merry crimbo to all, and to all a fuck you
my life, it seems, has taken a turn
why in the name of god would i ever want to return...
peel off our skin
we're gonna burn
what we were to the ground
fuck in the fire and
we'll spread all the ashes around
i wanna kill away the rest of what's left
and i do
yes i do
she turns me on
she makes me real
i have to apologize for the way i feel
and nothing can stop me now
there is nothing to fear
and everything i'd ever want
is inside of here
*resumes re-discovering the brilliance of With-a Teeth-a*
seriously, i forgot how fucking brilliant this goddamn album was. i kind of...overdosed on it when it came out, because come on, it was the first el rezzo material in like, six years.
then trant rznar goes all sober and it's like
"btw kids here's a dvd and the songs performed live aren't our usual parade of overplayed hits and btw there's an extra section with SOMEWHAT DAMAGED AND NON-ENTITY and here have us play THE BIG COME DOWN for the hell of it oh and i'm mixin a new album and it'll be done by march LOLzers ^_^ l8rz guys!!!!~!1 :):) <3"
what happened to the nine inch nails i know, the one that is regarded as one of the most influential bands ever and only has like, 4 CDs in their catalogue?
not that i'm complaining, but...hey, i have 3 CDs. I'M JUST AS INFLUENTIAL, FUCKERS. MY MOM SAID I WAS. SO THERE. SUCK IT.
Xchop
(you should know that non-entity (solo or band) and the big come down and somewhat damaged are three of my favEoritE nin songs. lolzers!)
It's 8:31 Christmas morning and I made out like a bandit! However, as I'm sure my fucking friends page will be, I am NOT listing what i got, because honestly, do any of you fucking CARE?! i don't care what YOU got, and i certainly don't feel like reading fourteen thousand lists of shit that i have no idea of what you people are talking about.
...and you wonder why i don't read le bibliovive anymore. because on christmas everyone posts fucking numbered lists of what they got. NO ONE CARES!!!!
i'm sorry. god. if you want to know what i got THAT FUCKING BADLY, call me and i'll tell you.
i will tell you that it's just action figures, video games, and clothes.
basically, the three things i need to keep me happy. not food, drink or oxygen.
video games, action figures and clothes.
and makeup.
sorry.
oh, and sexin'.
but that's an automatic, since, i mean, come on, look who's writing this entry? motherfuckin' sexiest fucker alive.
===================================================
now on to music. everyone, feel free to s
JESUS CHRIST
my eq with this new soundcard is SO OFF.
i have to turn my speakers up all the way to listen to like, the big comedown, then Meat Beat Manifesto's oblivion/humans comes on and the left side of my face gets blown off. christ.
if any of you even know the above song, instant points. rebecca, you don't count, since we used to listen to the album it's on in joe's car. remember acid again? it's two songs after that.
uh, anyway. musique. ....man, that reminds me of alyssa. i have to call her.
so, i've been working on converting the My Last Will And Testament demos to pre-production songs so tronix can have a whizzirl with them, and we can get this EP out of the way and move on to finishing FOTW (which I realized I can totally stretch and call "photo" from now on so i don't have to say the whole fucking title. so i'm calling FOTW "PHOTO" from now on. take that. more confusion! MLWAT will be "MILWAT")
anyway, i'll show you guys a lil' preview of one of the songs off of milwat. this song is called "it's your life".
and as you SHOULD KNOW, milwat is an INDUSTRIAL RAP album. that means that i basically ripped skinny puppy's/ogre's vocal stylings from welt and the SP album "the greater wrong of the right" and just used it on my own ep. want to hear what that sounds like? go download the song "pro-test" from SP's tgwotr.
anyway, here's the first verse and chorus of "it's your life":
it's glorious, so full of shit
your lies are all magnificent
audacity, you're full of it
think you got away with it, you did
you're just a little kid
naive, exuding awkwardness
go and fix whatever's wrong
go take your time the swans have sung
and you
live your life
it's your time
leave the world behind
you
make your life
take your time
just leave everything behind
yeah
yeah, yeah
yeah
there you go. music previews...
"soon."
===========================================
i'm thinking about covering the paradise lost song "one second", because it's just piano and maybe a little guitar, and some synths. it's really really easy.
and it's a beautiful song.
and i found my cover cd i burned!
it's got nearly finished covers of:
* when doves cry
* coma white
* in the shadow of the valley of death (piano version)
* user friendly
* halo
* dangerous
* tainted love/where did our love go?
* piggy
* karma police
* we are all on drugs
* why bother
* take control
* keep fishin'
* that "gothic flavor" song from maladroit
* i so can't remember them right now, but 6 and 7 from weezer's pinkerton
and like 800 other songs. you know i love to cover shit.
anyway, if any of you want to hear them, let me finish them and i'll send them to you.
===============================================
phew! i've had the craziest week hanging out with lilana. seriously. i've gotten like NO SLEEP, so yesterday i literally just slept from like, 7 am when i got back from her place until like, now, and i'm probably going to go pass back out reading .hack Another Birth 2.
anyway, still gotta check it out with her, but i was talking to kait and...well, kait's christmas present is a real big (literally big) production, so we ...i don't know how this segue just went, but anyway, we were talking about going out for coffee and just doing our usual bitching, talking, having kait basically analyze my life and completely know EXACTLY what i should do (which is why, when i get rich, i'm hiring her to be my own personal advisor), just like she ALWAYS DOES (how DO you do that, kait?), but yeah, then we got the idea for her and jim and myself and lilana to go eat somewhere interesting.
seeing as how i'm happy for kait and i like jim, unlike the previous kait-mate whose name will NEVER BE IN THIS JOURNAL, EVAR, i'm all for it. jim seems like a really, really good guy and i'm glad that they're moving in together. he seems really good for her and i'm happy to see a friend of mine genuinely happy, since a lot of my friends seem to be going through their own things lately.
plus, hell, DICKHEAD EX-KAIT-MATE used to make fun of me for this, but i love kait to death. i never understood WHY he always made fun of that. aside from jealousy, but it's like, come on - i've known her FOREVER, she's been there for me through so many things, she's given me advice that's saved my ass so many times, and i always know i can talk to kait about something that's bothering me and come out of it feeling better. plus she is one of the four people i will completely and totally trust. and that is a list that no one, NO ONE gets on without proving themselves over YEARS. yes, she and i have had our spats, but in the end, i love her to death. if you ignore the fact that i have a sister who i can't find, i'll take kait as my fake real-life sister any day.
i'm just gonna say a big
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!
to everyone, because i'm giving individual ones out but i might forget someone.
if i forget you i'm sorry! but i might not know how to contact you or something like that.
so happy holidays to everyone.
and in hindsight of the past year, since we're coming up on the end of the year anyway:
regardless of what happened with anyone, you are still all my friends.
some of you hold special places in my heart.
one of you i wish would be my best friend again despite you pushing me away as hard as you can.
and despite any badness or awkwardness or idiocy on my part or anything, i love all of you.
without you guys, my life wouldn't be worth living, and i mean that.
from people i've known forever, like lauren and katie seif, rebecca, addison, chris, markttttttttronix, to people that have just become friends of mine, like colure...you guys keep me wanting to wake up in the morning instead of going to sleep and staying there.
so thank you. i wish i could reward every one of you.
and i promise that one day, i will.
i cherish each and every one of you guys, even if you're not in the above list. i don't get to spend nearly enough time with many of you, but you know if i'm talking about you.
thank you.
i love all of you.
have a good holiday. a good new year's.
and be good, okay? stay safe.
why in the name of god would i ever want to return...
peel off our skin
we're gonna burn
what we were to the ground
fuck in the fire and
we'll spread all the ashes around
i wanna kill away the rest of what's left
and i do
yes i do
she turns me on
she makes me real
i have to apologize for the way i feel
and nothing can stop me now
there is nothing to fear
and everything i'd ever want
is inside of here
*resumes re-discovering the brilliance of With-a Teeth-a*
seriously, i forgot how fucking brilliant this goddamn album was. i kind of...overdosed on it when it came out, because come on, it was the first el rezzo material in like, six years.
then trant rznar goes all sober and it's like
"btw kids here's a dvd and the songs performed live aren't our usual parade of overplayed hits and btw there's an extra section with SOMEWHAT DAMAGED AND NON-ENTITY and here have us play THE BIG COME DOWN for the hell of it oh and i'm mixin a new album and it'll be done by march LOLzers ^_^ l8rz guys!!!!~!1 :):) <3"
what happened to the nine inch nails i know, the one that is regarded as one of the most influential bands ever and only has like, 4 CDs in their catalogue?
not that i'm complaining, but...hey, i have 3 CDs. I'M JUST AS INFLUENTIAL, FUCKERS. MY MOM SAID I WAS. SO THERE. SUCK IT.
Xchop
(you should know that non-entity (solo or band) and the big come down and somewhat damaged are three of my favEoritE nin songs. lolzers!)
It's 8:31 Christmas morning and I made out like a bandit! However, as I'm sure my fucking friends page will be, I am NOT listing what i got, because honestly, do any of you fucking CARE?! i don't care what YOU got, and i certainly don't feel like reading fourteen thousand lists of shit that i have no idea of what you people are talking about.
...and you wonder why i don't read le bibliovive anymore. because on christmas everyone posts fucking numbered lists of what they got. NO ONE CARES!!!!
i'm sorry. god. if you want to know what i got THAT FUCKING BADLY, call me and i'll tell you.
i will tell you that it's just action figures, video games, and clothes.
basically, the three things i need to keep me happy. not food, drink or oxygen.
video games, action figures and clothes.
and makeup.
sorry.
oh, and sexin'.
but that's an automatic, since, i mean, come on, look who's writing this entry? motherfuckin' sexiest fucker alive.
===================================================
now on to music. everyone, feel free to s
JESUS CHRIST
my eq with this new soundcard is SO OFF.
i have to turn my speakers up all the way to listen to like, the big comedown, then Meat Beat Manifesto's oblivion/humans comes on and the left side of my face gets blown off. christ.
if any of you even know the above song, instant points. rebecca, you don't count, since we used to listen to the album it's on in joe's car. remember acid again? it's two songs after that.
uh, anyway. musique. ....man, that reminds me of alyssa. i have to call her.
so, i've been working on converting the My Last Will And Testament demos to pre-production songs so tronix can have a whizzirl with them, and we can get this EP out of the way and move on to finishing FOTW (which I realized I can totally stretch and call "photo" from now on so i don't have to say the whole fucking title. so i'm calling FOTW "PHOTO" from now on. take that. more confusion! MLWAT will be "MILWAT")
anyway, i'll show you guys a lil' preview of one of the songs off of milwat. this song is called "it's your life".
and as you SHOULD KNOW, milwat is an INDUSTRIAL RAP album. that means that i basically ripped skinny puppy's/ogre's vocal stylings from welt and the SP album "the greater wrong of the right" and just used it on my own ep. want to hear what that sounds like? go download the song "pro-test" from SP's tgwotr.
anyway, here's the first verse and chorus of "it's your life":
it's glorious, so full of shit
your lies are all magnificent
audacity, you're full of it
think you got away with it, you did
you're just a little kid
naive, exuding awkwardness
go and fix whatever's wrong
go take your time the swans have sung
and you
live your life
it's your time
leave the world behind
you
make your life
take your time
just leave everything behind
yeah
yeah, yeah
yeah
there you go. music previews...
"soon."
===========================================
i'm thinking about covering the paradise lost song "one second", because it's just piano and maybe a little guitar, and some synths. it's really really easy.
and it's a beautiful song.
and i found my cover cd i burned!
it's got nearly finished covers of:
* when doves cry
* coma white
* in the shadow of the valley of death (piano version)
* user friendly
* halo
* dangerous
* tainted love/where did our love go?
* piggy
* karma police
* we are all on drugs
* why bother
* take control
* keep fishin'
* that "gothic flavor" song from maladroit
* i so can't remember them right now, but 6 and 7 from weezer's pinkerton
and like 800 other songs. you know i love to cover shit.
anyway, if any of you want to hear them, let me finish them and i'll send them to you.
===============================================
phew! i've had the craziest week hanging out with lilana. seriously. i've gotten like NO SLEEP, so yesterday i literally just slept from like, 7 am when i got back from her place until like, now, and i'm probably going to go pass back out reading .hack Another Birth 2.
anyway, still gotta check it out with her, but i was talking to kait and...well, kait's christmas present is a real big (literally big) production, so we ...i don't know how this segue just went, but anyway, we were talking about going out for coffee and just doing our usual bitching, talking, having kait basically analyze my life and completely know EXACTLY what i should do (which is why, when i get rich, i'm hiring her to be my own personal advisor), just like she ALWAYS DOES (how DO you do that, kait?), but yeah, then we got the idea for her and jim and myself and lilana to go eat somewhere interesting.
seeing as how i'm happy for kait and i like jim, unlike the previous kait-mate whose name will NEVER BE IN THIS JOURNAL, EVAR, i'm all for it. jim seems like a really, really good guy and i'm glad that they're moving in together. he seems really good for her and i'm happy to see a friend of mine genuinely happy, since a lot of my friends seem to be going through their own things lately.
plus, hell, DICKHEAD EX-KAIT-MATE used to make fun of me for this, but i love kait to death. i never understood WHY he always made fun of that. aside from jealousy, but it's like, come on - i've known her FOREVER, she's been there for me through so many things, she's given me advice that's saved my ass so many times, and i always know i can talk to kait about something that's bothering me and come out of it feeling better. plus she is one of the four people i will completely and totally trust. and that is a list that no one, NO ONE gets on without proving themselves over YEARS. yes, she and i have had our spats, but in the end, i love her to death. if you ignore the fact that i have a sister who i can't find, i'll take kait as my fake real-life sister any day.
i'm just gonna say a big
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!
to everyone, because i'm giving individual ones out but i might forget someone.
if i forget you i'm sorry! but i might not know how to contact you or something like that.
so happy holidays to everyone.
and in hindsight of the past year, since we're coming up on the end of the year anyway:
regardless of what happened with anyone, you are still all my friends.
some of you hold special places in my heart.
one of you i wish would be my best friend again despite you pushing me away as hard as you can.
and despite any badness or awkwardness or idiocy on my part or anything, i love all of you.
without you guys, my life wouldn't be worth living, and i mean that.
from people i've known forever, like lauren and katie seif, rebecca, addison, chris, markttttttttronix, to people that have just become friends of mine, like colure...you guys keep me wanting to wake up in the morning instead of going to sleep and staying there.
so thank you. i wish i could reward every one of you.
and i promise that one day, i will.
i cherish each and every one of you guys, even if you're not in the above list. i don't get to spend nearly enough time with many of you, but you know if i'm talking about you.
thank you.
i love all of you.
have a good holiday. a good new year's.
and be good, okay? stay safe.