Unconsciously in love (ReitaxRuki) One Shot
Title: Unconsciously in love
Chapter: 1/1
Author: kuki_panda
Genre: Fluffy
Warnings: ManxMan
Rating: R
Pairings: ReitaxRuki
Band: The Gazette
Disclaimer: I wish I could own them, especially Aoi, but sadly I don't.
Summary: His heart was hurt years ago. He had to leave the little town. He meet so many people, but will any of them change the way he things?
Comments: It's partly based on a true story...
How strange does it feel to have this feeling. Do you understand? No? Let me explain. The feeling you get when you have a crush; your chest tightens, pulse raises, breathe shortens, sighs occur every minute or so, your stomach becomes a battle field, filled with butterflies. Every time you see them, you feel like dying of embarrassment. *Sigh* Well, this is how I’m feeling at this very moment. Please don’t ask why; this feeling just crept into me out of the blue. I’m not attracted to anyone… Well of course this is my conscious self speaking. What if my unconscious has fallen for someone? Aren’t I suppose to know this? I hate this feeling of not knowing who, what, when, how, why and who. I don’t want to have a crush… getting hurt isn’t fun. Time has passed since ‘him’ and I don’t want to have a repeat of that situation; crying endlessly because of my poor broken, shattered heart. Becoming miserable again, waking up the monster. I’m fine the way I am now, why do things have to change?
Can any little thing influence your judgment on a person? Upon meeting a person, can these feelings commence? Or am I just stupid enough to fall for the first person that looked cute and made me feel happy? Making me forget the passed, isn’t fairly easy. Sharing real emotions isn’t my style… I’m not a fake person, I just don’t show really happy or really sad emotions. Plus why would someone want to accept my feelings, emotions or problems. Hmm… one of my biggest problems; you don’t want to know, just know that if I continue, I’ll be dying oh so slowly…
Am I slowly realizing the curiously I have for this person? Is this healthy? Is my conscious saying it doesn’t want to like anyone and my unconscious saying it does want to like someone. Or is my heart fighting to take over my feelings? I’m terribly confused. *Sigh*
My first love, I meet in a all boys school. He never knew I was alive. One day I was alone in my corner, my friends ditched me. He sat next to me. ‘Why so lonely, lovely?’ My heart stopped, luckily I was sitting, cause I felt my legs were numb. We began to talk and I invited him to a cousins birthday party. We disappeared from the boring party to a nearby park. We sat under the rain and he gave me my first kiss. My heart raced, I felt alive. Then he confessed he wanted to take things slow cause he got out of a relationship. Me being stupid believed him. After that he would come over and we would play video games… he would kiss me. I would go over to a friends house and he would come over too and kiss me. He soon got frustrated with me, ‘Why don’t you use your tongue when we kiss?’ Stupid you’re my first, I wouldn’t dare say that to him. The day came when he finally invited me over to his house, for a ‘party’. Little did I know his true intentions. The party was for two and the main event would be held on his bed. ‘I won’t do anything you don’t want to do.’ Yet he kept kissing and feeling me up.
So many, No’s and a few hours later he was to getting his way, no matter if I said no he kept coming, no matter the struggle he kept holding on to me, until his mother walked in. She called a gay, man-whore, etc. After that day he kept insisting we continue what we started. There was no way I was going to give up my virginity to him, even though I thought about it. Rumor spread that I slept with him; that rumor never reached me until I graduated high school. A week after that incident I saw him in school making out with a guy in front of everyone. My heart shattered into so many pieces, I’m sure I still haven’t found a few pieces. He sent me a text saying, ‘I have a boyfriend. You didn’t want to give me what I wanted, so I found the guy who will.’ How do you think a high school boy would feel after that?
My relationship status has stayed single, I had my eye on a few guys and kissed less. Keeping my heart at distance from any kind of hurt it might encounter. That little town was driving me crazy with past memories. I left for the city. I meet so many people, some will backstab you, some will depend on you and some are willing to be your friend for free. Working at a fancy restaurant, were I got the nickname: Ruki. They would joke around with me about my height, I didn’t mind. Before my life wasn’t pleasant, I was always depressed. That guy almost caused me life precious life. Those scar don’t heal fast enough. Now I can’t say… I am me. I know who I am, but that hurt after so many years lingers.
After, days, weeks, months and a year the guys at work invited me out to a night club… the boss was there too. I never really interacted with him much, but he was a friendly, attractive guy. One of the guys pulled me on stage to sing… It was karaoke night. I’m a shy guy so I began to walk off stage when I found in front of me my boss. ‘Lets sing together.’ How could I say no? The song that came up was called Pledge by the GazettE. Good band. We began reading the words, I knew the song so I closed my eyes and began to sing. My boss stopped and watched. When the song concluded, everyone stood up and applauded. I went back to my seat sheepishly.
My boss handed me a drink, “You have a great voice, why are you working at my restaurant?”
“I have never sang before. And I needed a job.”
He just smiled and kept enjoying the night. I felt flushed all throughout the night. I felt something strange happen that night. The next day at work he greeted everyone and left me for last. When I saw him walking up to me my heart raced, my breathe shorten, what was wrong with me?
“Good Evening, Ruki!” His tone was cheerful. This was very strange cause he wasn’t a cheerful person.
“Evening, boss.” I couldn’t look at him. I might be blushing.
“Don’t call me boss. Call me… Reita.”
Reita? Anyways he was this perfect man, blond hair, gentle eyes, bad boy attitude. The only thing that was ruining his perfect features was… a noseband? Would he dare say why he wore that thing? Maybe he has an ugly nose or had a nose job… Or maybe he wears it to look cool and mysterious.
Each night for the next two months, I would go home and think about this man, so much I began to dream about him. But I don’t like him… this side effects could be the weather or work or stress. Heart beat racing, shortness of breathe, a battle field of butterflies is normal, right? I can not like this man, my heart can’t be fixed with a simple bandage. My heart needs to be nourished and given real love for it to heal.
It was closing time and the boss, I mean Reita called me into his office. Did I do something wrong?
“Sit.” His office wasn’t big, but it was fancy. “You want a smoke?”
“No.”
He sat on his desk in front of me, “Ruki, you’ve been working here for a year now. You are good at waiting tables and treating my customers, but don’t you prefer to be famous?”
“Eh? What do you mean famous?”
“You have a great voice. You shouldn’t be working here. You should be famous. You should be heard by everyone. You are amazing Ruki! Since we went to that night club and I heard you sing, I can’t stop thinking about you… I mean your lovely voice.”
“Ah! Thank you.” Was he coming onto me or was I imagining things.
“I can’t allow your talent to be hidden here. I can’t keep you.”
I felt he was breaking up with me.
“You know I have a rule.” He seemed flushed. “I don’t date employees.”
“Eh?!” Date? Who was he dating?
“Ruki, you think I haven’t been observing you this whole year here? You’re wrong. You’ve been under my constant watch… I like… you… your way.” He quickly got up and went to his chair.
“You like… my way? I don’t seem to understand.”
He took a deep breathe, “I LIKE YOU! I’m sorry you can’t work here anymore…”
“Wait a second! I’m fired because you like me? This isn’t fair…” I got up in his face, something I never did, but this got me angry. “How can you fire an employee because you like them. This isn’t a valid reason! You have to give me a better reason…”
I noticed he was holding back, but he looked at me with those beautiful, soul taking eyes and saw everything. “I’m sorry…” He whispered. “I will help you with anything, if you like I’ll make you famous. I have connections, but please… don’t torture me with your presence.”
“Now I’m torturing you? You should have just said you didn’t want me working here…”
“It’s not that I don’t… it’s that I can’t mix work and pleasure…” He shook his head. “I want to go out with you, but you seem so perfect. You got to have someone special next to you. I envy them.”
“What?”
“I was the one who planned that night out. I wanted to get to know you. I’m happy I heard your soul instead.”
I was in shock, I couldn’t connect the pieces.
“Ruki, at least let me be your friend.”
“Reita…” My mind was saying ‘Go for it’ and strangely enough my broken heart was saying the same thing. I closed my eyes and fell to the floor. “I have no one. My heart has been shattered years ago, but I don’t seem to understand what it’s saying at the moment… My unconscious has been fighting with me to take a chance with you, but I don’t want to get hurt… I don’t know what to do.”
I didn’t see the smile on Reita’s face, but when I felt his hands on my face I sure felt it. “Ruki, you are fired. Now lets get to know each other.”
“Hmm!”
“I’m not the type of person that hurts and leaves, the bastard that hurt you should die and if I find him, he will pay.”
I just smiled. I felt cared for.
“He didn’t know how love and appreciate you. And that’s a sin. I want to save an angel and I hope that angel returns the favor.”
Can this be the person who will be nourish and give real love to my healing heart? Only time will tell, but the man has been observing for a year and hasn’t done anything until now… I think it’s worth it, right? I know my heart seems to be responding well to him and I’m positive my unconscious knew this will happen. This is why I am unconsciously in love with Reita since I got the job a year ago.
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A/N: Like I said, it's partly based on a true story, the other half is fiction...
Chapter: 1/1
Author: kuki_panda
Genre: Fluffy
Warnings: ManxMan
Rating: R
Pairings: ReitaxRuki
Band: The Gazette
Disclaimer: I wish I could own them, especially Aoi, but sadly I don't.
Summary: His heart was hurt years ago. He had to leave the little town. He meet so many people, but will any of them change the way he things?
Comments: It's partly based on a true story...
How strange does it feel to have this feeling. Do you understand? No? Let me explain. The feeling you get when you have a crush; your chest tightens, pulse raises, breathe shortens, sighs occur every minute or so, your stomach becomes a battle field, filled with butterflies. Every time you see them, you feel like dying of embarrassment. *Sigh* Well, this is how I’m feeling at this very moment. Please don’t ask why; this feeling just crept into me out of the blue. I’m not attracted to anyone… Well of course this is my conscious self speaking. What if my unconscious has fallen for someone? Aren’t I suppose to know this? I hate this feeling of not knowing who, what, when, how, why and who. I don’t want to have a crush… getting hurt isn’t fun. Time has passed since ‘him’ and I don’t want to have a repeat of that situation; crying endlessly because of my poor broken, shattered heart. Becoming miserable again, waking up the monster. I’m fine the way I am now, why do things have to change?
Can any little thing influence your judgment on a person? Upon meeting a person, can these feelings commence? Or am I just stupid enough to fall for the first person that looked cute and made me feel happy? Making me forget the passed, isn’t fairly easy. Sharing real emotions isn’t my style… I’m not a fake person, I just don’t show really happy or really sad emotions. Plus why would someone want to accept my feelings, emotions or problems. Hmm… one of my biggest problems; you don’t want to know, just know that if I continue, I’ll be dying oh so slowly…
Am I slowly realizing the curiously I have for this person? Is this healthy? Is my conscious saying it doesn’t want to like anyone and my unconscious saying it does want to like someone. Or is my heart fighting to take over my feelings? I’m terribly confused. *Sigh*
My first love, I meet in a all boys school. He never knew I was alive. One day I was alone in my corner, my friends ditched me. He sat next to me. ‘Why so lonely, lovely?’ My heart stopped, luckily I was sitting, cause I felt my legs were numb. We began to talk and I invited him to a cousins birthday party. We disappeared from the boring party to a nearby park. We sat under the rain and he gave me my first kiss. My heart raced, I felt alive. Then he confessed he wanted to take things slow cause he got out of a relationship. Me being stupid believed him. After that he would come over and we would play video games… he would kiss me. I would go over to a friends house and he would come over too and kiss me. He soon got frustrated with me, ‘Why don’t you use your tongue when we kiss?’ Stupid you’re my first, I wouldn’t dare say that to him. The day came when he finally invited me over to his house, for a ‘party’. Little did I know his true intentions. The party was for two and the main event would be held on his bed. ‘I won’t do anything you don’t want to do.’ Yet he kept kissing and feeling me up.
So many, No’s and a few hours later he was to getting his way, no matter if I said no he kept coming, no matter the struggle he kept holding on to me, until his mother walked in. She called a gay, man-whore, etc. After that day he kept insisting we continue what we started. There was no way I was going to give up my virginity to him, even though I thought about it. Rumor spread that I slept with him; that rumor never reached me until I graduated high school. A week after that incident I saw him in school making out with a guy in front of everyone. My heart shattered into so many pieces, I’m sure I still haven’t found a few pieces. He sent me a text saying, ‘I have a boyfriend. You didn’t want to give me what I wanted, so I found the guy who will.’ How do you think a high school boy would feel after that?
My relationship status has stayed single, I had my eye on a few guys and kissed less. Keeping my heart at distance from any kind of hurt it might encounter. That little town was driving me crazy with past memories. I left for the city. I meet so many people, some will backstab you, some will depend on you and some are willing to be your friend for free. Working at a fancy restaurant, were I got the nickname: Ruki. They would joke around with me about my height, I didn’t mind. Before my life wasn’t pleasant, I was always depressed. That guy almost caused me life precious life. Those scar don’t heal fast enough. Now I can’t say… I am me. I know who I am, but that hurt after so many years lingers.
After, days, weeks, months and a year the guys at work invited me out to a night club… the boss was there too. I never really interacted with him much, but he was a friendly, attractive guy. One of the guys pulled me on stage to sing… It was karaoke night. I’m a shy guy so I began to walk off stage when I found in front of me my boss. ‘Lets sing together.’ How could I say no? The song that came up was called Pledge by the GazettE. Good band. We began reading the words, I knew the song so I closed my eyes and began to sing. My boss stopped and watched. When the song concluded, everyone stood up and applauded. I went back to my seat sheepishly.
My boss handed me a drink, “You have a great voice, why are you working at my restaurant?”
“I have never sang before. And I needed a job.”
He just smiled and kept enjoying the night. I felt flushed all throughout the night. I felt something strange happen that night. The next day at work he greeted everyone and left me for last. When I saw him walking up to me my heart raced, my breathe shorten, what was wrong with me?
“Good Evening, Ruki!” His tone was cheerful. This was very strange cause he wasn’t a cheerful person.
“Evening, boss.” I couldn’t look at him. I might be blushing.
“Don’t call me boss. Call me… Reita.”
Reita? Anyways he was this perfect man, blond hair, gentle eyes, bad boy attitude. The only thing that was ruining his perfect features was… a noseband? Would he dare say why he wore that thing? Maybe he has an ugly nose or had a nose job… Or maybe he wears it to look cool and mysterious.
Each night for the next two months, I would go home and think about this man, so much I began to dream about him. But I don’t like him… this side effects could be the weather or work or stress. Heart beat racing, shortness of breathe, a battle field of butterflies is normal, right? I can not like this man, my heart can’t be fixed with a simple bandage. My heart needs to be nourished and given real love for it to heal.
It was closing time and the boss, I mean Reita called me into his office. Did I do something wrong?
“Sit.” His office wasn’t big, but it was fancy. “You want a smoke?”
“No.”
He sat on his desk in front of me, “Ruki, you’ve been working here for a year now. You are good at waiting tables and treating my customers, but don’t you prefer to be famous?”
“Eh? What do you mean famous?”
“You have a great voice. You shouldn’t be working here. You should be famous. You should be heard by everyone. You are amazing Ruki! Since we went to that night club and I heard you sing, I can’t stop thinking about you… I mean your lovely voice.”
“Ah! Thank you.” Was he coming onto me or was I imagining things.
“I can’t allow your talent to be hidden here. I can’t keep you.”
I felt he was breaking up with me.
“You know I have a rule.” He seemed flushed. “I don’t date employees.”
“Eh?!” Date? Who was he dating?
“Ruki, you think I haven’t been observing you this whole year here? You’re wrong. You’ve been under my constant watch… I like… you… your way.” He quickly got up and went to his chair.
“You like… my way? I don’t seem to understand.”
He took a deep breathe, “I LIKE YOU! I’m sorry you can’t work here anymore…”
“Wait a second! I’m fired because you like me? This isn’t fair…” I got up in his face, something I never did, but this got me angry. “How can you fire an employee because you like them. This isn’t a valid reason! You have to give me a better reason…”
I noticed he was holding back, but he looked at me with those beautiful, soul taking eyes and saw everything. “I’m sorry…” He whispered. “I will help you with anything, if you like I’ll make you famous. I have connections, but please… don’t torture me with your presence.”
“Now I’m torturing you? You should have just said you didn’t want me working here…”
“It’s not that I don’t… it’s that I can’t mix work and pleasure…” He shook his head. “I want to go out with you, but you seem so perfect. You got to have someone special next to you. I envy them.”
“What?”
“I was the one who planned that night out. I wanted to get to know you. I’m happy I heard your soul instead.”
I was in shock, I couldn’t connect the pieces.
“Ruki, at least let me be your friend.”
“Reita…” My mind was saying ‘Go for it’ and strangely enough my broken heart was saying the same thing. I closed my eyes and fell to the floor. “I have no one. My heart has been shattered years ago, but I don’t seem to understand what it’s saying at the moment… My unconscious has been fighting with me to take a chance with you, but I don’t want to get hurt… I don’t know what to do.”
I didn’t see the smile on Reita’s face, but when I felt his hands on my face I sure felt it. “Ruki, you are fired. Now lets get to know each other.”
“Hmm!”
“I’m not the type of person that hurts and leaves, the bastard that hurt you should die and if I find him, he will pay.”
I just smiled. I felt cared for.
“He didn’t know how love and appreciate you. And that’s a sin. I want to save an angel and I hope that angel returns the favor.”
Can this be the person who will be nourish and give real love to my healing heart? Only time will tell, but the man has been observing for a year and hasn’t done anything until now… I think it’s worth it, right? I know my heart seems to be responding well to him and I’m positive my unconscious knew this will happen. This is why I am unconsciously in love with Reita since I got the job a year ago.
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A/N: Like I said, it's partly based on a true story, the other half is fiction...