damn rules
well ne i know i just updated my last journal but ne way this damned rules i hate but even though dont get me wrong man i hate be left out with my friends especially rules from my parents im a fuckin adult for cryin out loud but under there eyes im just a lil kid i am tryin to grow up here that i willin to earn their trust like i said the start to ne relationship like friendship boyfriend/girlfriend or even families there always have to start with trust and all but i dont even know no more i ask myself everyday that i know if my friends n family r they willin to accept me this is how life is its reality some people r willin to trust me but me i it hard for me to accept new people i tend to meet it so hard to get close to new people this days in my point of view i was close to my friends even closer to someone i like now i dont know if i even close to her i know she is my friend but i want to get closer to her sometimes i have to give up on my dreams to do wats right it is so hard to do ne of this my judgement is being clouded maybe i should jsut be myself am i really actin like a lil kid? i dont really know maybe i should jsut grow up even my parents even see me like a kid but they will never see me grow up in time i will be adult in time i shall but maybe i am growin up along the way that i hadnt notice yet