gonna get you somewhere warm...

[ktw_act2]

so thursday it was really stormy here. we were under some storm warnings so after lunch we had to take all the girls to the basement just in case. after about an hour and a half the storm had passed and it was just dripping outside so we brought all the girls up to the living room of main bunk and we watched the princess diaries. after the movie was over the storm was really gone, it didnt even look like it was raining anymore, so we let everyone out to go and shower and get ready for dinner (which was in like 30 min). well, the 15 min bugle went and five of the ten girls in my bunk ran out to the dining room while my co counselor and i and the other 5 girls were still getting ready and cleaning etc. well suddenly it started to pour and the wind picked up and the door blew open. Well my co counselor, elinor, shut the door back and then the lights went out. i turned around to tell everyone that we needed to make a run for main bunk before it got bad. as i turned around i looked out the front window and the huge pine tree that is right outside the window looked started to move. i think i screamed that the tree was falling. then all at once elinor grabbed three kids and i grabbed the other two and threw them to the back of the bunk. elinor threw herself onto her bed and pushed the girls under her and i got on top of the other girls and covered my head and said a prayer to anyone who would listen as the tree fell through out celling. the force of the tree, as well as the fact that the 7 ft roots were being lifted out from under the bunk pushed the bunk back into and the tree got stuck on something so that only about half of the tree fell all the way down. as soon as the tree stopped falling i flung open the back door and started throwing girls out the door. elinor jumped out and threw the girls to bunk 11 and told them to hide under the bed and took off to main bunk. after the girls were out i ran out and started screaming for everyone to run to main bunk. the stacey, one of the counselors from bunk 11 was at the back door of our bunk and screaming that not all the girls had gotten out. that was the first time i got scared. i ran back into the bunk and looked out to the fact that half of the bunk was just gone. and i tried to run forward to search the wreckage but the bunk was not on it's support and the wind was still going so the bunk lurched again and i ran out and pushed stacey out who was screaming that there were still 5 girls in there. i told her that there were only 5 girls in there to begin with and then i ran. i ran like i have never run before to the dining hall. as i was running i turned to see that bunk 11 was running too and i saw two of the 5 girls we had thrown from the back of the bunk holding each other, running, and crying. one of them was madeline who's house burned down just before she came to camp. i have never, never seen pure terror like it was on madeline's face. I grabbed on to them and ran with them saying that everything was fine. i went into the dinning room and found all the girls in a mass crying. i sat them down and tried to calm them as best as i could. telling them that no one was hurt and that everything would be okay and that it was not that bad. a few other counselors came over and we ate what dinner we could. then the director patty told us we could go to her mother (the other director)'s cottage, so i went with the girls to the cottage. at by the time we got to the cottage the girls had been calmed and i was making jokes about it so the mood was pretty light. the girls were fighting about whether they should watch the last mimsey or high school musical when the power came back. then the head of a&c came with a message that patty's house had power so we could go there. at this point i realized that i was in shock and that it would wear out soon and that i would freak out. so i asked debs (a&c head) to take the girls there. she said sure and i walked to main bunk. as i got there i stood for a min with moe, head of waterfront, to try to figure out what needed to be done, i knew that i couldnt stand around and i couldnt be around kids. and i started to shake. over the walkie casey, my boss, was screaming asking where i was. she thought i was still in the wreckage. moe called over that i was here, but casey continued to freak out until i got on and said i was fine. biggest lie of my life. so finally i saw a group of people heading to the waterfront because the power was still out for the rest of camp and our water is electric, so we have to fill trash cans with lake water to be able to flush toilettes. they were taking the in these lift trucks that we have around so there were these big breaks while we were waiting for them to return. at this point my head was aching, i think i hit it on the side of the bunk while i was throwing girls, and my heart was racing and i felt like i was burning up. so i took off my sweat shirt and handed my phone to somebody and started walking deeper and deeper into the lake and then i just laid down under water. i felt much better after that but everyone else was pretty worried that i had lost it. they kept asking my what day it was and when my birthday was. then one of the group leaders came and got me telling me marcy, head of staff, wanted to see me and that they were all at patty's house with my kids. so i went to patty's house and sat outside on her deck for a really long time, i was dripping and didnt want to come in to the carpet. my kids were right inside and apparently high school musical had won, and they were singing and dancing around and calling their parents (patty had already spoken to all of them). then marcy came out and got me and said that i should take a shower and put me in the bathroom with a pair of sweats and didnt leave the door till i ran the water. i got in and just stood there for a while and then the shock really started to wear off and reality came in. i got out and got dressed and went into patty's bedroom where marcy and moe were sitting. marcy looked at me and told me that i was to sleep in the infirmary and asked me if i wanted to call my mom. i said no that i needed to be doing something to help. she took me outside to a different deck and sat me down and had me tell her what happened. so i did. and the shaking that had started before, it never really stopped, but at this point in became uncontrollible. marcy said that i needed to stop and decompress and take it easy and go to the infirmary. she offered me a phone again to call my mom and this time i took it. i told my mom what happened and she asked if everyone was alright and i said yes, so she just said, well then okay. then she told me that alex moore was trying to evict everyone from my apartment because he had not gotten my rent. she followed that up by saying not to worry about it that she would take care of it. after i hung up i moe took me to a van that was to take me to the infirmary but i couldnt find my shoes so marcy gave me a pair of patty's flip flops. and with that i made my way to the infirmary to sleep it off.

they got almost all of our stuff out and the tree is gone and the bunk is gone and a few other trees around there were cut down. out of spite i suppose and we are supposed to get a new bunk within a week. the girls are sleeping in the back of one of the really big senior bunks and i have slept in the infirmary for the past two days. elinor had some severe brusing from everyone jumping/having been thrown onto her and has been in the infirmary since along with another counselor who got hit in the head with a log and had a concussion. i have been in and out of the infirmary. i sleep there and they let me out yesterday after lunch and then today first thing i was allowed to leave but the shaking hasn't stopped. i have a hard time typing (this has taken me about 2 hours) and i drop things and can't pick them up etc. i cant eat. i get really sick everytime i do and i throw up. but i dont tell them because that would cost me a little more time in the infirmary. i also can't sleep. i sleep for about an hour at a time and then i re live the whole thing and wake up in a panic. that is really the worst because i am really exausted. so thats it. i might be fucked up for life... or more fucked up for life... whatever. i'll just be a lot more okay when everything goes back to normal.

oh and alex moore got my check the next day and the sun came out the next day, so maybe it just has to get really bad before it gets worse.