avoidance or pure laziness? and... def both.
well for the past week i've done pretty much nothing at all
i did attempt to unsuccessfully get over my jetlag, but that did not quite work either.
i did check in twice a day to see if the jury duty gods would call upon me but i escaped !
of course, then i just think about how i could have stayed in europe to do an offered gig (which would have been nice too)
but then i would have been asked to show up in court if i stayed. murphys law n all.
the problem with laying around and waiting around is it gives one time to think and sometimes too much thinking is bad.
it causes stress and pain but at least i'm able to tell myself that the situation i'm in is no good and it needs to be changed or else i will go crazy emotionally. well, i guess it's one thing to know something and make a mental decision, another thing to actually follow up on it.
in summary the boy i like can no longer be the boy i like cuz he doesnt like me enough.
(ok it's not as simple as that but i don't feel like including all the details).
So then, I need to try and get my ass in gear and book some shoots and distract myself with work n things.
kind of difficult as the one i would rather hang out with is far away but still, i do have my local friends but sometimes my laziness powers overcomes all and i'd much rather sit on my ass at home playing games on the computer and avoiding the world.
With that said, I'm back in Cali and booking shoots. It's gotta be better for me to get out n keep busy!
hmm pretty soon i'm going to have to start this gym thing too...
i did attempt to unsuccessfully get over my jetlag, but that did not quite work either.
i did check in twice a day to see if the jury duty gods would call upon me but i escaped !
of course, then i just think about how i could have stayed in europe to do an offered gig (which would have been nice too)
but then i would have been asked to show up in court if i stayed. murphys law n all.
the problem with laying around and waiting around is it gives one time to think and sometimes too much thinking is bad.
it causes stress and pain but at least i'm able to tell myself that the situation i'm in is no good and it needs to be changed or else i will go crazy emotionally. well, i guess it's one thing to know something and make a mental decision, another thing to actually follow up on it.
in summary the boy i like can no longer be the boy i like cuz he doesnt like me enough.
(ok it's not as simple as that but i don't feel like including all the details).
So then, I need to try and get my ass in gear and book some shoots and distract myself with work n things.
kind of difficult as the one i would rather hang out with is far away but still, i do have my local friends but sometimes my laziness powers overcomes all and i'd much rather sit on my ass at home playing games on the computer and avoiding the world.
With that said, I'm back in Cali and booking shoots. It's gotta be better for me to get out n keep busy!
hmm pretty soon i'm going to have to start this gym thing too...