How low can I go?
Today I spent the whole day cooped up in my room in bed. Only venturing to go out to take the occasional leak and to put some food in me. I'm lacking in apetite and I'm feeling anti-social. I've recieved a total of 15 missed calls and all are from my girlfriends who are quite worried about me. Lying in bed makes me think too much and I've realized just how unhappy my situation is making me.
Even if I do let him back into my life, he doesn't want me the way I want him to want me.
My heart hurts and I've cried to the point where my tears have been depleted. The only place where I don't feel sadness is in my dreams, and sometimes I wish I could just stay in there forever. I'm being pressured to go out tomorrow night but I don't have the energy to fake the smile for their cameras, and I don't have the strength to hold out the tears that will cause my make-up to run.
I'm a girl.
I have feelings.
When my heart gets broken I will cry.
I need time.
I just need time.
Even if I do let him back into my life, he doesn't want me the way I want him to want me.
My heart hurts and I've cried to the point where my tears have been depleted. The only place where I don't feel sadness is in my dreams, and sometimes I wish I could just stay in there forever. I'm being pressured to go out tomorrow night but I don't have the energy to fake the smile for their cameras, and I don't have the strength to hold out the tears that will cause my make-up to run.
I'm a girl.
I have feelings.
When my heart gets broken I will cry.
I need time.
I just need time.