Secret (KaixRuki) Oneshot
Title: Secret
Chapter: 1/1
Author: kuki_panda
Genre: Fluffiness...
Warnings: ManxMan, sexual scenes.
Rating: PG-13 - NC-17
Pairings: KaixRuki
Band: The Gazette
Disclaimer: I wish I could own them, especially Aoi, but sadly I don't.
Summary: Kai is a staff member of Ruki's band, but he is assigned to 'baby-sit' Ruki. After 2 1/2 years Kai gets fired, but feels so guitly and he starts drinking his life away. Can anyone save Kai? What will happen to Kai?
Comments: I find it rather simple... idk...
Being a staff member of a famous band isn’t easy, especially when you’re assigned to take care of one of those members. Taking care of a person that doesn’t want to be taken care of. Taking care of the ‘face’ of the band, taking care of the vocalist isn’t an easy task. He doesn’t take care of himself during tours, he smokes, he drinks and passes out. I always have to come in to take him to the hotel room. I sit and stay by his side with aspirin and water or with a bucket just in case he gets sick. Then he wakes up and doesn’t even say thank you. I know I’m getting paid to do this, but I would like a ‘thanks’ at least once from his mouth. On my days off, I just drink and drink alone, because of my job, I am a lonely soul. It gets cold during those tourless winter, long nights. The only thing I have to warm me up are my clothes, blankets and this burning desire to love.
On a cloudy Sunday morning a staff only meeting was held. I was surprised, because it was sudden. The reason of the meeting were cuts, some staff members were being let go and in that batch was my name. I didn’t know what to think. Was I happy or was I sad? Leaving Ruki to defend by himself wasn’t safe, I guess I had to tell him face to face he had to take care of himself now. When I went to tell him, he wasn’t drunk, very strange of him. I felt like I was breaking up.
“Ruki… I was let go.” I looked at the smaller being, “Please promise you’ll take care of yourself!”
He stood in front of the mirror, “It’s been great knowing you… You actually saved my butt more times than I can remember. It’s been, what 2 ½ years? Thanks for everything… Kai…” He never glanced at me.
What was this sudden feeling? I heard ‘Thanks’ and ‘Kai’ from his mouth. Somehow, I now felt sorry for Ruki, but he wasn’t a little kid, he had to mature and take care of himself. I had to leave, I couldn’t see him anymore. This was hurting me? Why was it hurting me? He remembered I started to baby-sit him 2 ½ years ago. The smile was accompanied by tears. My heart began to beat in sadness. Why? Was I around him for so long I began to like him? The desire to be with someone drove me to like him. He’s not a bad person, but he’s not the right person.
Days passed and I didn’t feel like looking for a job, I just wanted to relax and enjoy the loneliness that was eating me. Those days turned into weeks and those weeks into three months. I was as lazy as I could be. The TV. was always on the music channel and out of the blue on this day Ruki’s band was on. Ruki looked so much better, so handsome, so sexy. He was very talkative and happy. I began to drown my sorrows in alcohol. Was he doing better without me? Was I the bad influence? No wonder I was let go. After the show, I got a unknown number call, when I answered they hung up.
Three more weeks passed right before my eyes and I was up to my nose in alcohol. Why was I like this? Ever since I was let go and Ruki thanked me, I’ve been a wreck. I remembered the staff would get special presents from the company like CD’s, DVD’s, posters and that kind of stuff. I watched the DVD’s back to back. I watched how perverted that Ruki was. I watched how turned on I got, perhaps it was gallons of alcohol in my body, perhaps I had no control over my body, perhaps I just needed something to get rid of this need. I hand just sat there, then slowly began to move. It’s something I need, it’s not good to neglect it. As soon as my hand went inside and it took control of my out of control jewel. I began to get excited and as soon as I was getting to the point of no return, the door bell rang.
I fell to the floor with my jewel in hand and my real head ringing. I crawled all the way to the door, unlocked and opened the door. I never saw who it was, I just crawled back to the sofa and grabbed the almost empty bottle of sake. The person closed the door and walked up to the sofa and sat down.
“Hmm… You need to be taken cared of.”
“I don’t… ne…ed any…one!”
“You’ve been watching the bands DVD’s, Why?”
“I… missss that.”
“Why? You only took care of a good for nothing fool.”
“So?”
“What do you mean so? That guy didn’t appreciate you, he didn’t respect you.”
I never saw the persons face until then, “Uruha?”
“You’re worse than Ruki! Look at yourself, you’re a mess.”
“So?”
“Look Kai. I was fired too, but I’m not suffering because I don’t have Aoi to boss me around. I’m glad I was fired. I only worked 6 months with him, but that guy is weird.”
“Uruha, it was… 2 ½ years…”
“You like him or something?”
“I don’t know… may…be…”
“Kai… I have a confession to make.”
“I’m not a… priest!”
“Not that kind of confession, drunk dummy. Aoi called me and asked me if I wanted to work again… I said yes…”
“Good for you!”
“I’ve been with them for a week and the guys have changed and Aoi too.”
“So?”
“Are you going to continue with the so?”
“Yeah!”
“They want the cheery, dimple, silly, loveable, laughing chef back.”
“No!”
“Why not?”
“I don’t want to see him again.”
“Why not?”
“Like you said that guy didn’t… appreciate me, he didn’t respect… me…”
“You do have feeling for him.”
“No…”
“That ‘No’ sounds like a ‘Yes’. I’m going to leave you, so you can decide when you aren’t drunk. Call me.”
“Eh…”
The door closed and all the alcohol bottles were empty. They changed? Aoi changed? Did Ruki change? I didn’t have the energy to get up, so I crawled into the kitchen to get another bottle of sake. There was something interrupting my way to the refrigerator. When I looked up, there was a man at my stove, cooking something… Was I hallucinating things now? This was Fucked! I tried to get through to the refrigerator, but that man didn’t let me pass.
The man got down to my level and grabbed my face, not before he poured something into something “You really need to be taken care of… Kai.”
“Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh! Ruki!” I fell back, “Wh… what are you doing here?!” I suddenly felt sober.
He just smiled, “I used Uruha as bait to get in.”
“Why didn’t you just…” I was still on my back, dumbfounded.
“I wanted to hear from your mouth… something.”
“Eh?” Ruki got closer to me, then I remembered what I was doing before they came, “Fuck!” I quickly got up and tried to go to the bathroom, but Ruki stopped me. My embarrassment was obvious.
Ruki teasingly asked, “What were you doing?” As he got closer to my body.
“Not…ing, Nothing! I was doing nothing!”
“Are you sure? Because this!” He grabbed my jewel, which made me jump, “This is going to be some trouble and I think I heard enough to know what I’m going to do.”
“Wh… What are going to do?”
“My secret, shhhh!”
“Eeeeeeeh!”
“I’m only kidding, Kai. You’re drunk so I won’t do anything until you are sober.”
“Eeeeeeeeeeeeh!”
“Sit, have some coffee so you can sober up.” He sat at the kitchen table.
I calmly sat down in front of him and drank the coffee he made, “You know how to make coffee?”
“Since you been gone, I’ve changed. I had to learn how to do a lot of things alone.”
“Hm!”
“Kai…” He gently touched my hand, “Please tell me you have done other things than getting drunk…”
I looked away and grabbed the cup of coffee, “Sure…”
“You are a horrible liar!” He tighten his grip on my hand. “You’ve been strongly missed, by everyone and especially…”
I saw his adorable blushing cheeks and innocent expression, “Who?”
He retracted his hand from mine and began to play with a napkin on the table. “Me…”
That was shocking, “Me? What did you miss? Being pampered, being taken cared off, being spoiled, not respecting me, not appreciating me…”
Then I saw a tear run down Ruki’s sweet, reddish cheek, “I’m sorry…” Was said in such a soft voice.
I took a deep breathe and shook my head. I never saw Ruki so vulnerable, not even when he was drunk and acting like a baby. “Look, Ruki… I know you have changed. I know you have matured, but why are you here? I’m not the person who should be helping you. I’ll only spoiled you and it was for the better when I was let go.”
“That’s the problem.”
“What?”
“You spoiled me and I never appreciated you and when you left I felt hopeless. Then I heard the other staff members talking about how selfish I was with you and they were glad I was left to take care of myself. That’s when I decided to defend myself. I’m learning how to cook, I do the laundry and stuff. A week ago I heard the same staff members talking, they said I’ve changed for the better and it was a good decision to let you go. I thought to myself, ‘It’s not fair Kai was always teaching me to do this stuff, but I never listened to him. I only watched his ass when he was cooking or cleaning.’ You really taught me how to do this things, but I never put them to practice, until now. I’m sorry if I treated you wrongly. I really do miss you. I miss those lectures you gave me when I was half pass drunk. You might have only gotten in a word or two, but I loved that attitude of yours.”
This was a startling revelation. I was left speechless.
“Kai, I want to ask you something.”
Was he going to ask what I think he’s going to ask?
“Kai…”
“Yeah…”
“Do you play the drum?”
“Eh?!”
“Do you know how to play the drums?”
“Yeah, but why are you asking me this?”
“The drummer left and I want to be close to you. So, do you want to be the drummer?”
“Wait! Why do you want to be close to me?”
“I can’t say…”
“Ruki!”
“I love that firm voice.” He giggled.
“Ruki!”
“I just want to be close to you. You’re special.”
“Hm?”
“What?”
“Ruki… I’ve known you for 2 ½ years. I could be your mother, even though that might be very strange. You could have completely changed, but I know when your hiding something. Remember when you broke the TV. at the hotel and you didn’t want to tell me and you did everything possible so I wouldn‘t find out, until the guilt fell over you and you told me. Hm!”
He took a deep breathe, “I like you!”
“Whoa!” I got up and went to the coffee pot and drank what was left. “Ok, Can you repeat what you said, I think I misunderstood…”
“I like you, Kai.”
“As a friend and maybe a future band mate?”
“No…”
“Then?” My eye brows were scrunched together, standing by the stove.
“When I first meet you, you were so innocent and loveable, so sweet and cuddle able. You were so different, so unique, so cute, so original, I instantly fell for you. I showed my emotions being rough and I’m sorry. I was wrong. When you came up to me to say your good-byes, I couldn’t look at you, it was too painful. You out of all the people know, I wasn’t with anyone and it was because of you.”
I walked behind him and grabbed his shoulders. “Are you sick? Did someone pay you?”
He got up, “NO! I LIKE YOU! I WANT YOU! I NEED YOU!”
I just lifted one eye brow.
“I WOULD GIVE UP THE BAND FOR YOU!”
Somehow I was turned on and I began to blush.
He got closer to me, “Do you like me? You told Uruha something, but it wasn’t clear. Do you want me?”
“Why is Uruha back as a staff member?”
“You’re changing the subject! Uruha is the 2nd guitarist now.”
“Wow! Really? That’s awesome!” I was changing the subject.
“Ka…”
I returned to the subject to clear up anything and everything he wanted to know, with a kiss. He wrapped his arms around my neck, I around his smaller frame. He then wrapped his legs around my torso and I held his nice firm behind, we didn’t lose a single beat from the kiss. Never would I have thought this would be happening. I carried him up to the kitchen counter and began to take of his shirt. He suddenly stopped me.
In a timid voice he said, “Kai… you know more than anyone else… you know, I don’t like…”
I gently touched his cheek, “You can leave it on if you like.” The shirt was left on. Ruki was ashamed to show his chest to anyone, but he wasn’t ashamed of showing his throbbing jewel when he took off his pants and boxers.
How can something like that, be so excited for me? I began to kiss his neck. I went up to his nipples and began to pinch them with the shirt still being on. Ruki then stopped me and began to take off his shirt, I stopped him, “You don’t have to.”
“I want to.” He took off the shirt to reveal his almost silky, pale perfect chest.
“I don’t understand why you didn’t want to show your chest… it’s perfect!”
“It’s not like your or the other guys…”
I placed my forehead against his, “You don’t have to be ashamed about not having a six-pack or abs. You look great the way you are. This is you and you should be happy you are healthy and are here. You are a beautiful person outside and inside.”
“Inside?”
“Yes! Those lyrics you write, shows your hurt, your love, your soul, your heart, everything you are. It shows you are a sweet, caring, lovable human being.”
“Kai…”
“I mean it. How couldn’t anyone see your true self, when you were all pissy? I just don’t know how someone so pure like you, like me.”
“I’m not pure… You’re the pure one. Your innocent smile captivated me, your lectures aggravated me, your cooking warmed me, you took over me. No one has done that to me. Kai, you are special. I just hope you can love me as I love you.”
“Don’t hope!”
“What?!”
“It’s a reality, I do love you.”
His naked body fell on top of me for an embrace. I carried him to my bed to finish what was started. I was fully clothed and he was fully naked. Somehow he ripped my shirt open and threw me on the bed. This was new! Then he forcefully took off my pants with boxers and began to attack my jewel. Did I want this? Before Uruha came to my apartment I was taking care of business and I was imaging Ruki. I was longing for this moment. The roughness was incredible. How can I describe the feeling of having a small pervert that pleases himself on stage?
In a moments notice he was on top of me, about to take it all in. He looked at me and sat on it. Damn he was tight! It took a few minutes for each of us to get comfortable with each other. When he was ready, he began a steady slow movement of up and down, then he picked up the pace. My bed wasn’t the newest thing on the market, so it began to make this ‘creaking’ sound, the faster he went, the louder it got.
A few hours in and somehow we got back to the kitchen. We were covered with chocolate syrup, frosting and cherries. I was going to bake a cake, but half of the ingredients were gone. Licking cleaning every part of Ruki was exciting since I found ticklish spots on his body. Each time I would pass my tongue by his inner thigh he would giggle and moan, a strange combination, but it was so Ruki. We were so into each other until the door bell rang.
“Kai!”
“Fuck! Who can it be?” I got up slowly, without making any sound and went up to the peep hole. I mouthed to Ruki, “It’s Uruha and Aoi.”
Ruki went quickly to get his clothes, I went behind him to my room. He was about to put on his clothes when I stopped him. “You are not going out looking and smelling like this!”
“What do I smell like?”
I went up to his neck and sniffed him. “You smell like sex, sweat and chocolate.”
“Don’t you smell the same?”
I laughed, “Yeah.”
“I love your smile with that cute dimple of yours.”
“Thanks and I love you. Lets go take a shower together.”
I will not say if we kept doing it or we finally answered the door. Let just say, I had a secret crush on Ruki and he had a secret crush on me and now we are in love, but we only know it. It our beautiful secret. I did join the band and we became very successful. To make fan girls happy, Ruki still touches himself and does fan services… Which I don’t like, but I get the best part of the deal. I get to go home with him and we do naughty things to each other. After all life is good!
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A/N: This was my first KaixRuki fic. I never thought about using Kai. I'm starting to see a pattern in my fics. *-*
Chapter: 1/1
Author: kuki_panda
Genre: Fluffiness...
Warnings: ManxMan, sexual scenes.
Rating: PG-13 - NC-17
Pairings: KaixRuki
Band: The Gazette
Disclaimer: I wish I could own them, especially Aoi, but sadly I don't.
Summary: Kai is a staff member of Ruki's band, but he is assigned to 'baby-sit' Ruki. After 2 1/2 years Kai gets fired, but feels so guitly and he starts drinking his life away. Can anyone save Kai? What will happen to Kai?
Comments: I find it rather simple... idk...
Being a staff member of a famous band isn’t easy, especially when you’re assigned to take care of one of those members. Taking care of a person that doesn’t want to be taken care of. Taking care of the ‘face’ of the band, taking care of the vocalist isn’t an easy task. He doesn’t take care of himself during tours, he smokes, he drinks and passes out. I always have to come in to take him to the hotel room. I sit and stay by his side with aspirin and water or with a bucket just in case he gets sick. Then he wakes up and doesn’t even say thank you. I know I’m getting paid to do this, but I would like a ‘thanks’ at least once from his mouth. On my days off, I just drink and drink alone, because of my job, I am a lonely soul. It gets cold during those tourless winter, long nights. The only thing I have to warm me up are my clothes, blankets and this burning desire to love.
On a cloudy Sunday morning a staff only meeting was held. I was surprised, because it was sudden. The reason of the meeting were cuts, some staff members were being let go and in that batch was my name. I didn’t know what to think. Was I happy or was I sad? Leaving Ruki to defend by himself wasn’t safe, I guess I had to tell him face to face he had to take care of himself now. When I went to tell him, he wasn’t drunk, very strange of him. I felt like I was breaking up.
“Ruki… I was let go.” I looked at the smaller being, “Please promise you’ll take care of yourself!”
He stood in front of the mirror, “It’s been great knowing you… You actually saved my butt more times than I can remember. It’s been, what 2 ½ years? Thanks for everything… Kai…” He never glanced at me.
What was this sudden feeling? I heard ‘Thanks’ and ‘Kai’ from his mouth. Somehow, I now felt sorry for Ruki, but he wasn’t a little kid, he had to mature and take care of himself. I had to leave, I couldn’t see him anymore. This was hurting me? Why was it hurting me? He remembered I started to baby-sit him 2 ½ years ago. The smile was accompanied by tears. My heart began to beat in sadness. Why? Was I around him for so long I began to like him? The desire to be with someone drove me to like him. He’s not a bad person, but he’s not the right person.
Days passed and I didn’t feel like looking for a job, I just wanted to relax and enjoy the loneliness that was eating me. Those days turned into weeks and those weeks into three months. I was as lazy as I could be. The TV. was always on the music channel and out of the blue on this day Ruki’s band was on. Ruki looked so much better, so handsome, so sexy. He was very talkative and happy. I began to drown my sorrows in alcohol. Was he doing better without me? Was I the bad influence? No wonder I was let go. After the show, I got a unknown number call, when I answered they hung up.
Three more weeks passed right before my eyes and I was up to my nose in alcohol. Why was I like this? Ever since I was let go and Ruki thanked me, I’ve been a wreck. I remembered the staff would get special presents from the company like CD’s, DVD’s, posters and that kind of stuff. I watched the DVD’s back to back. I watched how perverted that Ruki was. I watched how turned on I got, perhaps it was gallons of alcohol in my body, perhaps I had no control over my body, perhaps I just needed something to get rid of this need. I hand just sat there, then slowly began to move. It’s something I need, it’s not good to neglect it. As soon as my hand went inside and it took control of my out of control jewel. I began to get excited and as soon as I was getting to the point of no return, the door bell rang.
I fell to the floor with my jewel in hand and my real head ringing. I crawled all the way to the door, unlocked and opened the door. I never saw who it was, I just crawled back to the sofa and grabbed the almost empty bottle of sake. The person closed the door and walked up to the sofa and sat down.
“Hmm… You need to be taken cared of.”
“I don’t… ne…ed any…one!”
“You’ve been watching the bands DVD’s, Why?”
“I… missss that.”
“Why? You only took care of a good for nothing fool.”
“So?”
“What do you mean so? That guy didn’t appreciate you, he didn’t respect you.”
I never saw the persons face until then, “Uruha?”
“You’re worse than Ruki! Look at yourself, you’re a mess.”
“So?”
“Look Kai. I was fired too, but I’m not suffering because I don’t have Aoi to boss me around. I’m glad I was fired. I only worked 6 months with him, but that guy is weird.”
“Uruha, it was… 2 ½ years…”
“You like him or something?”
“I don’t know… may…be…”
“Kai… I have a confession to make.”
“I’m not a… priest!”
“Not that kind of confession, drunk dummy. Aoi called me and asked me if I wanted to work again… I said yes…”
“Good for you!”
“I’ve been with them for a week and the guys have changed and Aoi too.”
“So?”
“Are you going to continue with the so?”
“Yeah!”
“They want the cheery, dimple, silly, loveable, laughing chef back.”
“No!”
“Why not?”
“I don’t want to see him again.”
“Why not?”
“Like you said that guy didn’t… appreciate me, he didn’t respect… me…”
“You do have feeling for him.”
“No…”
“That ‘No’ sounds like a ‘Yes’. I’m going to leave you, so you can decide when you aren’t drunk. Call me.”
“Eh…”
The door closed and all the alcohol bottles were empty. They changed? Aoi changed? Did Ruki change? I didn’t have the energy to get up, so I crawled into the kitchen to get another bottle of sake. There was something interrupting my way to the refrigerator. When I looked up, there was a man at my stove, cooking something… Was I hallucinating things now? This was Fucked! I tried to get through to the refrigerator, but that man didn’t let me pass.
The man got down to my level and grabbed my face, not before he poured something into something “You really need to be taken care of… Kai.”
“Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh! Ruki!” I fell back, “Wh… what are you doing here?!” I suddenly felt sober.
He just smiled, “I used Uruha as bait to get in.”
“Why didn’t you just…” I was still on my back, dumbfounded.
“I wanted to hear from your mouth… something.”
“Eh?” Ruki got closer to me, then I remembered what I was doing before they came, “Fuck!” I quickly got up and tried to go to the bathroom, but Ruki stopped me. My embarrassment was obvious.
Ruki teasingly asked, “What were you doing?” As he got closer to my body.
“Not…ing, Nothing! I was doing nothing!”
“Are you sure? Because this!” He grabbed my jewel, which made me jump, “This is going to be some trouble and I think I heard enough to know what I’m going to do.”
“Wh… What are going to do?”
“My secret, shhhh!”
“Eeeeeeeh!”
“I’m only kidding, Kai. You’re drunk so I won’t do anything until you are sober.”
“Eeeeeeeeeeeeh!”
“Sit, have some coffee so you can sober up.” He sat at the kitchen table.
I calmly sat down in front of him and drank the coffee he made, “You know how to make coffee?”
“Since you been gone, I’ve changed. I had to learn how to do a lot of things alone.”
“Hm!”
“Kai…” He gently touched my hand, “Please tell me you have done other things than getting drunk…”
I looked away and grabbed the cup of coffee, “Sure…”
“You are a horrible liar!” He tighten his grip on my hand. “You’ve been strongly missed, by everyone and especially…”
I saw his adorable blushing cheeks and innocent expression, “Who?”
He retracted his hand from mine and began to play with a napkin on the table. “Me…”
That was shocking, “Me? What did you miss? Being pampered, being taken cared off, being spoiled, not respecting me, not appreciating me…”
Then I saw a tear run down Ruki’s sweet, reddish cheek, “I’m sorry…” Was said in such a soft voice.
I took a deep breathe and shook my head. I never saw Ruki so vulnerable, not even when he was drunk and acting like a baby. “Look, Ruki… I know you have changed. I know you have matured, but why are you here? I’m not the person who should be helping you. I’ll only spoiled you and it was for the better when I was let go.”
“That’s the problem.”
“What?”
“You spoiled me and I never appreciated you and when you left I felt hopeless. Then I heard the other staff members talking about how selfish I was with you and they were glad I was left to take care of myself. That’s when I decided to defend myself. I’m learning how to cook, I do the laundry and stuff. A week ago I heard the same staff members talking, they said I’ve changed for the better and it was a good decision to let you go. I thought to myself, ‘It’s not fair Kai was always teaching me to do this stuff, but I never listened to him. I only watched his ass when he was cooking or cleaning.’ You really taught me how to do this things, but I never put them to practice, until now. I’m sorry if I treated you wrongly. I really do miss you. I miss those lectures you gave me when I was half pass drunk. You might have only gotten in a word or two, but I loved that attitude of yours.”
This was a startling revelation. I was left speechless.
“Kai, I want to ask you something.”
Was he going to ask what I think he’s going to ask?
“Kai…”
“Yeah…”
“Do you play the drum?”
“Eh?!”
“Do you know how to play the drums?”
“Yeah, but why are you asking me this?”
“The drummer left and I want to be close to you. So, do you want to be the drummer?”
“Wait! Why do you want to be close to me?”
“I can’t say…”
“Ruki!”
“I love that firm voice.” He giggled.
“Ruki!”
“I just want to be close to you. You’re special.”
“Hm?”
“What?”
“Ruki… I’ve known you for 2 ½ years. I could be your mother, even though that might be very strange. You could have completely changed, but I know when your hiding something. Remember when you broke the TV. at the hotel and you didn’t want to tell me and you did everything possible so I wouldn‘t find out, until the guilt fell over you and you told me. Hm!”
He took a deep breathe, “I like you!”
“Whoa!” I got up and went to the coffee pot and drank what was left. “Ok, Can you repeat what you said, I think I misunderstood…”
“I like you, Kai.”
“As a friend and maybe a future band mate?”
“No…”
“Then?” My eye brows were scrunched together, standing by the stove.
“When I first meet you, you were so innocent and loveable, so sweet and cuddle able. You were so different, so unique, so cute, so original, I instantly fell for you. I showed my emotions being rough and I’m sorry. I was wrong. When you came up to me to say your good-byes, I couldn’t look at you, it was too painful. You out of all the people know, I wasn’t with anyone and it was because of you.”
I walked behind him and grabbed his shoulders. “Are you sick? Did someone pay you?”
He got up, “NO! I LIKE YOU! I WANT YOU! I NEED YOU!”
I just lifted one eye brow.
“I WOULD GIVE UP THE BAND FOR YOU!”
Somehow I was turned on and I began to blush.
He got closer to me, “Do you like me? You told Uruha something, but it wasn’t clear. Do you want me?”
“Why is Uruha back as a staff member?”
“You’re changing the subject! Uruha is the 2nd guitarist now.”
“Wow! Really? That’s awesome!” I was changing the subject.
“Ka…”
I returned to the subject to clear up anything and everything he wanted to know, with a kiss. He wrapped his arms around my neck, I around his smaller frame. He then wrapped his legs around my torso and I held his nice firm behind, we didn’t lose a single beat from the kiss. Never would I have thought this would be happening. I carried him up to the kitchen counter and began to take of his shirt. He suddenly stopped me.
In a timid voice he said, “Kai… you know more than anyone else… you know, I don’t like…”
I gently touched his cheek, “You can leave it on if you like.” The shirt was left on. Ruki was ashamed to show his chest to anyone, but he wasn’t ashamed of showing his throbbing jewel when he took off his pants and boxers.
How can something like that, be so excited for me? I began to kiss his neck. I went up to his nipples and began to pinch them with the shirt still being on. Ruki then stopped me and began to take off his shirt, I stopped him, “You don’t have to.”
“I want to.” He took off the shirt to reveal his almost silky, pale perfect chest.
“I don’t understand why you didn’t want to show your chest… it’s perfect!”
“It’s not like your or the other guys…”
I placed my forehead against his, “You don’t have to be ashamed about not having a six-pack or abs. You look great the way you are. This is you and you should be happy you are healthy and are here. You are a beautiful person outside and inside.”
“Inside?”
“Yes! Those lyrics you write, shows your hurt, your love, your soul, your heart, everything you are. It shows you are a sweet, caring, lovable human being.”
“Kai…”
“I mean it. How couldn’t anyone see your true self, when you were all pissy? I just don’t know how someone so pure like you, like me.”
“I’m not pure… You’re the pure one. Your innocent smile captivated me, your lectures aggravated me, your cooking warmed me, you took over me. No one has done that to me. Kai, you are special. I just hope you can love me as I love you.”
“Don’t hope!”
“What?!”
“It’s a reality, I do love you.”
His naked body fell on top of me for an embrace. I carried him to my bed to finish what was started. I was fully clothed and he was fully naked. Somehow he ripped my shirt open and threw me on the bed. This was new! Then he forcefully took off my pants with boxers and began to attack my jewel. Did I want this? Before Uruha came to my apartment I was taking care of business and I was imaging Ruki. I was longing for this moment. The roughness was incredible. How can I describe the feeling of having a small pervert that pleases himself on stage?
In a moments notice he was on top of me, about to take it all in. He looked at me and sat on it. Damn he was tight! It took a few minutes for each of us to get comfortable with each other. When he was ready, he began a steady slow movement of up and down, then he picked up the pace. My bed wasn’t the newest thing on the market, so it began to make this ‘creaking’ sound, the faster he went, the louder it got.
A few hours in and somehow we got back to the kitchen. We were covered with chocolate syrup, frosting and cherries. I was going to bake a cake, but half of the ingredients were gone. Licking cleaning every part of Ruki was exciting since I found ticklish spots on his body. Each time I would pass my tongue by his inner thigh he would giggle and moan, a strange combination, but it was so Ruki. We were so into each other until the door bell rang.
“Kai!”
“Fuck! Who can it be?” I got up slowly, without making any sound and went up to the peep hole. I mouthed to Ruki, “It’s Uruha and Aoi.”
Ruki went quickly to get his clothes, I went behind him to my room. He was about to put on his clothes when I stopped him. “You are not going out looking and smelling like this!”
“What do I smell like?”
I went up to his neck and sniffed him. “You smell like sex, sweat and chocolate.”
“Don’t you smell the same?”
I laughed, “Yeah.”
“I love your smile with that cute dimple of yours.”
“Thanks and I love you. Lets go take a shower together.”
I will not say if we kept doing it or we finally answered the door. Let just say, I had a secret crush on Ruki and he had a secret crush on me and now we are in love, but we only know it. It our beautiful secret. I did join the band and we became very successful. To make fan girls happy, Ruki still touches himself and does fan services… Which I don’t like, but I get the best part of the deal. I get to go home with him and we do naughty things to each other. After all life is good!
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A/N: This was my first KaixRuki fic. I never thought about using Kai. I'm starting to see a pattern in my fics. *-*