Love and Loyalty, A tale of friendship.
Paws here,
Its been forever since I've updated. Been thru one hell of a rollercoaster ride and then some and I'm not even at the loops that make you want to throw up yet. Mike has been admitted in the hospital again, and also his mother died which complicates things. His cancer is getting worse and his oxygen levels are depleating each day... so its not looking too good.
On a personal front... My boyfriend and I broke up tonight. It was actually coming on for quite sometime now. I wasnt spending enough time with him because most of my time was consumed with taking care of Mike. He was always feeling that I put him second and I didnt care about him... I suppose if I look at it from that point of view I could understand however I have a different take on it I suppose.
Am I wrong? Mike and I have been thru alot, even though we broke up sometime ago, we've remained extremly close friends. He's been along with some of my breakups, and I've been thru some of his. Health wise we've looked out for eachother from time to time, keeping seperate lives, until he was diagonised with terminal lung cancer. All of his "friends" didnt come around, I was the only one and I could have just left, however I choose to stay. It put a great deal of hardship trying to see the BF, however I felt I was doing the right thing. I have some doubts, but after thinking long and hard... I wouldnt change a thing.
I've seen far too often the popular guy at the bar ends up alone when push comes to shove... where are his friends? They are quick to be around when the booze and drugs are flowing, however when the party stops and reality hits they scatter like cockroaches.
I've put my life on hold to see Mike thru to the end. As I would any of my friends who I'm extremly close with. Those who know me... know that I'd give my life for my friends. I cannot be forced to choose between anyone. And I cannot force them to understand my point of view no matter how hard I try. *sigh*
Is this blind loyalty? Probably.
Is this Love? Yes, in a way.
My head hurts...
T.
Its been forever since I've updated. Been thru one hell of a rollercoaster ride and then some and I'm not even at the loops that make you want to throw up yet. Mike has been admitted in the hospital again, and also his mother died which complicates things. His cancer is getting worse and his oxygen levels are depleating each day... so its not looking too good.
On a personal front... My boyfriend and I broke up tonight. It was actually coming on for quite sometime now. I wasnt spending enough time with him because most of my time was consumed with taking care of Mike. He was always feeling that I put him second and I didnt care about him... I suppose if I look at it from that point of view I could understand however I have a different take on it I suppose.
Am I wrong? Mike and I have been thru alot, even though we broke up sometime ago, we've remained extremly close friends. He's been along with some of my breakups, and I've been thru some of his. Health wise we've looked out for eachother from time to time, keeping seperate lives, until he was diagonised with terminal lung cancer. All of his "friends" didnt come around, I was the only one and I could have just left, however I choose to stay. It put a great deal of hardship trying to see the BF, however I felt I was doing the right thing. I have some doubts, but after thinking long and hard... I wouldnt change a thing.
I've seen far too often the popular guy at the bar ends up alone when push comes to shove... where are his friends? They are quick to be around when the booze and drugs are flowing, however when the party stops and reality hits they scatter like cockroaches.
I've put my life on hold to see Mike thru to the end. As I would any of my friends who I'm extremly close with. Those who know me... know that I'd give my life for my friends. I cannot be forced to choose between anyone. And I cannot force them to understand my point of view no matter how hard I try. *sigh*
Is this blind loyalty? Probably.
Is this Love? Yes, in a way.
My head hurts...
T.