I'm just tired. To my bones.

[kuhpuh]

It just seems like the logical thing to do. There's a lot going on, and I don't think there's anyone who fully understands-- it's not just the loss of my parents , it's everything that came after it and the position I'm in now. And that's okay that it can't be understood. It just means only I am qualified to make the desicion. I don't know why I keep posting. That's probably the question everyone's asking themselves. I guess a small part of me wants to find a savior. I always loved a good fairy tale. But there is no savior. And I just don't have it in me to climb the mountain in front of me. It doesn't have to be a sad thing. Just think of it as moving on. Hopefully to somewhere happier.Easier.

And I just want to say one reason that I post this here is because I don't feel like I can talk to anyone. I don't want to talk to friends because I'm afraid they'll think I'm passive aggressively asking them for something. And I hate that.ive taken too much from them already. I can't talk to my therapist about these things cuz they woukd make me go to inpatient.

But no one freak out. Im still too chicken.