Feeling Weird...
I don't know why, but all day I've been feeling really anxious, like something is going to happen... something big. I've also got a splitting headache after sucsessfully slamming my head into a really thick wood chair this morning at about 4:45am. It was a pretty rough night, I was up until almost 1am with this same anxious feeling. Well, I think I've figgered out this horrible feeling I've had all last night and today:
I hate myself. I hate the person I am. I hate the way I act towards people, I've been pushing them away lately. The fact that I procrastinate, my grades slipping, I'm making excuses to reassure myself when I know I'm just lying. That's it, that's all. I wish I could change, but it's not easy.
Sorry everyone. Sorry for being the way I am. =(
I hate myself. I hate the person I am. I hate the way I act towards people, I've been pushing them away lately. The fact that I procrastinate, my grades slipping, I'm making excuses to reassure myself when I know I'm just lying. That's it, that's all. I wish I could change, but it's not easy.
Sorry everyone. Sorry for being the way I am. =(