Healing Hearts - Ch.1
Title: Healing Hearts
Chapter Title: This is so not you
Pairing: RyoPi
Genre: Angst, Romance
Rating: PG-15
Disclaimer: People can't own other people. Well, except for Johnny Kitagawa-san...
Summary: Pi can’t seem to find true love. But if he took a better look around himself, he’d see that the right person is right beside him.
A/N: English's not my mother language.
Healing Hearts
Chapter One - This is so not you
Ryo wasn’t sure how long they’d stayed like that, Pi leaning on him, body occasionally shaken by sobs, while the older boy stroke his hair, humming a tune. It was always like that when he was with Pi: time passed quickly without him even noticing.
His leader had probably fallen asleep, Ryo thought, ‘cause his breath was now regular and he wasn’t crying anymore. But he didn’t dare to move for a bit. He didn’t want to break the magic that was filling the room, the magic of being needed by the person you love the most in the world. Anyway, he had to recognize that it was late and Pi needed to sleep in a proper bed. And besides his back was starting to hurt because of the uncomfortable position. So Ryo got up and carefully carried Yamapi to his bedroom. He took off the other’s jacket, shoes and jeans and put him under the warm covers. He sat on the edge of the bed, stretching out his hand to touch the other’s sleeping face, gently caressing his cheek.
Ryo wanted to just lie on the other side of the bed and sleep. But he thought that maybe it wasn’t right. Maybe Pi didn’t want someone to sleep with him right after he had broken up with his girlfriend. Maybe Pi would get angry waking up and discovering his best-friend in the same bed. Not that they’d never slept together. No, it had happened many times when they were juniors and they were on tours. But many years had passed since then and they had grown up. Maybe now Pi wanted him to act like an adult male friend and sleep on the couch like it should be.
Ryo was just about to stand up when a strong hand grabbed his own and Pi pulled him down to lie on the bed. The guy, still asleep, passed his arms around him and buried his head in the curve of his neck. Ryo blushed furiously but he couldn’t free himself - not that he wanted to anyway, since now he had a good excuse to sleep with Pi. So he just put the covers over himself as well and reached out to switch the lamp off.
When Ryo woke up the following morning, the first thing he saw were Yamapi’s dark eyes. His heart skipped a beat and he moved a little to the side, because his face was so close to Pi’s that he could have done something he would have regretted afterwards. The younger boy’s arm was still around Ryo’s chest and he didn’t seem willing to move.
“’Morning.” whispered Ryo.
Yamapi smiled.
“Good morning. You’re cute when you sleep.” he replied.
Ryo hoped he wasn’t blushing.
“Have you been watching me long?”
“No. Just few minutes. I had forgotten what your face looks like when you’re asleep. We’ve not been this close for ages.”
Ryo wanted to remark that it wasn’t his fault but he thought that if Pi wanted to make up he should collaborate.
“Yeah. We’ve been quite… busy.” he simply said.
Yamapi smiled bitterly.
“Nice expression. But let’s say the truth: I’ve been quite busy being dragged around like an obedient dog by another stupid bitch. That’s what you and the others all think, right? I’ve been ignoring you because of my stupidity. I always do this. How come you still haven’t got tired of me? Especially you, Ryo.”
Ryo softly smacked him on the head.
“Don’t say stupid things. We’re your friends. I’m your best-friend. We don’t care about your stupidity. And besides in this case it’s not stupidity, it’s just that you have a pure heart that gives itself completely…”
“To the wrong person.” Pi finished for him. His expression became serious “But that’s it. I’m done with bitches. I don’t need girls, I have more important things to think about. Like work. And friends. I’m not going to fall in love again. Never. With no girls.”
Ryo didn’t know whether to be scared or relieved by this confession.
“Next time I’m with a girl,” Pi continued “I’m going to control the whole game. I’m the man.”
Now Ryo was kind of scared. He had never heard the other saying that kind of things. He had always been the gentleman.
“You’re sure of what you’re saying?”
The other smiled. That’s so fake, Ryo thought.
“Of course I am! And I’m starting immediately! Guess where we’re going tonight.”
Ryo sighed and got out of the bed.
“To some club so you can drown your pain in the alcohol and forget it in the arms of some slut with big boobs.” he said with a strange voice, taking Pi’s clothes from the armchair.
He turned to toss them at him. Pi was looking at him not sure whether the other was serious or angry.
“Should I call Jin and Yuu too?” Ryo added casually.
Pi shook his head.
“No. Just you and me.”
“And your fucking bitches.” Ryo whispered snorting.
“What did you say?” Pi asked.
“That I’ve heard of a new club in Roppongi.”
“Oh, yeah, me too. Let’s go there!”
“Sure.” Ryo replied without even half of Pi’s enthusiasm.
He headed for the door.
“You can use the bathroom first. I’m going to make some coffee.”
Pi nodded, still wondering why suddenly he felt like the other was acting strangely.
Going clubbing had become quite a nuisance for Ryo. It was kind of strange, since he was a young handsome boy. He used to like going out with his friends and exploring new clubs and pubs, especially when he had just turned twenty and everything was still so new, knowing he was finally legal but not feeling it. As years passed he had got used to it and it had become just another way of spending time with friends; an exciting way since it included drinks and girls.
Then Yamapi had started getting too addicted to clubbing - and girls - and suddenly it had started hurting Ryo. Now he just felt like he was being forced to see his best-friend - and loved one - making out with the first girl he saw right in front of him. Not that he had ever complained. No, of course no. In the others’ eyes he was a womanizer just like Yamapi.
That was exactly their aim as Ryo and Pi entered the club: finding some nice and easy girls who they could have fun with. Pi was more than enthusiastic, Ryo noticed. He was always like that after being dumped: first he cried, then he made fun about it, then wanted to go clubbing to forget everything.
Ryo sighed and followed his friend to the bar counter. Pi order for the both of them.
“You want to start with the strong things.” Ryo said, hearing what Pi had ordered.
“We’re here to get drunk, right? We’d better hurry up and have fun then.”
You have a strange idea of having fun, Ryo would have liked to reply. Instead he just took the drink the barman was handing him and pulled Pi towards the dance floor.
The younger boy soon found what he was looking for: some meters from them, dancing provocatively, there were two foreign girls. Blond, tall, slim, sexy.
“Perfect.” Pi whispered, excitement already perceptible in his deep voice.
Ryo sighed.
They slowly approached the two girls, who looked at them intently, said something in their language and laughed, before the tallest one went near Pi, dancing sexily around him, while the other approached Ryo.
For the next two hours or so they danced, drank, laughed - even though they didn’t really understand each other. Then Ryo noticed Pi and his girl had disappeared. He shook his head, trying to get the images of what they could be doing out of it. His girl was whispering in her language, leaning on him and tracing the muscles of his chest on his shirt with a finger. Ryo took her hand and dragged her to the toilets. He pinned her against the nearest wall and kissed her fiercely. The girl moaned and started moving confusingly, wrapping her legs around his waist. Ryo tried not to feel disgusted.
He would have liked to be overwhelmed by the sensations of the girl's amazing body but he could only think about how much he desired someone else's firm body. He tried to get this thought out of his mind by trusting harder and faster. The girl moaned louder and screamed in pleasure. Her back was still pinned against the wall and it probably hurt but she didn't care. Ryo wanted to tell her to shut up because her voice was just so annoying and clashing. But it wasn’t like he heard it anyway, his head being filled by a much more melodic and much less girlish voice.
When everything was over, the girl let herself fall to the ground, panting but satisfied. Ryo looked at her and almost felt sick. He cleaned himself and left without another word or another glance. As he was walking towards the dance floor a hand grabbed his wrist and Pi smiled at him. His hair was ruffled and his shirt was crumpled.
“I guess we can leave now.” Ryo simply said.
“Yeah, I’m getting bored. Let’s go home and play some games!” Pi exclaimed. He headed for the exit.
Again, Ryo sighed and followed him. He definitely hated clubs. And moreover he hated this side of Pi that so wasn’t like him. He wondered where the cheerful guy from the Junior’s days had gone and why he had gone away.
To Be Continued
Second chapter! Why do I feel like the second part of this is such a fail? =(
Sorry about it! Hope it doesn’t suck too much…
Thanks for all the lovely comments on the previous chapter! ^^