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Life seems to be going by so fast. I havent had much time to come on here...So much has been going on. Working 2 jobs is slowly catching up on me.Im trying to make the best out of my life. Time is going by so fast. 2008 is just around the corner. I dont have much to show for the past year. The one thing that I feel good about is the fact that my bills have slowly disappeared. I guess working two jobs will do that. Im enjoying having all this extra cash in my bank. I hate working two jobs though. Its tough. Im not home enough to spend the quality time I would like to spend with Mike. The house is now always a mess and I hate it. When I come home at night from Kohls I ask myself where the hell did the day go?
I started smoking again. I made it a year and 2 weeks smoke free and something for some unknown reason picked up a smoke and it all began again. Tomorrow being New Years Eve I was going to quit again but I know deep down inside Im not ready yet. Ive slacked on the gym. Yes, I am a fat ass. I feel and look like one. Im so unhappy with the way I look. I wonder sometimes just what Mike sees when he looks at me. Does he think Im beautiful or does he see me as I see me? Anyway...
As 2008 rolls around I will do my best to try to make things better in my life.
~Work harder to pay the rest of my bills off.
~~Hopefully quit smoking by Feb.
~~~Get my ass to the gym and work my ass off to lose weight for my brothers wedding.
~~~~Be a better person to myself and others.
~~~~~Make Mike feel like the man he is. There are times when Im really not a nice person to him and when its all said and done, I feel like shit for the way I treat him.
He is my life. Never can I think of a day without him.
I started smoking again. I made it a year and 2 weeks smoke free and something for some unknown reason picked up a smoke and it all began again. Tomorrow being New Years Eve I was going to quit again but I know deep down inside Im not ready yet. Ive slacked on the gym. Yes, I am a fat ass. I feel and look like one. Im so unhappy with the way I look. I wonder sometimes just what Mike sees when he looks at me. Does he think Im beautiful or does he see me as I see me? Anyway...
As 2008 rolls around I will do my best to try to make things better in my life.
~Work harder to pay the rest of my bills off.
~~Hopefully quit smoking by Feb.
~~~Get my ass to the gym and work my ass off to lose weight for my brothers wedding.
~~~~Be a better person to myself and others.
~~~~~Make Mike feel like the man he is. There are times when Im really not a nice person to him and when its all said and done, I feel like shit for the way I treat him.
He is my life. Never can I think of a day without him.