gum all day to keep myself awake, and cause i was high too, so i was paranoid and jumpy and shit. i was 10 minutes late that day, haha. but anyway, i think im gonna go and study and/or call chris. oh yeah, and chris said to me one night "i'll help you forget about johnny." awwwwwwww.