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Yah, it's time for an emo journal.
So last night I was talking to my roommate about how I never had a bf, and she's all, naw, you're pretty, stop being so antisocial. Argue that I'm not pretty and then she's like, honestly, you're just a little above average. And that we were plain.
Yah, this is true, but I was really hoping someone would think differently. Guess not.
I'm never gonna be a fucking beauty queen, and those that are now are gonna get fat and ugly later on, so ass-hole shallow men should really start looking beyond the surface. Cuz they should get aquatinted with the ugly duckling. Cuz you never know that the duckling might actually be a swan.
I'm just so sick of being unattractive. I've tried so many things but nothing works. My fucking body composition is a big problem, and I came out lacking the looks the rest of my family has. The rest of my family is beautiful and then I'm here and it's like, look at me and you think blah.
I'll never be able to go solo because I have no image.
And I really want everything to turn around so someone will think, oh, I wish I were as pretty as her. But that's never gonna happen.
What bugs me most is that there's nothing I can do to change this. And that people lie to me when they say I'm pretty and crap.
Family doesn't count, close friends don't count, and Christopher, you don't count.
I really would like to shoot some people right now because they're everything I am and so much more. So what am I then?
These two guys, Bob and Kevin stopped us to ask for a dollar last night, and I was the only one who had money on them, so the two of them held me up and everyone else left me, go figure, I'm invisible and everyone forgets about me unless I'm standing with them. It was nice though, someone actually seeing me, and they went off into this funny the only gay Eskimo thing, which I think is self-explanatory. I forgot what I'm getting at dammit, but I was thinking about how I feel like I'm the only gay Eskimo, because nobody would want me. I dunno, that's kind of a weird comparison, but like they said, it's a sad thought.
So last night I was talking to my roommate about how I never had a bf, and she's all, naw, you're pretty, stop being so antisocial. Argue that I'm not pretty and then she's like, honestly, you're just a little above average. And that we were plain.
Yah, this is true, but I was really hoping someone would think differently. Guess not.
I'm never gonna be a fucking beauty queen, and those that are now are gonna get fat and ugly later on, so ass-hole shallow men should really start looking beyond the surface. Cuz they should get aquatinted with the ugly duckling. Cuz you never know that the duckling might actually be a swan.
I'm just so sick of being unattractive. I've tried so many things but nothing works. My fucking body composition is a big problem, and I came out lacking the looks the rest of my family has. The rest of my family is beautiful and then I'm here and it's like, look at me and you think blah.
I'll never be able to go solo because I have no image.
And I really want everything to turn around so someone will think, oh, I wish I were as pretty as her. But that's never gonna happen.
What bugs me most is that there's nothing I can do to change this. And that people lie to me when they say I'm pretty and crap.
Family doesn't count, close friends don't count, and Christopher, you don't count.
I really would like to shoot some people right now because they're everything I am and so much more. So what am I then?
These two guys, Bob and Kevin stopped us to ask for a dollar last night, and I was the only one who had money on them, so the two of them held me up and everyone else left me, go figure, I'm invisible and everyone forgets about me unless I'm standing with them. It was nice though, someone actually seeing me, and they went off into this funny the only gay Eskimo thing, which I think is self-explanatory. I forgot what I'm getting at dammit, but I was thinking about how I feel like I'm the only gay Eskimo, because nobody would want me. I dunno, that's kind of a weird comparison, but like they said, it's a sad thought.