They are now the MEMORIES!
Obviously, this is dedicated to eunwook13 the birthday-girl~~
Gosh, another 12 months had passed already!! time flies, indeed.
Remembering I made a post for your birthday last year makes me feel like…nothing new, nothing creative at all though things have changed, and so does the situation. It’s 12am here now but it’s 8pm there in Cambodia.
Well, firstly, I just wanna tell you that I’ll post this thread at my 12am strike. The reasons for this are, I need to sleep (can say now) because I have exam tomorrow. I need to have enough sleep, otherwise, I’ll ruin my exam xD second, I don’t think I can hold on until 12am your time.
Anyway, let’s come back!!
Coming to Australia makes me realize something. Guess what? Well, when I was there, even I don’t really hang out with friends, even if I just stay at home, there was (a) you who kept me company. I remember how I was like “oh, it’s time, she should be back soon”. However, here, a few months ago, I was a loner, a totally loner. Didn’t really have any friends at all. You know what? I thought I was good enough in making friend, but the fact is otherwise. I am not good, very not good, most likely in everything.
One more thing, you know what I’m thinking now? Although the education system here is good, I am living under pressure, a lot of pressure. When I have something on my mind to let go, I don’t know who to talk to. When I’m angry at someone, there is no one I can rant at. All I can do is to hold on everything, no matter happiness or sadness. Honestly, you’re still the only one that I can show my true face. The ‘Lin/Ngor’ that everyone sees today is not the true one.
Wait, it’s your birthday!! Why am I saying such emotional thing to you xD especially there’s nothing for you to concern about >.< I’m such a failure.
/sigh. If I could, I mean if only I could, I’d let your dream come true one day. The dream that you told me last year, the dream that I’ve remembered for long time, I’ll try, but don’t expect too much because too high expectation will create more disappointment.
So I heard you have lots of friends now, huh? That’s good~~ hmmm how has it been going on with you? Everything’s good?
I’m not very good here. I’m facing quite a lot of problems, one is about my strange illness (well, something similar to illness but not really), two is about not being able to be myself; three is about you-know-what which is the BIG problem in our family.
So I hope you’re enjoying your life over there. Life is too short to be wasted, enjoy it now. Don’t be like me, I somehow feel I’m wasting every moment of my life hahaha!!!
Oh anyway, the last year present, I haven’t got one for you yet this year comes again xD I should be able to get you something when I’m visiting Cambodia ~~ let’s cross my fingers hahaha
Last but not least HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Nothing but just remember to make your life ENJOYABLE!!!
P.S: those are now just the memories, I don't think I can get them back haha!!
Gosh, another 12 months had passed already!! time flies, indeed.
Remembering I made a post for your birthday last year makes me feel like…nothing new, nothing creative at all though things have changed, and so does the situation. It’s 12am here now but it’s 8pm there in Cambodia.
Well, firstly, I just wanna tell you that I’ll post this thread at my 12am strike. The reasons for this are, I need to sleep (can say now) because I have exam tomorrow. I need to have enough sleep, otherwise, I’ll ruin my exam xD second, I don’t think I can hold on until 12am your time.
Anyway, let’s come back!!
Coming to Australia makes me realize something. Guess what? Well, when I was there, even I don’t really hang out with friends, even if I just stay at home, there was (a) you who kept me company. I remember how I was like “oh, it’s time, she should be back soon”. However, here, a few months ago, I was a loner, a totally loner. Didn’t really have any friends at all. You know what? I thought I was good enough in making friend, but the fact is otherwise. I am not good, very not good, most likely in everything.
One more thing, you know what I’m thinking now? Although the education system here is good, I am living under pressure, a lot of pressure. When I have something on my mind to let go, I don’t know who to talk to. When I’m angry at someone, there is no one I can rant at. All I can do is to hold on everything, no matter happiness or sadness. Honestly, you’re still the only one that I can show my true face. The ‘Lin/Ngor’ that everyone sees today is not the true one.
Wait, it’s your birthday!! Why am I saying such emotional thing to you xD especially there’s nothing for you to concern about >.< I’m such a failure.
/sigh. If I could, I mean if only I could, I’d let your dream come true one day. The dream that you told me last year, the dream that I’ve remembered for long time, I’ll try, but don’t expect too much because too high expectation will create more disappointment.
So I heard you have lots of friends now, huh? That’s good~~ hmmm how has it been going on with you? Everything’s good?
I’m not very good here. I’m facing quite a lot of problems, one is about my strange illness (well, something similar to illness but not really), two is about not being able to be myself; three is about you-know-what which is the BIG problem in our family.
So I hope you’re enjoying your life over there. Life is too short to be wasted, enjoy it now. Don’t be like me, I somehow feel I’m wasting every moment of my life hahaha!!!
Oh anyway, the last year present, I haven’t got one for you yet this year comes again xD I should be able to get you something when I’m visiting Cambodia ~~ let’s cross my fingers hahaha
Last but not least HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Nothing but just remember to make your life ENJOYABLE!!!
P.S: those are now just the memories, I don't think I can get them back haha!!