Kokoro [Oneshot]
Title: Kokoro
Author: veevalkyrie
Pairing: Yutoyama
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst
WARNING: Character's Death
Summary: Yuto was a well-known scientist. He had done so many research and people looked up to him. However, his life wasn't perfect yet without a son. So, he created a humanoid robot who he named as Ryosuke. The only problem both of them were facing was the fact that humans don't live forever.
Ryosuke's POV
"Hello..." I hear someone, "Can you hear me?" Everything is white. I blink my eyes rapidly until I could make out a figure standing in front of me. The figure looks blurry in my eyes. "Can you touch my hand?" The figure asks. I lift my hand up and touch the figure's palm. His palm is bigger than me. He has long slender fingers, and I can feel the warmth it emmits. "Oh thanks God, the brain is functioning." The figure says, "Now, can you clutch my hand?" I bend my fingers in the spaces between his slender fingers. He does the same right after I clutch his hand. I could feel more of the warmth, "Ah good... Very good!"
The figure walks away from where he was. I close my eyes for a few seconds, and when I open it, I could see my surroundings very clear. I see the figure is a tall man, maybe in his thirties. He looks very busy looking for something on his desk. "Where did I put it?" I hear him mumbles to himself. "Ah! Here it is!" He exclaims, raising a silver necklace. Then, he walks toward me excitedly with a wide smile on his face.
"Here you go... This is your necklace. Your name is written on it." the man chuckles. The corner of his lips bends upwards as he's wearing the necklace around my neck. "Your name is Ryosuke." The man chuckles again. I don't understand why he keeps chuckling everytime he talked, "I've always wanted to name a son as Ryosuke. You are my son now." He pats my head twice and pulls me into his arms. I am confused what to do in this kind of situation.
I am programmed only to help my master.
***
I see my master is busy working on his new experiments. He's working on some possible numbers to make the experiment worked. But, for almost six hours, he hasn't found the right numbers. I think maybe my master needs a coffee to keep him energized and work non-stop. Yes, he might need an energy booster, so he could finish his work quickly.
I walk to the kitchen and make a coffee, and add an energy pill into his coffee. I walk back to the lab after fifteen minutes. But this time, I don't see him working on his desk anymore. I see him lying on the sofa. His right hand is covering his eyes, and his other hand is knocking the floor. "What numbers I haven't used?" he mutters. I come up to him and put the coffee on the coffee table in front of the sofa.
I stand there watching my master keep muttering under his breath. I don't understand some of his words. He isn't mumbling only about the new experiment, but he also mumbles something about spending his time with his family and laugh together.
Laugh... What is laugh?
"Ah Ryosuke...” He says right after he notices me. He grabs my hand, and brushes his thumb against the back of my hand. His touch feels really soft against my skin. His black eyes are staring deeply into my eyes as if he’s looking for something behind my eyes, “Can you speak?” He asks. Now that he asked me, I remembered that he didn’t program me to speak. So, I shake my head. “Oh yeah! You can’t... Tell me Ryosuke... Do you want to have a voice? I could program it to you.”
I’m not sure if I wanted a voice or not. But since I am destined to only help my master, I guess I don’t need a voice to speak. I only need action to help my master. So, I shake my head once again. This time, he sighs and clutches my hand really tight. “Why? Why you don’t want a voice? Ryosuke... really... I really want to hear you call me ‘dad’ just once.” Master Yuto pulls my hand closer to his cheek. He looks up to me again, “You used to do this when I’m crying...” He says as I see a water leaks from his eye, “Ryosuke, daddy loves you so much. Daddy misses you so much.” Master Yuto suddenly stands up and pulls me into his arms. His body feels really warm, and somehow he’s shaking. I look at him and I can see more waters are flowing down from his eyes. I wonder what made him like that. Is he facing some kind of malfunctioning?
Since that day, I’m starting to see him facing that same malfunctioning every night in his room.
***
One day, I see him coughing really hard. It seems that he got sick for working non-stop. However, despite the terrible cough, he keeps working non-stop. I hear him say, “With this last program called ‘Heart’, Ryosuke will be back into this world again. I could only bring back his body, but I forgot something called Heart.” I approach my master from behind. He notices me again, and pulls me into his arms again. Lately, he has been doing it every time he sees me. I wonder why.
“Ryosuke, we will play together again like before. Just wait while daddy works on making a Heart for you.”
Heart? What is that?
“Without a Heart, you only do everything I told you to do. You are not a slave, Ryosuke. You are my son. I will make you perfect!”
Master... I don’t understand everything you just said. I look up at the clock. The clock has strike twelve. I pull away from my Master and walk to the kitchen. I must prepare for his lunch.
***
“Yuto, this is crazy...” I hear my master’s colleague through the door, “You managed to invent that robot is all because of a miracle! Without it, I’m sure it won’t work well. And now you told me that you wanted to make a Heart for this robot? Yuto, you are crazy!”
“Keito, but with this Heart, my robot will be perfect. He could feel human emotions.”
“You are like trying to make a human, Yuto! I can guarantee that your robot will experience malfunctioning.”
“NO!” I hear Master Yuto slams his hand against the table, “This will work, Keito! Trust me this will-”
“You’re crazy, Yuto! I’m leaving!”
I’m standing in front of the door when Master Yuto’s colleague opens the door. That man glares at me, and then his jaw drops opened, “Yuto... Is this the robot?” That man asks, his eyes are still glued on me.
“Keito, I can explain...”
“There’s nothing to be explained here, Yuto!” That man yells again at my Master, “This is obviously you wanted to bring back your son to live! Learn to let go, Yuto! Ryosuke, your son, will never come back! He’s dead!”
And at night, Master never came out of his lab. All I could hear is his hard coughs from the lab.
***
“Ryosuke please come here...” Master calls me to his desk, “Ryosuke, I want you to put your hand on this detector pad when I fall asleep... Ryosuke, Daddy wanna say sorry for not being here when you finally have a Heart. Daddy will be asleep for a long time, because Daddy feels really tired after working all night long.” My Master has a point. He must rest. So, I nod in understanding.
“Good... I’ve always knew my son is a smart boy.” Master pats my head. I’m guessing that he would pull me into his arms again, but this time he doesn’t. He stands up and presses his cold pale lips against my forehead. Then, he walks out of his lab, probably to his room. As soon as he left and not returning to the lab, I put my hand on top of the detector pad. Suddenly everything feels really heavy.
I pull my hand away and fall on my knees.
“Ah damn it hurts!” I mutter. Suddenly, I feel something is squeezing me inside. “What is this feeling inside? Why I can speak?” Then, I feel my cheeks are wet with something that comes out of my eyes. “Water came out of my eyes... This is what happened to Master Yuto every night.” I wipe off those unstoppable waters from my eyes with my sleeve, “Why won’t it stop? And what is this feeling inside? It’s squeezing me, and my heart beats faster than before.”
This is very confusing. So, I stand up immediately and run to Master’s bedroom. I have to ask about this to him. “Master Yuto!” I open the door of his room without knocking, “What is going on with me? Why my eyes are leaking? And what is this painful feeling inside of me? I’m confused...” I say next to my Master’s bed. However, he doesn’t turn around to face me, and he doesn’t even answer to me. “Master?” So, I turn him around to face me. To my surprise he’s holding a white bloodied handkerchief. And I could see traces of bloods on the corner of his lips. “Master?” I shake his limp body. Somehow, seeing him like that makes the painful feeling becomes more painful.
My heart races and these waters flow faster than before. I feel weak. Somehow, I miss the warmth when he would hold me in his arms, and hold my hands in his. When he does that, it makes me happy. Happy... Yes... Now I know how it all felt like.
Master Yuto... No, Daddy... He was my daddy. He brought me to this world and took care of me as if I’m his real child.
“Thank you... Daddy... Thank you for everything.” I clutch his hand tightly in mine, “Thank you for loving me. Thank you for taking care of me. Thank you for bringing me back to live once again.” I understand now how much he felt lonely after his real son, Ryosuke, died. Now I know all those pain. “Daddy, I’m feeling really sad and happy. I’m sad that I’m alone, but I’m happy that I have the chance to see how much you’ve missed me and tried to bring me back to live... Now, I will sing for you forever.”
***
Keito walks into the house on a stormy night after he had heard a beautiful voice singing sad but yet happy melody. Keito was really sure that voice belonged to Ryosuke who used to sing for Yuto when that boy was still alive. “No, that voice... It can’t be!” Keito dashed to where the voice came from. He opened Yuto’s bedroom, and at once he fell on his knees. “He really succeeded... This robot has become exactly like Ryosuke.”
Now I shall close my eyes
And catch up with Daddy in the dream world
Angels will protect us in our sleep
And when we woke up, we will be together again
Keito approaches the robot and his lifeless friend on the bed. He touches the now sleeping robot. “I guess... This robot cannot bear all those human emotions. These two... They’re finally together once again.” Keito smiles despite his heart is crying out loud, because he sees that Yuto and Ryosuke are smiling in their sleep.
***
A/N: sorry if it's fail m(_ _)m comment is love ^^ inspired from Kagamine Rin's Kokoro
Author: veevalkyrie
Pairing: Yutoyama
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst
WARNING: Character's Death
Summary: Yuto was a well-known scientist. He had done so many research and people looked up to him. However, his life wasn't perfect yet without a son. So, he created a humanoid robot who he named as Ryosuke. The only problem both of them were facing was the fact that humans don't live forever.
Ryosuke's POV
"Hello..." I hear someone, "Can you hear me?" Everything is white. I blink my eyes rapidly until I could make out a figure standing in front of me. The figure looks blurry in my eyes. "Can you touch my hand?" The figure asks. I lift my hand up and touch the figure's palm. His palm is bigger than me. He has long slender fingers, and I can feel the warmth it emmits. "Oh thanks God, the brain is functioning." The figure says, "Now, can you clutch my hand?" I bend my fingers in the spaces between his slender fingers. He does the same right after I clutch his hand. I could feel more of the warmth, "Ah good... Very good!"
The figure walks away from where he was. I close my eyes for a few seconds, and when I open it, I could see my surroundings very clear. I see the figure is a tall man, maybe in his thirties. He looks very busy looking for something on his desk. "Where did I put it?" I hear him mumbles to himself. "Ah! Here it is!" He exclaims, raising a silver necklace. Then, he walks toward me excitedly with a wide smile on his face.
"Here you go... This is your necklace. Your name is written on it." the man chuckles. The corner of his lips bends upwards as he's wearing the necklace around my neck. "Your name is Ryosuke." The man chuckles again. I don't understand why he keeps chuckling everytime he talked, "I've always wanted to name a son as Ryosuke. You are my son now." He pats my head twice and pulls me into his arms. I am confused what to do in this kind of situation.
I am programmed only to help my master.
***
I see my master is busy working on his new experiments. He's working on some possible numbers to make the experiment worked. But, for almost six hours, he hasn't found the right numbers. I think maybe my master needs a coffee to keep him energized and work non-stop. Yes, he might need an energy booster, so he could finish his work quickly.
I walk to the kitchen and make a coffee, and add an energy pill into his coffee. I walk back to the lab after fifteen minutes. But this time, I don't see him working on his desk anymore. I see him lying on the sofa. His right hand is covering his eyes, and his other hand is knocking the floor. "What numbers I haven't used?" he mutters. I come up to him and put the coffee on the coffee table in front of the sofa.
I stand there watching my master keep muttering under his breath. I don't understand some of his words. He isn't mumbling only about the new experiment, but he also mumbles something about spending his time with his family and laugh together.
Laugh... What is laugh?
"Ah Ryosuke...” He says right after he notices me. He grabs my hand, and brushes his thumb against the back of my hand. His touch feels really soft against my skin. His black eyes are staring deeply into my eyes as if he’s looking for something behind my eyes, “Can you speak?” He asks. Now that he asked me, I remembered that he didn’t program me to speak. So, I shake my head. “Oh yeah! You can’t... Tell me Ryosuke... Do you want to have a voice? I could program it to you.”
I’m not sure if I wanted a voice or not. But since I am destined to only help my master, I guess I don’t need a voice to speak. I only need action to help my master. So, I shake my head once again. This time, he sighs and clutches my hand really tight. “Why? Why you don’t want a voice? Ryosuke... really... I really want to hear you call me ‘dad’ just once.” Master Yuto pulls my hand closer to his cheek. He looks up to me again, “You used to do this when I’m crying...” He says as I see a water leaks from his eye, “Ryosuke, daddy loves you so much. Daddy misses you so much.” Master Yuto suddenly stands up and pulls me into his arms. His body feels really warm, and somehow he’s shaking. I look at him and I can see more waters are flowing down from his eyes. I wonder what made him like that. Is he facing some kind of malfunctioning?
Since that day, I’m starting to see him facing that same malfunctioning every night in his room.
***
One day, I see him coughing really hard. It seems that he got sick for working non-stop. However, despite the terrible cough, he keeps working non-stop. I hear him say, “With this last program called ‘Heart’, Ryosuke will be back into this world again. I could only bring back his body, but I forgot something called Heart.” I approach my master from behind. He notices me again, and pulls me into his arms again. Lately, he has been doing it every time he sees me. I wonder why.
“Ryosuke, we will play together again like before. Just wait while daddy works on making a Heart for you.”
Heart? What is that?
“Without a Heart, you only do everything I told you to do. You are not a slave, Ryosuke. You are my son. I will make you perfect!”
Master... I don’t understand everything you just said. I look up at the clock. The clock has strike twelve. I pull away from my Master and walk to the kitchen. I must prepare for his lunch.
***
“Yuto, this is crazy...” I hear my master’s colleague through the door, “You managed to invent that robot is all because of a miracle! Without it, I’m sure it won’t work well. And now you told me that you wanted to make a Heart for this robot? Yuto, you are crazy!”
“Keito, but with this Heart, my robot will be perfect. He could feel human emotions.”
“You are like trying to make a human, Yuto! I can guarantee that your robot will experience malfunctioning.”
“NO!” I hear Master Yuto slams his hand against the table, “This will work, Keito! Trust me this will-”
“You’re crazy, Yuto! I’m leaving!”
I’m standing in front of the door when Master Yuto’s colleague opens the door. That man glares at me, and then his jaw drops opened, “Yuto... Is this the robot?” That man asks, his eyes are still glued on me.
“Keito, I can explain...”
“There’s nothing to be explained here, Yuto!” That man yells again at my Master, “This is obviously you wanted to bring back your son to live! Learn to let go, Yuto! Ryosuke, your son, will never come back! He’s dead!”
And at night, Master never came out of his lab. All I could hear is his hard coughs from the lab.
***
“Ryosuke please come here...” Master calls me to his desk, “Ryosuke, I want you to put your hand on this detector pad when I fall asleep... Ryosuke, Daddy wanna say sorry for not being here when you finally have a Heart. Daddy will be asleep for a long time, because Daddy feels really tired after working all night long.” My Master has a point. He must rest. So, I nod in understanding.
“Good... I’ve always knew my son is a smart boy.” Master pats my head. I’m guessing that he would pull me into his arms again, but this time he doesn’t. He stands up and presses his cold pale lips against my forehead. Then, he walks out of his lab, probably to his room. As soon as he left and not returning to the lab, I put my hand on top of the detector pad. Suddenly everything feels really heavy.
I pull my hand away and fall on my knees.
“Ah damn it hurts!” I mutter. Suddenly, I feel something is squeezing me inside. “What is this feeling inside? Why I can speak?” Then, I feel my cheeks are wet with something that comes out of my eyes. “Water came out of my eyes... This is what happened to Master Yuto every night.” I wipe off those unstoppable waters from my eyes with my sleeve, “Why won’t it stop? And what is this feeling inside? It’s squeezing me, and my heart beats faster than before.”
This is very confusing. So, I stand up immediately and run to Master’s bedroom. I have to ask about this to him. “Master Yuto!” I open the door of his room without knocking, “What is going on with me? Why my eyes are leaking? And what is this painful feeling inside of me? I’m confused...” I say next to my Master’s bed. However, he doesn’t turn around to face me, and he doesn’t even answer to me. “Master?” So, I turn him around to face me. To my surprise he’s holding a white bloodied handkerchief. And I could see traces of bloods on the corner of his lips. “Master?” I shake his limp body. Somehow, seeing him like that makes the painful feeling becomes more painful.
My heart races and these waters flow faster than before. I feel weak. Somehow, I miss the warmth when he would hold me in his arms, and hold my hands in his. When he does that, it makes me happy. Happy... Yes... Now I know how it all felt like.
Master Yuto... No, Daddy... He was my daddy. He brought me to this world and took care of me as if I’m his real child.
“Thank you... Daddy... Thank you for everything.” I clutch his hand tightly in mine, “Thank you for loving me. Thank you for taking care of me. Thank you for bringing me back to live once again.” I understand now how much he felt lonely after his real son, Ryosuke, died. Now I know all those pain. “Daddy, I’m feeling really sad and happy. I’m sad that I’m alone, but I’m happy that I have the chance to see how much you’ve missed me and tried to bring me back to live... Now, I will sing for you forever.”
***
Keito walks into the house on a stormy night after he had heard a beautiful voice singing sad but yet happy melody. Keito was really sure that voice belonged to Ryosuke who used to sing for Yuto when that boy was still alive. “No, that voice... It can’t be!” Keito dashed to where the voice came from. He opened Yuto’s bedroom, and at once he fell on his knees. “He really succeeded... This robot has become exactly like Ryosuke.”
Now I shall close my eyes
And catch up with Daddy in the dream world
Angels will protect us in our sleep
And when we woke up, we will be together again
Keito approaches the robot and his lifeless friend on the bed. He touches the now sleeping robot. “I guess... This robot cannot bear all those human emotions. These two... They’re finally together once again.” Keito smiles despite his heart is crying out loud, because he sees that Yuto and Ryosuke are smiling in their sleep.
***
A/N: sorry if it's fail m(_ _)m comment is love ^^ inspired from Kagamine Rin's Kokoro