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hi, livejournal.
how are you? it's been a while.
in case you were wondering, no, i'm not doing too well. my health is pretty bad and they still don't know where my lung clot came from. for those of you who know my family, ie. my mother, she's currently in the hospital. she was in the icu, but has stabilized and is now in her room. there is currently no date on when she'll be released. i'm not going to release any details of her condition only to say that i barely saved her life, and if i had not woken up earlier, she would've passed on.
i'd like to think that someone up there helped me out on this one. if so, thank you.
it's been hectic in the life of patrick joseph burns. i can't even begin to go into it. court, hospitals, doctors, medications, INRs, insomnia, blood tests, vomiting, anti-imetics, and to top it off, i may be having mini-seizures in my brain. so if you worship some entity, or pray to whoever, throw in a good word for me, eh? i could really use it.
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a series of new songs has been finished:
* Do I Believe In God? (instrumental version) - Note, this song will also have another remixed version featuring vocals. It'll be on the upcoming EP.
* A New Life - This has been moved to Failure of the Week instead of the EP. It will not be performed live, ever. You can view the lyrics at http://www.freewebs.com/palecurve/anewlife.jpg if you'd like.
* The Thin Line - This song, the music of which was recorded during the DTHE sessions, and the vocals written in 2003, then half lost, then the second half rewritten in the past few months, is finally complete, and IMO, is one of my finest songs to date. I have yet to assemble an image page for the lyrics, so here they are:
THE THIN LINE
i know that you lie everyday, but
it's okay.
even when you say the words straight to my face,
it's okay.
i'll believe you for now and
i'll keep my head in the clouds.
while you make up some stories
with your feet on the ground.
dragging me left,
and dragging me right.
wired at morning,
knocked out at night.
thanks to you, i can't sleep;
because of you, i have grown to be...
disengaged from what i have become,
i know i'm not the only one.
disengaged from what i have become,
i know i'm not the only one.
separate and complicate the situation that we're in -
i know it's sad to concentrate and see this happen all again
i'm devious - i'll deviate from what i've come to feel within -
i'll break my heart before you have a chance to say that it's the end.
did you think that you could lie,
and assume that i'd just not catch on?
or was i just another
kiss-fuck-dump, and then move on?
well, i'm done as your backup love,
i'm done as your living shadow.
you and i, we have to fight -
and this will be our final battle.
dragging me left,
and dragging me right.
thanks to you, i can't sleep;
you stupid bitch, i've grown to be -
disengaged from what i have become,
i know i'm not the only one.
disengaged from what we have become,
i know i'm not the only one.
my lack of trust comes from your lust and all the things you chose to do -
all the things we've done together, all the things you've put me through.
doesn't matter, i don't care, everything is going fine -
i'll break my heart before you have a chance to cross over that line.
ha ha ha ha
ha ha ha ha
ha ha ha ha
ha ha ha ha
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All the above is copyright ME 2006. Don't fucking steal it, or reprint it without my permission, okay? don't make me sue you. I have a high-powered attorney now and I will destroy your ass.
how cool is that?
when i told someone "i have to talk to my lawyer" i felt like such an adult.
it's funny that i'm 24 and i only realized i was an adult when i said "i have to talk to my lawyer". god, how pathetic is that?
i have such a fucking crush on nicole richie, and it's getting out of hand. i've been reading her book, "The Truth About Diamonds" and it's surprisingly really, really entertaining. plus there's this great stopgap section in the middle filled with a bunch of pictures of nicole, the highlight of which is a series of her in a schoolgirl outfit writing "i will be a good girl" on a chalkboard, and then spread out all over...
yeah, nicole. let me get my hands on you and you'll be a good girl for about 2.4 seconds, then i'll show you why being bad is so much better.
the back cover is also one of the best images i've ever seen (even if it didn't feature nicole) - it's of a nicole in a dimly lit bar, hair mussed up, with a glass of champagne to her side, and black kohl makeup running down her face. there's just something so sexy about that picture. or her for that matter. someone get me her NOW
in fact, here's a picture of the back of the HARDBACK. the paperback's back cover is her in a ballerina outfit. hot, not as near as hot as this.
and then i found these great pictures of her at a book signing.
i DARE you to tell me that is not the cutest look ever.
LOOK AT THAT SMILE. oh my god, i'm melting in my computer chair right as i look at it.
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i know, some of you are going to get on my ass for being in love with a tabloid queen like nicole richie, but fuck you. she joins my elite group of celebrity crushes:
* lindy booth
* stormy, previously of Suicide Girls
* reagan, member of Suicide Girls
* anne hathaway (WHO DID HER FIRST NUDE SCENE AND HAS PERFECT BREASTS. PERFECT.)
* mischa barton
* rachael bilson
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you know, i doubt anyone out there will know this, but does anyone know what happened to Stormy after she left Suicide Girls? after I got the DVD she and Reagan quickly became my two favorites, but Stormy left a...it's a long story. anyway, i know she's still modelling under that name - if anyone knows of a website she's on, or if she has a myspace, let me know. Stormy just has this..look. You know, long brunette hair, long nose, nice body...god.
Reagan...i can't place why i'm so attracted to reagan. she reminds me of ashley (rest in peace, you lovely panzerwench), who i always *shh* found attractive, especially when we'd hang out and she'd wear great tops and miniskirts and platform sandals...that girl had one HELL of a body, and man was she hot...not to mention funny, smart and a really good friend to me.
...i miss her terribly. i'll never forget the night i found out. it was midnight and i was with my mom checking my e-mail at kinkos (no computer at the time), and i found out through an e-mail from someone who thought i already knew...it was such a shock that i just got up, leaving all my stuff, and just started walking, and i haven't cried that hard since...kishan died. ashley and i had just made plans to spend a day in the next week hanging out, so i could show her my new apartment and record our great idea for a radio show that i was going to start streaming where we just made fun of everyone and everything...and then she was gone.
my mom found me something like 15 blocks away crouched down sobbing.
i miss you, ashley.
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i have a bunch of picture sets i need to upload and post here. here's a preview of three of them.
first set: ari's smearing technique w/silver and black makeup, tousled hair
second set: purple makeup, and my normal haircut with one long bang and one short. (but don't worry ladies, i bang long when it matters.)
third set: brown makeup, and a new approached, some slicked-back hair. i actually think it looks good. people like the makeup, but not the hair. what gives? i think it looks cool.
the above ^ image is one of my favorites of me of all time. i don't know, it's just the look on my face or something. damn it's good.
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if anyone wants to take pictures of me, let me know! i'd so be up for it. i also have three pictures in a folder called "Patrick's Ultra-Penis (AKA The Girl-Killer", but those will be saved for a later time.
i showed all three pictures in that folder to a girl who had previously seen a picture of my penis from a couple years ago, and her reaction "IT GREW!!!?!"
yes. if you read this journal, you'll remember me bitching about wearing holes in my pants, around my crotch area. well, it got even worse. all of a sudden, even though my waist is a 32 - 34 (depending on the pant cut/manufacturer) i have to go up at least a size, sometimes two, because if i try to pull on the right size pants, they don't fit over my crotch. and i'm not being all "i have a big dick" here, i'm being serious. it's a real pain in the ass, because i can't buy normal looking pants, they all have to be baggy. and underwear, god. i switched back from boxer briefs to just boxers because i was sick of the hugging, and boxers are just more comfortable, and these i have don't have fly buttons, so my penis is constantly just like, flying out. oy. so i took matters into my own hands, and decided to see if it really did grow.
and yes, it did. i gained 3 inches and an entire inch around. this in addition to my shoulders all of a sudden broadening, and my arms bulking up like crazy, making it super-difficult to get dress shirts now. only then was i informed by my doctor that some males do experience one final late growth spurt, and it can be in any area.
so, hey, my penis grew. while it's a pain, it's also now a force to be reckoned with. common responses:
"that thing would break me in half"
"that would hurt SO MUCH"
"could that even fit inside someone?"
"fuck the length, give me that thickness, mmm"
ahhh....my penis. it's grown, my medication allows me to have sex for hours before an orgasm, and i have multiple orgasms now, even when i masturbate. guys, ever have four orgasms one after the other with no break inbetween? it makes a hell of a mess, but JESUS is it worth it. i had a fiver the other week that exhausted me so much i took a two hour nap.
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all right, enough about my dick, nicole richie, and cam whoring. i'm ending this.
please keep my mother in your prayers, if you pray, or whatever.
now if you'll excuse me, i'm wired in the morning, and it's time to be knocked out for night.
get the reference and i'll give you a surprise.
...my penis. ka-ching!
how are you? it's been a while.
in case you were wondering, no, i'm not doing too well. my health is pretty bad and they still don't know where my lung clot came from. for those of you who know my family, ie. my mother, she's currently in the hospital. she was in the icu, but has stabilized and is now in her room. there is currently no date on when she'll be released. i'm not going to release any details of her condition only to say that i barely saved her life, and if i had not woken up earlier, she would've passed on.
i'd like to think that someone up there helped me out on this one. if so, thank you.
it's been hectic in the life of patrick joseph burns. i can't even begin to go into it. court, hospitals, doctors, medications, INRs, insomnia, blood tests, vomiting, anti-imetics, and to top it off, i may be having mini-seizures in my brain. so if you worship some entity, or pray to whoever, throw in a good word for me, eh? i could really use it.
--------
a series of new songs has been finished:
* Do I Believe In God? (instrumental version) - Note, this song will also have another remixed version featuring vocals. It'll be on the upcoming EP.
* A New Life - This has been moved to Failure of the Week instead of the EP. It will not be performed live, ever. You can view the lyrics at http://www.freewebs.com/palecurve/anewlife.jpg if you'd like.
* The Thin Line - This song, the music of which was recorded during the DTHE sessions, and the vocals written in 2003, then half lost, then the second half rewritten in the past few months, is finally complete, and IMO, is one of my finest songs to date. I have yet to assemble an image page for the lyrics, so here they are:
THE THIN LINE
i know that you lie everyday, but
it's okay.
even when you say the words straight to my face,
it's okay.
i'll believe you for now and
i'll keep my head in the clouds.
while you make up some stories
with your feet on the ground.
dragging me left,
and dragging me right.
wired at morning,
knocked out at night.
thanks to you, i can't sleep;
because of you, i have grown to be...
disengaged from what i have become,
i know i'm not the only one.
disengaged from what i have become,
i know i'm not the only one.
separate and complicate the situation that we're in -
i know it's sad to concentrate and see this happen all again
i'm devious - i'll deviate from what i've come to feel within -
i'll break my heart before you have a chance to say that it's the end.
did you think that you could lie,
and assume that i'd just not catch on?
or was i just another
kiss-fuck-dump, and then move on?
well, i'm done as your backup love,
i'm done as your living shadow.
you and i, we have to fight -
and this will be our final battle.
dragging me left,
and dragging me right.
thanks to you, i can't sleep;
you stupid bitch, i've grown to be -
disengaged from what i have become,
i know i'm not the only one.
disengaged from what we have become,
i know i'm not the only one.
my lack of trust comes from your lust and all the things you chose to do -
all the things we've done together, all the things you've put me through.
doesn't matter, i don't care, everything is going fine -
i'll break my heart before you have a chance to cross over that line.
ha ha ha ha
ha ha ha ha
ha ha ha ha
ha ha ha ha
---------------------------
All the above is copyright ME 2006. Don't fucking steal it, or reprint it without my permission, okay? don't make me sue you. I have a high-powered attorney now and I will destroy your ass.
how cool is that?
when i told someone "i have to talk to my lawyer" i felt like such an adult.
it's funny that i'm 24 and i only realized i was an adult when i said "i have to talk to my lawyer". god, how pathetic is that?
i have such a fucking crush on nicole richie, and it's getting out of hand. i've been reading her book, "The Truth About Diamonds" and it's surprisingly really, really entertaining. plus there's this great stopgap section in the middle filled with a bunch of pictures of nicole, the highlight of which is a series of her in a schoolgirl outfit writing "i will be a good girl" on a chalkboard, and then spread out all over...
yeah, nicole. let me get my hands on you and you'll be a good girl for about 2.4 seconds, then i'll show you why being bad is so much better.
the back cover is also one of the best images i've ever seen (even if it didn't feature nicole) - it's of a nicole in a dimly lit bar, hair mussed up, with a glass of champagne to her side, and black kohl makeup running down her face. there's just something so sexy about that picture. or her for that matter. someone get me her NOW
in fact, here's a picture of the back of the HARDBACK. the paperback's back cover is her in a ballerina outfit. hot, not as near as hot as this.
and then i found these great pictures of her at a book signing.
i DARE you to tell me that is not the cutest look ever.
LOOK AT THAT SMILE. oh my god, i'm melting in my computer chair right as i look at it.
------------------------
i know, some of you are going to get on my ass for being in love with a tabloid queen like nicole richie, but fuck you. she joins my elite group of celebrity crushes:
* lindy booth
* stormy, previously of Suicide Girls
* reagan, member of Suicide Girls
* anne hathaway (WHO DID HER FIRST NUDE SCENE AND HAS PERFECT BREASTS. PERFECT.)
* mischa barton
* rachael bilson
-------------------------
you know, i doubt anyone out there will know this, but does anyone know what happened to Stormy after she left Suicide Girls? after I got the DVD she and Reagan quickly became my two favorites, but Stormy left a...it's a long story. anyway, i know she's still modelling under that name - if anyone knows of a website she's on, or if she has a myspace, let me know. Stormy just has this..look. You know, long brunette hair, long nose, nice body...god.
Reagan...i can't place why i'm so attracted to reagan. she reminds me of ashley (rest in peace, you lovely panzerwench), who i always *shh* found attractive, especially when we'd hang out and she'd wear great tops and miniskirts and platform sandals...that girl had one HELL of a body, and man was she hot...not to mention funny, smart and a really good friend to me.
...i miss her terribly. i'll never forget the night i found out. it was midnight and i was with my mom checking my e-mail at kinkos (no computer at the time), and i found out through an e-mail from someone who thought i already knew...it was such a shock that i just got up, leaving all my stuff, and just started walking, and i haven't cried that hard since...kishan died. ashley and i had just made plans to spend a day in the next week hanging out, so i could show her my new apartment and record our great idea for a radio show that i was going to start streaming where we just made fun of everyone and everything...and then she was gone.
my mom found me something like 15 blocks away crouched down sobbing.
i miss you, ashley.
----------------------------
i have a bunch of picture sets i need to upload and post here. here's a preview of three of them.
first set: ari's smearing technique w/silver and black makeup, tousled hair
second set: purple makeup, and my normal haircut with one long bang and one short. (but don't worry ladies, i bang long when it matters.)
third set: brown makeup, and a new approached, some slicked-back hair. i actually think it looks good. people like the makeup, but not the hair. what gives? i think it looks cool.
the above ^ image is one of my favorites of me of all time. i don't know, it's just the look on my face or something. damn it's good.
-----------------------------------------
if anyone wants to take pictures of me, let me know! i'd so be up for it. i also have three pictures in a folder called "Patrick's Ultra-Penis (AKA The Girl-Killer", but those will be saved for a later time.
i showed all three pictures in that folder to a girl who had previously seen a picture of my penis from a couple years ago, and her reaction "IT GREW!!!?!"
yes. if you read this journal, you'll remember me bitching about wearing holes in my pants, around my crotch area. well, it got even worse. all of a sudden, even though my waist is a 32 - 34 (depending on the pant cut/manufacturer) i have to go up at least a size, sometimes two, because if i try to pull on the right size pants, they don't fit over my crotch. and i'm not being all "i have a big dick" here, i'm being serious. it's a real pain in the ass, because i can't buy normal looking pants, they all have to be baggy. and underwear, god. i switched back from boxer briefs to just boxers because i was sick of the hugging, and boxers are just more comfortable, and these i have don't have fly buttons, so my penis is constantly just like, flying out. oy. so i took matters into my own hands, and decided to see if it really did grow.
and yes, it did. i gained 3 inches and an entire inch around. this in addition to my shoulders all of a sudden broadening, and my arms bulking up like crazy, making it super-difficult to get dress shirts now. only then was i informed by my doctor that some males do experience one final late growth spurt, and it can be in any area.
so, hey, my penis grew. while it's a pain, it's also now a force to be reckoned with. common responses:
"that thing would break me in half"
"that would hurt SO MUCH"
"could that even fit inside someone?"
"fuck the length, give me that thickness, mmm"
ahhh....my penis. it's grown, my medication allows me to have sex for hours before an orgasm, and i have multiple orgasms now, even when i masturbate. guys, ever have four orgasms one after the other with no break inbetween? it makes a hell of a mess, but JESUS is it worth it. i had a fiver the other week that exhausted me so much i took a two hour nap.
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all right, enough about my dick, nicole richie, and cam whoring. i'm ending this.
please keep my mother in your prayers, if you pray, or whatever.
now if you'll excuse me, i'm wired in the morning, and it's time to be knocked out for night.
get the reference and i'll give you a surprise.
...my penis. ka-ching!