Moved...

[kubbylass]

Lots has happened since I last updated. I've moved to N. WI. Learning to trust a lot more. Trust is becoming my keyword, my mantra. I'm just trying to keep from driving my daughter crazy, altho I've a feeling it's not working. She thinks she hides it well, but she isn't. I know she'd rather not have us there at all, but it is what it is. I wish we could have a good relationship - I know she would live with her dad always, and me never, if she could have her way. I think our relationship is good, but I somehow get the feeling from her that she'd rather not have me around, and I don't know exactly why. I've been trying to stay out of her way and leave her be...I can see how she'd rather spend time with her dad than me, and I don't say anything. I realize it's never gonna be like it was with my mom, and I just have to accept that and move on. I will always wonder wtf I ever did to make her feel like this about me, because I'm clueless. I just feel that on the surface she smiles and makes nice, but inside she's like, "fuck you!"
Wish it weren't, dunno how to (or if I could) fix it. ::sigh: