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the past couple days have sucked real bad.
my self esteem has dropped pretty low.
and i feel like ive lost touch with so many people
i feel very depressed and lonely.
i cant help but to think about the holidays. mainly christmas.
i look back at old friends and wonder where i went wrong
and then i look at other girls and wonder why i dont look like them
then i look at my current friends and see that everything is going well with them. i dont want to talk about anything serious with them in fear that ill depress them as well. lately ive had that effect on people. because of this i feel like im drifting away from them. thats the last thing i need or want right now- to drift away. but here i am, typing in my livejournal instead of talking to my friends or dan.
i feel completely worthless.
and i hate it.
even more
i hate being dramatic =(
my self esteem has dropped pretty low.
and i feel like ive lost touch with so many people
i feel very depressed and lonely.
i cant help but to think about the holidays. mainly christmas.
i look back at old friends and wonder where i went wrong
and then i look at other girls and wonder why i dont look like them
then i look at my current friends and see that everything is going well with them. i dont want to talk about anything serious with them in fear that ill depress them as well. lately ive had that effect on people. because of this i feel like im drifting away from them. thats the last thing i need or want right now- to drift away. but here i am, typing in my livejournal instead of talking to my friends or dan.
i feel completely worthless.
and i hate it.
even more
i hate being dramatic =(