“Is this a dagger which I see before me…?”
::Dances:: Got an A in Calculus. And you want to know the sad thing? I’m actually enjoying Calc. And I mean, a lot. It’s the first year since Algebra I where I enjoy taking as many problems as I can and figuring them out. Hehe. ^_^ In a good mood. I got a B+ on a fucking Lit composition though. I was about to hack Dr.Ware’s neck..B+. It couldn’t be an A-?!?! Well, I still have like a 3.8 in that class now. Damn B. ::Curses:: Anyhow, yeah. I continue to be one of the few people who show up to creative writing every day. Heh, people are under the impression Schroeder doesn’t care about attendance. They’re going to find nice Fs on their transcript. Bakas. Well he likes me since I do my work and research. I’ve started gathering everything I thought up for the next story. Going to be a very, very fun piece to write. Yay.
Hrm. I think I might tutor Calculus next semester or year… I was offered a job tutoring at like 45 an hour.. I couldn’t take that much money. ::Shrugs:: Anyway, I’m still not good enough to tutor. --;. I guess I will next year. Would be nice money. Ugh.. 9 classes next semester, ::cries::
I have to memorize a bunch of lines from Macbeth (I’ve read this play WAY too many times. I think it’s the 4th time for school). I’m trying to find myself a good book on medieval theology. Off topic, Dr.Ware is lending me a book on 14th century society which looks awesome. Hrm. I also need to get an OT. My mom said we had one. It’s a French NT, not an English OT… --;. Baka. It’s quite ironic considering that last year I refused to take a certain class on the basis that we would be forced to read some books from the OT, and I was so blindly atheist that I professed a secular school couldn’t force that. Shame I was an idiot and didn’t take the class. Now I want to read the entire OT. So interesting. Heh.
::Recites lines:: Almost done with the second of the three sets.
::Listens to ‘Lifehouse -Spin’ which has been playing all too much randomly on his play list of over 1.5K songs:: Rich told me to get this song a while after he broke up with me.. and I didn’t get it for a very long time. Not until about two months ago. But I just remembered a few days ago why I downloaded it when I saw the name: Because Rich told me to. Heh. “You and I wouldn’t change a thing”. Bastard. You really should have dealt with your fear Rich. I know you don’t have much courage, especially in yourself, but this meant more to me and you than just a normal relationship. But I’m sorry for all the stress it caused you.. Okay, moving on. And yes I’m over him, but it doesn’t mean I can’t miss what he had. I don’t miss *him*, I miss the relationship.. the feelings.. the reciprocity of those feelings.
I'd rather chase your shadow all my life
Than be afraid of my own
I'd rather be with you
I'd rather not know
Where I'll be than be alone and convinced that I know
When the world keeps spinning 'round
My world's upside down and I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
Everything I know has let me down
So I will just let go
Let you turn me inside out
'Cause I know I'm not sure
About anything but you wouldn't have it any other way
When the world keeps spinning 'round
My world's upside down and I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
Spinning turning watching burning
All my life has found its meaning
Walking crawling climbing falling
All my life has found its meaning
You and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
When the world keeps spinning 'round
My world's upside down and I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
I miss Mara. I miss everyone in VA. I really felt so wonderful. It was one of those very seldom times in my life in which happiness was not just a fleeting emotion. I’ve come to believe in my life it will amount to only that, though: a fleeting emotion. I want that night back. That night where my feet moved to the beats as they intertwined and looped, a cycle on which I pivoted but changed my outlook with each rotation [of the cycle]. Where droplets of sweat were just pushed into my hair.. where I was truly happy. At peace.
Hrm. I think I might tutor Calculus next semester or year… I was offered a job tutoring at like 45 an hour.. I couldn’t take that much money. ::Shrugs:: Anyway, I’m still not good enough to tutor. --;. I guess I will next year. Would be nice money. Ugh.. 9 classes next semester, ::cries::
I have to memorize a bunch of lines from Macbeth (I’ve read this play WAY too many times. I think it’s the 4th time for school). I’m trying to find myself a good book on medieval theology. Off topic, Dr.Ware is lending me a book on 14th century society which looks awesome. Hrm. I also need to get an OT. My mom said we had one. It’s a French NT, not an English OT… --;. Baka. It’s quite ironic considering that last year I refused to take a certain class on the basis that we would be forced to read some books from the OT, and I was so blindly atheist that I professed a secular school couldn’t force that. Shame I was an idiot and didn’t take the class. Now I want to read the entire OT. So interesting. Heh.
::Recites lines:: Almost done with the second of the three sets.
::Listens to ‘Lifehouse -Spin’ which has been playing all too much randomly on his play list of over 1.5K songs:: Rich told me to get this song a while after he broke up with me.. and I didn’t get it for a very long time. Not until about two months ago. But I just remembered a few days ago why I downloaded it when I saw the name: Because Rich told me to. Heh. “You and I wouldn’t change a thing”. Bastard. You really should have dealt with your fear Rich. I know you don’t have much courage, especially in yourself, but this meant more to me and you than just a normal relationship. But I’m sorry for all the stress it caused you.. Okay, moving on. And yes I’m over him, but it doesn’t mean I can’t miss what he had. I don’t miss *him*, I miss the relationship.. the feelings.. the reciprocity of those feelings.
I'd rather chase your shadow all my life
Than be afraid of my own
I'd rather be with you
I'd rather not know
Where I'll be than be alone and convinced that I know
When the world keeps spinning 'round
My world's upside down and I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
Everything I know has let me down
So I will just let go
Let you turn me inside out
'Cause I know I'm not sure
About anything but you wouldn't have it any other way
When the world keeps spinning 'round
My world's upside down and I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
Spinning turning watching burning
All my life has found its meaning
Walking crawling climbing falling
All my life has found its meaning
You and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
When the world keeps spinning 'round
My world's upside down and I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
I miss Mara. I miss everyone in VA. I really felt so wonderful. It was one of those very seldom times in my life in which happiness was not just a fleeting emotion. I’ve come to believe in my life it will amount to only that, though: a fleeting emotion. I want that night back. That night where my feet moved to the beats as they intertwined and looped, a cycle on which I pivoted but changed my outlook with each rotation [of the cycle]. Where droplets of sweat were just pushed into my hair.. where I was truly happy. At peace.