Your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures

[kurbur]

So here I am again.

back to the familiar feel.

A true love is one without barrier. It gives. Even to simplify more--when you care, thats just it. You care.
So it makes no sense. How can you care at a certain point, and suddenly decide your care needs to decrease?

I don't understand. I've been complimented. I'm different. Amazing. But, then the complimenter changes their mind.

So if this happens time and time again, I can't be amazing as I'm being told. Or, people don't mean what they say.
Even so--when I find something "amazing" I would like to keep hold of it. Do my best so if something does fail, I can say I tried. I did all I possibly could.

Am I just not worthy of this in return? I am not what I keep hearing I am?

This happens far too often and I'm tired of my confusion. I will keep going, keep moving. I will learn to trust again and believe the next thing I am told.

I know I'm not perfect, but I do what I can. Everything I can. I'm not asking someone to be my perfect. I'm asking to just stand by me as I would stand in return.

Please don't tell a soul something if you cannot stand sturdily behind it with action.