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[kuchren]

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[anonymous]

[kuchren]

I must've done something horrible to you. (That wasn't sarcasm, just a statement.)

I'm not going to sit here and say that I've been an excellent friend, because I certainly haven't. I'm not even going to deny the fact that I'm flaky. And I've probably treated a lot of people badly before, I won't deny that part either.

But I don't forget about people. I may not talk to my 'old friends' as much as my 'new friends' (though, to be quite honest, I don't really talk to anyone much anymore.) But I don't forget about my friends. And I haven't been ignoring anyone. As far as I've been aware, I've responded to anyone who's tried talking to me (albeit, occasionally kind of poorly due to lack of conversation topics and conversations don't always last very long, but still a response.)

But I'll admit that I'm not as social as I used to be. I don't communicate with people as much as I used to. And I'm rarely ever on IM even though it's kind of always on nowadays. Yes, I've moved on from the things I used to do (i.e. I don't RP anymore, and I'm

[anonymous]

[kuchren]

Well, considering how I've been talking to anyone who's been IMing me lately (if I am at the computer at the time/they are still online when I get back and see their message) why are you not trying to reconnect with me, anon? It takes two to break down a friendship, after all. And it takes two to build one.

I'm not going to deny that I am selfish. Doesn't everyone want affection? But that's not an excuse. Yes, I want affection. In a perfect world, I would love to have everything revolving around me. I'm not afraid to admit that.

And I'm certainly not going to deny the fact that I haven't been online much lately. I sign on briefly at night, check my email in the mornings, and then generally leave my computer on and IM running but walk away from the computer. When I am at the computer, I don't really IM people. I'll talk to people who IM me, but I very rarely instigate conversation. This isn't anything new though; I've had anxiety of IMing people for years. Even people I've known for years. Even people I love. Even people I've had

[anonymous]

[kuchren]

I'm sorry if I've ignored you, it certainly wasn't a conscious choice. Possibly I never got your IMs/Emails/comments/etc. Maybe you're one of the people who IMed me while I was away from the computer but left before I got online? (I know I IMed at least one back, but I'm not sure if said person got the message.)

As far as promises go, I can't say much about them because I'm not sure which promises you refer to. All I can really say is, maybe situations change, and some things end up not being deliverable.

You're right in saying I like attention and affection. But you're wrong in assuming that I like people to wait for me. I don't expect anyone to wait for me. I'm sorry you've waited, but I wasn't aware that anyone was waiting for me.