because hils forced me too
Ok, heres that update i promised.
I got back from my trip last week.
The train ride i enjoyed, even though i got about 3 hours sleep during the 15 hours train ride, but taht was self inflicted i guess. I spent the entire time eating my snack cache and reading my books, i finished one, and started and finished another one, just chewed through them.
I wasnt feeling happy, in fact i was feeling miserable. I felt so irritated by me and Morgan being forced to go through each time we separated at the end of each holiday. It tests ones relationship, but its a huge strain really, and i dont want it to break it. I dont think it will, but it would be so much easier if things were different.
I went over things when i was waiting for the bus and train back to my region of the central coast, and on them. I went through all the things i could do to alleviate the situation, unfortunately, short of morgan coming here, which i doubt would happen, or something i dont consider really i should say, that means i would have to go to melbourne.
several obstacles there, not the least of my financial status, accomodation, uni course. im settled in here, and i have friends, and access to a geek culture like ive never dreamed of, not too much consolation really, but i would miss them if i moved.
It would be worth it of course, all it takes is money, which of course i dont have in copious amounts.
Thats all just things i went through though, and nothing i can do about til the end of the year, ill keep ideas open though, because i do not want to have to keep doing this beyond this year, its too painful. But if i have to, i will, there is no doubt in my heart about that.
After settling back in, and coping with my misery by submerging myself into the virtual world, escapism helps sometimes, i felt a little better. After seeing my friends and going out friday night and meeting all my other friends and having a great time wtih them, i feel alot better.
I still miss you Morgan, and while i am away from you i will keep doing so. I miss that little face you make when you love music, and start "rocking out". I miss you singing, playing the guitar. I miss your insane family heh, and your sexy ass dad ahahahaha.
Now, as for uni, im getting back into it now, and thank fuck, no more maths for me! ahahahahahaha suck that cockfuckers! (<-- to lecturers)
eh, my other courses seem ok, computer engineering is going to be a bitch, but its ok.
ahahahahaha no maths
I had a good night friday night, no drinking, but hey, i drive, just pure g33kage as usual, and i stuffed my face with pizza, ooo it was fun.
weekend has been 2 days of nothing but play, because you nkow, ive gotten back into EVE now muahahahaha.
anyway, laters all, sleep well, virtual hugs for Morgan and the girls over in far Perth
The Jester
I got back from my trip last week.
The train ride i enjoyed, even though i got about 3 hours sleep during the 15 hours train ride, but taht was self inflicted i guess. I spent the entire time eating my snack cache and reading my books, i finished one, and started and finished another one, just chewed through them.
I wasnt feeling happy, in fact i was feeling miserable. I felt so irritated by me and Morgan being forced to go through each time we separated at the end of each holiday. It tests ones relationship, but its a huge strain really, and i dont want it to break it. I dont think it will, but it would be so much easier if things were different.
I went over things when i was waiting for the bus and train back to my region of the central coast, and on them. I went through all the things i could do to alleviate the situation, unfortunately, short of morgan coming here, which i doubt would happen, or something i dont consider really i should say, that means i would have to go to melbourne.
several obstacles there, not the least of my financial status, accomodation, uni course. im settled in here, and i have friends, and access to a geek culture like ive never dreamed of, not too much consolation really, but i would miss them if i moved.
It would be worth it of course, all it takes is money, which of course i dont have in copious amounts.
Thats all just things i went through though, and nothing i can do about til the end of the year, ill keep ideas open though, because i do not want to have to keep doing this beyond this year, its too painful. But if i have to, i will, there is no doubt in my heart about that.
After settling back in, and coping with my misery by submerging myself into the virtual world, escapism helps sometimes, i felt a little better. After seeing my friends and going out friday night and meeting all my other friends and having a great time wtih them, i feel alot better.
I still miss you Morgan, and while i am away from you i will keep doing so. I miss that little face you make when you love music, and start "rocking out". I miss you singing, playing the guitar. I miss your insane family heh, and your sexy ass dad ahahahaha.
Now, as for uni, im getting back into it now, and thank fuck, no more maths for me! ahahahahahaha suck that cockfuckers! (<-- to lecturers)
eh, my other courses seem ok, computer engineering is going to be a bitch, but its ok.
ahahahahaha no maths
I had a good night friday night, no drinking, but hey, i drive, just pure g33kage as usual, and i stuffed my face with pizza, ooo it was fun.
weekend has been 2 days of nothing but play, because you nkow, ive gotten back into EVE now muahahahaha.
anyway, laters all, sleep well, virtual hugs for Morgan and the girls over in far Perth
The Jester