Whirlwind
The days have been filled. Filled with everything that can possibly fill a day.
Jay is over here everyday, or calling me everyday. It's like ..... surreal. He's my best friend. Well, except for Chole and Jen and Gemma and Justin. But he's different. He talks to me, tells me things that he says he doesn't know how to tell other people. He says I'm like ketchup. I make everything better. It's sweet.
Sunday Jay brought me to band practice. Everyone was so nice to me. Gemma came with cause she said she didn't want me to feel alone, and cause she says she likes the bassist, Mason. They were all so funny, and being around them all made me feel so comfortable, like I was with big brothers. I had some mushrooms, which I sold to Bean. bean is the drummer. Andy is the guiatarist. Jay is the lead guitarist and singer. They are so cool. Andy told Gemma, who of course told me, that Jay really likes me. Like, a whole lot. It is scary, because I've never had anything serious with a guy before. I mean, I'm not a virgin, but I've never had ... like ... love-sex. Just sex. Nothing special. I tolsd Jay that; he says that in life there's plenty for time for stuff like sex and money making, but it was important finding that one person that makes you feel like whole. I wanted to tell him that I wanted to know where he'd been all my life, but I didn't. It would have been too direct. Besides, it's not like me.
So Sunday came and went. Monday Jay came by and brought me a present. It was a little choker, of five pink stars, sterling silver. It was so beautiful. He said it reminded him of me, because I was a liek a star in his eyes. For some reason, it was just so sweet and moving, and I started crying. I guess that it was all too much. He was the first guy to be so nice to me, and I jsut couldn't help it. He smiled and hugged me, just held me, said if I wanted to I could talk to him. So I did. I told him all about my life, friends from Cali, everything I could think of, and he just sat and listened. He was always the one who talked, but this time I just sat and talked and talked about how my dad never cared all that much about his strange daughter and how when he died it was the best thing cause I always wanted to come to Boston. Eventually I stopped, and apologized for being so emotional over a necklace. He said that me opening up to him was the best present I could ever give him, because he thought I was one of the nicest girls he had ever met, that I was so exotic and cool and pretty and innocent and strong and then he just kissed me. And I kissed him back. And then he pulled away and said he thought maybe if I wanted to, it was all up to me, if I'd be his girlfriend. He said if it was too soon he'd wait forever for me, because he couldn't think of anyone better. I said yes.
So now it's Wednesday. I have a cold, probably because I'm always outside. I grew up in California, it was always so hot or warm outside. But I love the cold. I really do. It's like a new experience. I came to Boston with one hoodie, my green one. But it's like a fall hoodie. And sometimes I get a little too cold. Last night me and Jay, along with Jen, Gemma, Mason, and Justin, went to the Aquarium. I'd never been there, of course, but I like sea animals, and SeaWorld was always a place that all year I'd wait to go to. My dad would take me once a year, in July. I always liked it. The Aquarium was fun. The huge ank uin the middle of the place was just amazing. Jay said it was the biggest indoor saltwater tank in the country. When we held the starfish, he named one after me. It was a really light red/pink color. Gemma looked at me and smiled, and we went to the little girls room, and she asked me if Jay had asked me out yet. I said yeah, and smiled. She cheered (quite loudly) and gave me the biggest hug and said that Jay was probably the nicest guy she kew and how lucky I was. When we got back Jay had gotten me a little stuffed dolphin. After we left I bought him a Sick Of It All beanie hat. He was amazed I had found one. He said I must be gifted. He had a show at 8, and he said that I could hang out backstage if I wanted to. I said I'd rather mosh around. He said he had a surprise for me. I asked what, and he said I'd have to wait. He wasn't rude about it, just sweet and shy. I wondered. So they get on stage and the first words to pop out of Jay's mouth were "This show is all for the best girl I know. She knows who she is. I just thought I'd let you knwo how special she is." and then they played that song he ahd dedicated to me the other night. Gemma and Jen bothed hugged me, and I started laughing at how great things are turning out. Justin sold me $100 worth fo shrooms, which five minutes later I sold for what they were worth, $150. Justin is a sweetie. =) My friends are sweethearts. I can't believe I could have lived without these guys.
So I'm home, just got out fo work. Jay said he was going to stop by with Mason and Gemma. Turns out he asked out Gems at the show! I'm so happy for her. Jay says Mason is a cool shit. He said he was gonna cook dinner for everyone tonight. I told him my cabinets were pretty bare cause I didn't eat all that much and he just laughed good-naturedly and said he was of course gonna bring over everything he needed. He said his grandma taught him to cook when he was a kid growing up before she died, and he was the only guy in cooking class in high school. He laughed at the memory of it. I asked him if he needed anything, he said just me and the usage of my stove.
I gotta run. I need to get some hoodies, a beanie hat, some socks, and a new mouse for my computer before everyone gets here. =)
<3 Zoe Bean
Jay is over here everyday, or calling me everyday. It's like ..... surreal. He's my best friend. Well, except for Chole and Jen and Gemma and Justin. But he's different. He talks to me, tells me things that he says he doesn't know how to tell other people. He says I'm like ketchup. I make everything better. It's sweet.
Sunday Jay brought me to band practice. Everyone was so nice to me. Gemma came with cause she said she didn't want me to feel alone, and cause she says she likes the bassist, Mason. They were all so funny, and being around them all made me feel so comfortable, like I was with big brothers. I had some mushrooms, which I sold to Bean. bean is the drummer. Andy is the guiatarist. Jay is the lead guitarist and singer. They are so cool. Andy told Gemma, who of course told me, that Jay really likes me. Like, a whole lot. It is scary, because I've never had anything serious with a guy before. I mean, I'm not a virgin, but I've never had ... like ... love-sex. Just sex. Nothing special. I tolsd Jay that; he says that in life there's plenty for time for stuff like sex and money making, but it was important finding that one person that makes you feel like whole. I wanted to tell him that I wanted to know where he'd been all my life, but I didn't. It would have been too direct. Besides, it's not like me.
So Sunday came and went. Monday Jay came by and brought me a present. It was a little choker, of five pink stars, sterling silver. It was so beautiful. He said it reminded him of me, because I was a liek a star in his eyes. For some reason, it was just so sweet and moving, and I started crying. I guess that it was all too much. He was the first guy to be so nice to me, and I jsut couldn't help it. He smiled and hugged me, just held me, said if I wanted to I could talk to him. So I did. I told him all about my life, friends from Cali, everything I could think of, and he just sat and listened. He was always the one who talked, but this time I just sat and talked and talked about how my dad never cared all that much about his strange daughter and how when he died it was the best thing cause I always wanted to come to Boston. Eventually I stopped, and apologized for being so emotional over a necklace. He said that me opening up to him was the best present I could ever give him, because he thought I was one of the nicest girls he had ever met, that I was so exotic and cool and pretty and innocent and strong and then he just kissed me. And I kissed him back. And then he pulled away and said he thought maybe if I wanted to, it was all up to me, if I'd be his girlfriend. He said if it was too soon he'd wait forever for me, because he couldn't think of anyone better. I said yes.
So now it's Wednesday. I have a cold, probably because I'm always outside. I grew up in California, it was always so hot or warm outside. But I love the cold. I really do. It's like a new experience. I came to Boston with one hoodie, my green one. But it's like a fall hoodie. And sometimes I get a little too cold. Last night me and Jay, along with Jen, Gemma, Mason, and Justin, went to the Aquarium. I'd never been there, of course, but I like sea animals, and SeaWorld was always a place that all year I'd wait to go to. My dad would take me once a year, in July. I always liked it. The Aquarium was fun. The huge ank uin the middle of the place was just amazing. Jay said it was the biggest indoor saltwater tank in the country. When we held the starfish, he named one after me. It was a really light red/pink color. Gemma looked at me and smiled, and we went to the little girls room, and she asked me if Jay had asked me out yet. I said yeah, and smiled. She cheered (quite loudly) and gave me the biggest hug and said that Jay was probably the nicest guy she kew and how lucky I was. When we got back Jay had gotten me a little stuffed dolphin. After we left I bought him a Sick Of It All beanie hat. He was amazed I had found one. He said I must be gifted. He had a show at 8, and he said that I could hang out backstage if I wanted to. I said I'd rather mosh around. He said he had a surprise for me. I asked what, and he said I'd have to wait. He wasn't rude about it, just sweet and shy. I wondered. So they get on stage and the first words to pop out of Jay's mouth were "This show is all for the best girl I know. She knows who she is. I just thought I'd let you knwo how special she is." and then they played that song he ahd dedicated to me the other night. Gemma and Jen bothed hugged me, and I started laughing at how great things are turning out. Justin sold me $100 worth fo shrooms, which five minutes later I sold for what they were worth, $150. Justin is a sweetie. =) My friends are sweethearts. I can't believe I could have lived without these guys.
So I'm home, just got out fo work. Jay said he was going to stop by with Mason and Gemma. Turns out he asked out Gems at the show! I'm so happy for her. Jay says Mason is a cool shit. He said he was gonna cook dinner for everyone tonight. I told him my cabinets were pretty bare cause I didn't eat all that much and he just laughed good-naturedly and said he was of course gonna bring over everything he needed. He said his grandma taught him to cook when he was a kid growing up before she died, and he was the only guy in cooking class in high school. He laughed at the memory of it. I asked him if he needed anything, he said just me and the usage of my stove.
I gotta run. I need to get some hoodies, a beanie hat, some socks, and a new mouse for my computer before everyone gets here. =)
<3 Zoe Bean