*you were here, and now you're gone*

[ktxcore]

pictures tomorrow. maybe.
i just don't feel up to it.
i love sandi. i really do.
she's the one person that can truely keep me sane.
i can't wait till friday.
i need to get the hell away from this wretched place.
i need to get away from these people.
these BOYS.
god i hope there's a decent guy at the ocean.
otherwise, i will have lost all hope.
i was sitting in front of jake's tonight with him and sandi,
and i couldn't be happy.
i was sitting with my best friend, and my good friend,
and i was depressed more than i have been lately.
i've really been ok lately.
and then i have right now.
i went to a wedding shower this morning.
talk about the kiss of death.
it was great to see how happy they were.
it was awesome.
and i can't wait to be that happy and in love again.
cause i was. i am still.
and i am absolutely stupid for it.
ugh. bedtime.
i work a full day tomorrow again [till 5].
i'll update sometime after that.
with pictures, if i feel up to it.
later. <3