and they refuse to see the change in me, why won't they wake up?

[kunochan]

I have a migraine headache and I'm not in the mood. Yeah, I'm alive, yay, throw a fucking party. Here are the updates you all crave so badly, and to those of you who act like they don't care, you still want to know anyway. I'll do it in bullet point form since I don't have the patience for paragraphs right now, I'd rather be shooting my head

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[robotsarered]

as always, right back atcha, buddy. couldn't be more stoked for your success at this point - it symbolically vindicates not only your hard work over a fucking ten year period (jesus!) but also the entire attitude of bedroom electronic music, the digital fever computer belief that you could progress from CoolEdit beatless raps and screamtracker noise collages into something semi-listenable, into solid songs, into completely unexpected territory - that entire arc of personal music progress COMPLETELY outside the normal garage band/bar scene/house shows/whatever world of the standard arc. i don't know if this is making much sense, but just generally the feeling that you could make music entirely as a hobby/obsession on your own, taking so much excitement in each little bit of progress along the way, being almost completely self-taught --- and the non-self-taught part being by sharing tracks on the internet with a few similarly-minded characters and sharing feedback --- and reach a point where not only are you convinced you've created something great, but other people are recognizing it too....that's fucking great. high five.