only you
ONLY YOU
Pairing : Haehyuk
Summary: … not so sure how to write it
Genre: fluff
Disclamer: I wish I own them both.
Warning: lots of mistakes due to lack of writing abilities. kekeke..sorry. Hope you guys can understand my fic.
HYUKJAE POV
It’s been few days since our manager break the news about Kibum will be joining us again. It was hot topic in news, magazines and on the internet. Somehow I don’t feel as excited as everybody else. The news keeps on bugging me. The happiness from fans keeps me worried. A lot of “what if” questions run through my mind.
I woke up due to the loud noises coming from the dorm. I bet it was from the kitchen. Since it is still early in the morning I know all the members all together in the kitchen having breakfast. I look to my left side but I don’t see your sleeping figure there. Then I look at the bathroom and the light is off so it means that you are not in there too. “Hae.” I called but no reply. I can’t help but to feel kinda sad. You are always beside me every time I wake up. Without you here, I feel kinda lonely and cold.
I try to brush those feelings away. Lazily I get up from my bed and head to the bathroom to wash up and getting ready for my schedule. I let a sigh before stepping out of my room. I drag my feet to the kitchen joining the others. Once I was there, I scan through all the faces and my eyes fix on the one that I was looking for. He was there laughing, smiling and talking to somebody. I take a glance at that somebody and my heart hurt. It is none other than Kibum.
I keep my silence. I have to admit I feel insecure whenever he’s around. And the fact that Donghae didn’t notice my presence in the kitchen hurt me more. He always looks at my direction even before I arrive and gave me a sweet smile. But why didn’t he do it today? Why wasn’t he beside me when I wake up? Again I let out a sigh. Sungmin notice me standing there and call out my name. “Hyuk, you’re awake. Come. Let’s have breakfast. It’s your favourite.” I smile at him and choose to sit next to him. “Are you okay?” he asks. I just nodded and look at Donghae.
He’s frowning. I know why. I always sit next to him. But I chose not to today because I’m upset and the insecurity in me just kicked in. I tore my gaze away and talk to Sung min. Luckily today is going to be a busy day for me. My schedule is pack. I will only be home at midnight. At least I can clear my mind. “Come, hyuk. It’s time to go” Leeteuk said. I nooded and headed to the door. A hand holds my wrist and makes me turn around. It was Donghae’s. He’s pouting. “Where’s my good morning and good bye kiss?” he asks. I smile at him. Well, not really a smile. I kiss him on his cheeks and he pouts more. “Not there.” He whined. “I’m late” I said and ruffled his hair.
Things don’t go as I wish it has. During the talk show and variety show I go people keep asking me the same question over and over again. How does it feel to have Kibum back on the team? And the reply is always the same too. He’s always in the team. There is no term ‘having him back’ because he never leaves.
I try my hardest to keep my smiling face, hiding the pain building in my chest. I was lucky because I have Shindong hyung and Leeteuk hyung with me. I know they already know something is not right. But they just let me be. Taking my time until I am ready to talk to them about it. I came to my last program for the day which is Sukira with Leeteuk hyung.
And again today is indeed the worst day in my life. During the 2 hours sessions, a lot of messages that came, talking about how excited the fans are about Kibum’s participation in the next album. I palmed my face, trying very hard not to cry. Leeteuk hyung tapped me in the shoulder. “Are you okay, kiddo?” he asks. I shake my head. I really need to let it out of my chest. “If I were you I won’t be worry that much. We all know how much Hae loves you. Don’t you believe him?” he asks again. “I don’t know.” I answer him. “Don’t worry. They are just bestfriend. And you are his lover. Don’t think too much.” I just smile at him. I know about that fact but I can’t help to be very insecure. It’s not that I don’t trust him but is just me being me.
At last the session is over and we are heading home. I didn’t expect him to be in my room. He must be in Kibum’s room. I wish I don’t have to be home right now. I drag my feet to the dorm. Again Leeteuk hyung ruffles my hair, telling me that I don’t have to be worry.
I am exhausted. I walk to my room and peek inside. I am right. Donghae is nowhere to be seen. I settle myself on the bed and let my tears flow. I don’t know how long did I cried because my eyes hurt. I take a deep breath and convince myself. “Donghae belong to me since he’s my lover. There’s no way he will fall for Kibum.” I get up from the bed and go in the bathroom, taking my shower and getting ready to sleep.
I look at my reflection in the mirror. My eyes still have the evidence of me crying. I turn the door knob and was shock when I see Donghae is standing in front of me. “Hey.” He said and hugs me. I hug him back and start to cry again. I really miss his warm body around me. “Shh.. What’s going on? Did something happen?” he asks. When his question is not answered he pull away from the hug and look at me.
Then, he takes me to the bed and told me to sit. He cares my cheeks to wipe the tears away. “Baby, what’s wrong?” he asks again. I still had my head down but the tears didn’t stop running down my face. He cupped my face and makes me look at him. “Did I do something wrong?” there’s concern in his voice and it make me cry more. “I..I..I m-misss y-you” I said. He smile and kiss my tears away. “I miss you too. Don’t cry baby. I’m here.” He said and hugs me again. “Y-you were n-not th-there when I w-woke up. Y-you d-din’t notice me a-at the d-dining table. A-andd y-you are n-not here w-when i-I g-got home.” I told him sobbing.
He chuckles and hugs me tight. “I’m sorry. I really am sorry.” He said and kiss my neck. He push me lightly and make me lie on my back and he get on top of me. “Are you telling me you are jealous of Kibum?” he said. I can tell I am blushing coz I feel warm on my cheek. “You don’t have to be.” He said. He takes my hand and put it on his chest. “Listen. I want you to feel this. This heart beat is only for you. My love is only for you. Trust me. I’m sorry for not being here today. I don’t mean to make you cry.” He said and kisses me full on the lips. His kiss is always sweet and passionate. I stopped crying immediately. I locked my hand around his neck wanting to feel more. We pull away due to the lack of oxygen. He’s smiling and I am blushing. He drop kisses on my face and says I Love you between the kisses. I feel I am in heaven in this very moment.
“I’m sorry” I said to him. “Don’t be. I love you.” He said and kisses me again. He holds me close and hummed a lullaby until I fall asleep. “I love you, Hae. With all my heart.” I manage to say before I drove to dreamland. “Good night, love. Dream of me” He says and we both fall asleep with a smile plastered on our face.
Hello guys. I just want to post my new oneshot fic. I hope you like it. sorry if you find it lame.
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