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Sep 19, 2006 17:29

The Allure of "Disappearing Completely"Whenever I think about this I think about the Radiohead song. Then thinking of Radiohead makes me want to put the lyrics to "packed like a sardine in a tin can" on a t-shirt. Yes, I know that's not how it's spelled. No, I will not play the Thom Yorke "remove the vowels for instant street cred game". I don ( Read more... )

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hflag223 September 20 2006, 04:20:25 UTC
no, you're right--i've been torn about it for a long time. i was very, very outgoing at one point, and then days before 8th grade, i decided that perhaps the reason i had no friends and that i was such an outcast was because i was so outgoing (it was probably also because i dressed shitty and i wasn't pretty), but i decided that i'd just stop showing any emotion, stop talking entirely. and i did. i had an english teacher who once complained to my mother that i was the only student he'd ever had who he couldn't look into his eyes and know what's going on in the head. anyway, what happened was that my not talking really took off, i became a big hit, i had friends, and i became popular, and more so with every moment...and all it took was my silence. unfortunately, the silence and emotional lockdown really fucked me up later on, and i'm still trying to get out of it, but...i've found that nothing works so well to make life better as being invisible. and i hate every moment of it. i don't want to experience someone else's life, i want to experience mine, as i expect it'll be mine i'll end up with ultimately. i think we agree with our views on invisibility...but, fuck, if i had money to disappear and go someplace and start anew, i would.

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