Here it comes.....
I'm back to being depressed. Although I've been depressed for a long time....a very long time....ever since the end of 8th grade really.
High school just depresses me. My only real friend there I don't get to see much of, and I've never been successful with guys, and I've probably got a rep with the guitarists....that's not something to like, there's this doosh bag who's mom kinda harasses my mom by spewing back the twisted lies he tells her and trying to get everyone to gang up on her when the admin stand behind my mom cuz Alex is an ass, everyone hates him, and he's grades are F's. Who would you believe? And school work, there's so much now and I'm just spiraling down and I was a complete ass to Christopher....
This sounds very weird coming from me, but he'll never know how sorry I am for the things I said and did.
I don't really want to talk about it all.
I feel like I'm in the Dark Ages of my life. Nothing progressive is happening, and I've been neglecting my harp for the past week.
I'm a messed up person.
I miss all my friends I've known before this. Although I'll probably be seeing Stephanie more often if she takes dance with me. Thank God, I've missed her.
And hanging out with the anime lovers in my Trig class gave me a shock. They have perverted minds and were like, oh yeah, you like anime too, oh wait, you exist, oops, now you don't.
And tests every day....
I've never had so many blackheads before.
Nothing's happening and nothingness bores me.
My mom's actually encouraging me to flirt with the bassoon player at my school who broke up with his girlfriend a few weeks ago. I dunno, I've always liked him, but Natalie was always there and I love Natalie, she is the sweetest thing, but the thought never crossed my mind until now.
My mom always complicates things. She thought Josh liked me and I said, hell, let's go and see, and I'm trying not to let it happen again because I'm just not feeling anything from his end....
Oh God, I'm doing this again.
Everything is just back-ass-ward right now. XD
Surprisingly, DDR is the highlight of my life. It makes me forget things and makes me frustrated so that I start cursing out the game for being so hard. XDDDDD
High school just depresses me. My only real friend there I don't get to see much of, and I've never been successful with guys, and I've probably got a rep with the guitarists....that's not something to like, there's this doosh bag who's mom kinda harasses my mom by spewing back the twisted lies he tells her and trying to get everyone to gang up on her when the admin stand behind my mom cuz Alex is an ass, everyone hates him, and he's grades are F's. Who would you believe? And school work, there's so much now and I'm just spiraling down and I was a complete ass to Christopher....
This sounds very weird coming from me, but he'll never know how sorry I am for the things I said and did.
I don't really want to talk about it all.
I feel like I'm in the Dark Ages of my life. Nothing progressive is happening, and I've been neglecting my harp for the past week.
I'm a messed up person.
I miss all my friends I've known before this. Although I'll probably be seeing Stephanie more often if she takes dance with me. Thank God, I've missed her.
And hanging out with the anime lovers in my Trig class gave me a shock. They have perverted minds and were like, oh yeah, you like anime too, oh wait, you exist, oops, now you don't.
And tests every day....
I've never had so many blackheads before.
Nothing's happening and nothingness bores me.
My mom's actually encouraging me to flirt with the bassoon player at my school who broke up with his girlfriend a few weeks ago. I dunno, I've always liked him, but Natalie was always there and I love Natalie, she is the sweetest thing, but the thought never crossed my mind until now.
My mom always complicates things. She thought Josh liked me and I said, hell, let's go and see, and I'm trying not to let it happen again because I'm just not feeling anything from his end....
Oh God, I'm doing this again.
Everything is just back-ass-ward right now. XD
Surprisingly, DDR is the highlight of my life. It makes me forget things and makes me frustrated so that I start cursing out the game for being so hard. XDDDDD