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Right now I'm sitting here passing time in front of the computer. I should be sleeping. But I can't seem to bring myself to end the day. The night also a calming silence. After everyone has gone to bed and I can feel alone. I kind of wish I could stay here at this moment, the time between the end of a day and the beginning of another. Going to sleep is taking a step into the future, when I wake up it will be tomorrow. I'm not sure what exactly about the future I am afraid of. I think it's because the future is too hyped up. People have been telling me that the future has great things. I've put a lot time and energy for the sake of the future. But what if when I get there it falls short of my expectations. What if everything I've worked for was done in vain. This fear also robs me of sleep. I haven't been able to get a good night's sleep in a while. I've had nightmares everyday of this week.
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