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i hate that i feel empty..
i hate that everyone thinks i can put my feelings on hold..
i deserve something better..
its not like i'm not doing my part.. that whats making it hurt more..
its scary that i feel my self becoming less and less emotive..
at least i can still feel that..
its so hard to disprove by accident all the good things you've assumed about people..
then again, its all the more apparent now that people only establish relationships based on what they can get from you..
i hate feeling that maybe i found a place where i belong only to find out that i'm an outstanding outlier.. and thats how people view me..
maybe i am destined to be a tragic idealist..
maybe i should be one who strengthens my principles without relying on the comfort of other peoples company..
for the good of everything, maybe i should just be alone..
its sad that maybe i think of things i'm not supposed to.. more often than usual..
i hate that everyone thinks i can put my feelings on hold..
i deserve something better..
its not like i'm not doing my part.. that whats making it hurt more..
its scary that i feel my self becoming less and less emotive..
at least i can still feel that..
its so hard to disprove by accident all the good things you've assumed about people..
then again, its all the more apparent now that people only establish relationships based on what they can get from you..
i hate feeling that maybe i found a place where i belong only to find out that i'm an outstanding outlier.. and thats how people view me..
maybe i am destined to be a tragic idealist..
maybe i should be one who strengthens my principles without relying on the comfort of other peoples company..
for the good of everything, maybe i should just be alone..
its sad that maybe i think of things i'm not supposed to.. more often than usual..