why have you forsaken her?
I am NEVER up this early after I worked late...Never.
but today I was woken by my father telling me that my mother was unresponsive....what?!
Her speech was slurred and she could only look to the left of her. She was trying to talk to me, but I couldn't understand a thing (which, of course, in turn made me upset).
Dad had to call the ambulance because we couldn't move her ourselves....
they thought she had a stroke....thank god it wasn't that....
apparently these were the same conditions that she had 3 years ago while I was at school.
Then I wasn't so upset b/c I thought "hey, she's going to the hospital again....woot", but now since I saw first hand EXACTLY what happened.....I can't believe it....
This is all such fucking bull. Her doctor KNOWS she has kidney disease (she can only use 40% of them now) and YET, still hasn't taken out that FUCKING STENT that they put in her kidney. Her doctor is a low bearing, fucked up twat who doesn't know what the fuck she's doing. I went to Portland with my mother so she could get it out...but noooooooOOOOOOOOOOooooo, Cunt-bag-and-a -quarter said that she wanted to wait until next tuesday (technically this tuesday coming up) to see "what would happen"....congrats you mother fucker...this is what fucking happened...
You know, some people ask the ever so popular "why me?" question: "why is this happening to me?" "why is he/she doing this to me?" blah blah blah...well MY question is "why is this happening to MY parents?" What have they ever done? They are the most perfect parents anyone can ask for....scratch that...they are THE perfect parents PERIOD! They have never...NEVER been cruel, they have always been loving and supportive. Hell, they barely punished us when we were kids (we have never been spanked or anything like that). My parents actually talked up through the many things in life, the changes that we will experience, how other people in this world SUCK and picking those who you can trust. My parents are encouraging, thoughtful, protective, beautiful, wonderful, and any other positive adjective that you can find in a dictionary. If they are all these things...then why are THEY being punished? Why is my mother like this and not healthy? Why is my dad on such a financial crunch when he deserves everything in the world? WHy is this happening to the two most wonderful people on this god-forsaken planet? There are plenty of horrible parents out there who DESERVE this type of punishment: who deserve to be sick, who deserve to be on the bottom of the economic totem pole, who DESERVE to have a terrible existence....why mine? Is this god's idea of a fucking sick joke?!?! Does that......THING up there believe that this is funny?!? Does that thing up there LIKE to watch good people suffer while bad people thrive?!?!?! I AM DONE! THIS IS IT! I HAVE HAD ENOUGH! I wish that every parent who neglected, beaten, basically DESTROYED their children dies! I don't care if that sounds fucking harsh...it's true!!! They all should perish! They are horrible people that have no place on this planet. But this is Earth, there are bad people all around...those who hurt others in the name of culture, religion, hierarchy, disability, race, and so on.
I am sick and tired of everything....I just want my mother to be better that's all.
I will gladly give up one of my healthy kidneys to her if that meant she gets better.
I think I will get my blood tested on tuesday and see if I match with her.
Then I am going to bring up the idea to my parents.
Even if they say no, I am an adult and I can say yes.
I don't care
I just......don't..........
but today I was woken by my father telling me that my mother was unresponsive....what?!
Her speech was slurred and she could only look to the left of her. She was trying to talk to me, but I couldn't understand a thing (which, of course, in turn made me upset).
Dad had to call the ambulance because we couldn't move her ourselves....
they thought she had a stroke....thank god it wasn't that....
apparently these were the same conditions that she had 3 years ago while I was at school.
Then I wasn't so upset b/c I thought "hey, she's going to the hospital again....woot", but now since I saw first hand EXACTLY what happened.....I can't believe it....
This is all such fucking bull. Her doctor KNOWS she has kidney disease (she can only use 40% of them now) and YET, still hasn't taken out that FUCKING STENT that they put in her kidney. Her doctor is a low bearing, fucked up twat who doesn't know what the fuck she's doing. I went to Portland with my mother so she could get it out...but noooooooOOOOOOOOOOooooo, Cunt-bag-and-a -quarter said that she wanted to wait until next tuesday (technically this tuesday coming up) to see "what would happen"....congrats you mother fucker...this is what fucking happened...
You know, some people ask the ever so popular "why me?" question: "why is this happening to me?" "why is he/she doing this to me?" blah blah blah...well MY question is "why is this happening to MY parents?" What have they ever done? They are the most perfect parents anyone can ask for....scratch that...they are THE perfect parents PERIOD! They have never...NEVER been cruel, they have always been loving and supportive. Hell, they barely punished us when we were kids (we have never been spanked or anything like that). My parents actually talked up through the many things in life, the changes that we will experience, how other people in this world SUCK and picking those who you can trust. My parents are encouraging, thoughtful, protective, beautiful, wonderful, and any other positive adjective that you can find in a dictionary. If they are all these things...then why are THEY being punished? Why is my mother like this and not healthy? Why is my dad on such a financial crunch when he deserves everything in the world? WHy is this happening to the two most wonderful people on this god-forsaken planet? There are plenty of horrible parents out there who DESERVE this type of punishment: who deserve to be sick, who deserve to be on the bottom of the economic totem pole, who DESERVE to have a terrible existence....why mine? Is this god's idea of a fucking sick joke?!?! Does that......THING up there believe that this is funny?!? Does that thing up there LIKE to watch good people suffer while bad people thrive?!?!?! I AM DONE! THIS IS IT! I HAVE HAD ENOUGH! I wish that every parent who neglected, beaten, basically DESTROYED their children dies! I don't care if that sounds fucking harsh...it's true!!! They all should perish! They are horrible people that have no place on this planet. But this is Earth, there are bad people all around...those who hurt others in the name of culture, religion, hierarchy, disability, race, and so on.
I am sick and tired of everything....I just want my mother to be better that's all.
I will gladly give up one of my healthy kidneys to her if that meant she gets better.
I think I will get my blood tested on tuesday and see if I match with her.
Then I am going to bring up the idea to my parents.
Even if they say no, I am an adult and I can say yes.
I don't care
I just......don't..........